Selling the Family Home

This entry is part 13 of 28 in the series Morning Porch Poems: Autumn 2013

 

This neighborhood used to be a government
camp for laborers building the city up from scratch—

Mother said, later, a row of bungalows came up:
housing for officials on vacation from the capital.

Mother washed floors caked with dust
when we moved here fifty years ago—

She said this house, No. 6, used to be
one of the president’s summer homes.

His portrait used to hang in the front room,
but I don’t know now where it’s gone.

After we settled in, the first thing she did
was plant a garden: grass seed strewn across

the muddy flats in front; then rose bushes,
even a dwarf apple tree, like a foreign hope

to nurture through the years. When I was ten,
my parents extended the kitchen and put in

granite tiles with sawtooth shapes, remaindered from
someone else’s building project. Father took his lump

sum in retirement, and before I graduated college,
had all the floors re-done in wood parquet, the walls

paneled in pine. Before the money ran out, he’d hoped
to turn the rafter space into an extra room, snug

for reading beneath the eaves. This room is still
unbuilt, but there’s a staircase with beautiful balusters

leading to the space of what might have been.
And all of us are gone, or going, one by one—

So mother in her waning years will find
a buyer willing to take it, tear it down,

make of it some new thing we might no longer
recognize… She sits and sorts and packs,

discards detritus, surfeit of accountables:
garments, furniture, oddments whose meaning

could only be deciphered by her. Deeds
will be drawn, contracts acknowledged

on all sides. The tremble in her voice
is the uncertainty about her next abode:

not just where, how many rooms, how much,
who the neighbors are— How can it be

there’s a fourth-quarter moon already
in the branches, how can it be so late now

in the year? She could swear the new grass
had just come in, the shutters set in place,

domestic spirits appeased with prayers,
with gifts of grain, oil, water, wine.

 

In response to an entry from the Morning Porch.

The Fisherman Walks Between Worlds

The wife? She is gone. The mansion of her dreams? Diminished every day in the mist. The gravel driveway is still there. I tend to each stone, unpolished gem in a scattershot setting. Green plants humor me and send out leaf after leaf or flags of color that I try to decode. Each day I walk to the riverbank to see if the fish has returned. In my head, I turn over and over like a coin the words I once heard someone say: what comes to your hand when you call becomes yours to tame. How did she even know about the fish? But I remember the night I first laid eyes on her— She wore a dress the color of smoke. The light fell on dark waves of her hair as she punched keys on the cash register. Young then, and brash, I motioned to her with my hand. She gave me the merest look of disdain. I barely remember how it changed and I became vassal, emissary. Every lover exchanges the world of reliable surface for one with overlapping seams. I believed I would serve best by pleasing the other. The gods darted in and out of the shallows, fish-tailed, quicksilver. I spoke to each of them in turn, delivered their messages: the beloved on one hand, destiny on the other. But who will translate the sounds I make, my cries?

With/in

All day at home doing something in order to the fitting of my house.
In the evening to Westminster about business. So home and to bed. This night the vault at the end of the cellar was emptied.

Fitting:
house to sin,
home to night.
Emptied.


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Thursday 25 October 1660.

Plagiarist

I lay and slept long to-day. Office day. I took occasion to be angry with my wife before I rose about her putting up of half a crown of mine in a paper box, which she had forgot where she had lain it. But we were friends again as we are always. Then I rose to Jack Cole, who came to see me. Then to the office, so home to dinner, where I found Captain Murford, who did put 3l. into my hands for a friendship I had done him, but I would not take it, but bade him keep it till he has enough to buy my wife a necklace.
This afternoon people at work in my house to make a light in my yard into my cellar.
To White Hall, in my way met with Mr. Moore, who went back with me.
He tells me, among other things, that the Duke of York is now sorry for his lying with my Lord Chancellor’s daughter, who is now brought to bed of a boy.
From Whitehall to Mr. De Cretz, who I found about my Lord’s picture. From thence to Mr. Lilly’s, where, not finding Mr. Spong, I went to Mr. Greatorex, where I met him, and so to an alehouse, where I bought of him a drawing-pen; and he did show me the manner of the lamp-glasses, which carry the light a great way, good to read in bed by, and I intend to have one of them.
So to Mr. Lilly’s with Mr. Spong, where well received, there being a club to-night among his friends. Among the rest Esquire Ashmole, who I found was a very ingenious gentleman. With him we two sang afterward in Mr. Lilly’s study. That done, we all parted; and I home by coach, taking Mr. Booker with me, who did tell me a great many fooleries, which may be done by nativities, and blaming Mr. Lilly for writing to please his friends and to keep in with the times (as he did formerly to his own dishonour), and not according to the rules of art, by which he could not well err, as he had done.
I set him down at Lime-street end, and so home, where I found a box of Carpenter’s tools sent by my cozen, Thomas Pepys, which I had bespoke of him for to employ myself with sometimes.
To bed.

I slept in a paper box,
forgot where I put my hands.
People work to make a light
into my cellar.

I am sorry for lying
to my picture in the glass,
for writing to please friends
and not the rules of art.
I found carpenter’s tools,
which spoke to me.


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Wednesday 24 October 1660.

The Banjo Apocalypse (videopoem)

This entry is part 4 of 34 in the series Breakdown: The Banjo Poems

 

Watch on YouTube

The opening poem in Breakdown: Banjo Poems gets a video at last! And for once, there’s no banjo (or banjo-like instrument) in the soundtrack at all, for obvious reasons. I played around with industrial noises for a while, but ultimately settled on something much more angelic, courtesy of a young Irish composer of film and video scores named Steven O’Brien who gives his work away on SoundCloud under an attribution-only Creative Commons license. This particular track, interestingly enough, was used in a humor video that went viral, True Facts about Morgan Freeman. Given the god-like powers attributed to Mr. Freedman in that video, if any viewers of this videopoem are reminded of that, so much the better.

The imagery comes from a World War II propaganda film made by Warner Bros. for the U.S. Maritime Commission (and therefore in the public domain): A Ship is Born, directed by Jean Negulesco. I am indebted to Rachel for the suggestion to try using shipbuilding imagery for this poem.

My love, I want to tell you of today:

so ordinary, but so full of portents and disclosures—
Please, do not roll your eyes or sigh, do not accuse me

of having grown soft as evidenced by this surfeit of emotion,
as if hardness were the only worthy standard of anything
these days. I tell you this without unnecessary embellishment,

without premeditation. For once, sit still
and let me tell you without having to think too much
about the words— Do you remember the poet

who said that morning, Why not pluck the ripe fig,
why not take the orange, why not swivel the fleshy globe
of the persimmon loose,
just because it was the brightest

or most immediate thing you saw, the branch bending low
over the neighbor’s fence and into your hands? Why not give in
to rapture without comment or accusation, without apology,

resisting the urge to camouflage? And it is the same
for every instance in which a body immolates itself,
goes up in a protest of flame and smoke before falling

off the roof: as in house number 11, Huangshi Village, China;
in April, as a line of excavators stands at the ready to tear
the walls of wood and plaster down, making way for hard

new grids of steel. The day dims then spills over into rain;
a current in the earth crumbles the belfry of an ancient church
and the hills bury children sleeping in their beds—

So it is easy enough to heft moments marked with nothing more
than our ticking silences against such sorrows, and deem them
unworthy. But something moves again across the field, or passes

the threshold: the smallest movement or disturbance— The mother
soothing the fretful child, the man bending to pick up a creased bill
from the floor. The one who didn’t even know what he had lost, stopped

in the spill of light just before making his way out the door.

 

In response to small stone (259).

Peace plan

We rose early in the morning to get things ready for My Lord, and Mr. Sheply going to put up his pistols (which were charged with bullets) into the holsters, one of them flew off, and it pleased God that, the mouth of the gun being downwards, it did us no hurt, but I think I never was in more danger in my life, which put me into a great fright.
About eight o’clock my Lord went; and going through the garden my Lord met with Mr. William Montagu, who told him of an estate of land lately come into the King’s hands, that he had a mind my Lord should beg. To which end my Lord writ a letter presently to my Lord Chancellor to do it for him, which (after leave taken of my Lord at White Hall bridge) I did carry to Warwick House to him; and had a fair promise of him, that he would do it this day for my Lord. In my way thither I met the Lord Chancellor and all the judges riding on horseback and going to Westminster Hall, it being the first day of the term, which was the first time I ever saw any such solemnity.
Having done there I returned to Whitehall, where meeting with my brother Ashwell and his cozen Sam. Ashwell and Mr. Mallard, I took them to the Leg in King Street and gave them a dish of meat for dinner and paid for it.
From thence going to Whitehall I met with Catan Stirpin in mourning, who told me that her mistress was lately dead of the small pox, and that herself was now married to Monsieur Petit, as also what her mistress had left her, which was very well. She also took me to her lodging at an Ironmonger’s in King Street, which was but very poor, and I found by a letter that she shewed me of her husband’s to the King, that he is a right Frenchman, and full of their own projects, he having a design to reform the universities, and to institute schools for the learning of all languages, to speak them naturally and not by rule, which I know will come to nothing. From thence to my Lord’s, where I went forth by coach to Mrs. Parker’s with my Lady, and so to her house again. From thence I took my Lord’s picture, and carried it to Mr. de Cretz to be copied.
So to White Hall, where I met Mr. Spong, and went home with him and played, and sang, and eat with him and his mother. After supper we looked over many books, and instruments of his, especially his wooden jack in his chimney, which goes with the smoke, which indeed is very pretty.
I found him to be as ingenious and good-natured a man as ever I met with in my life, and cannot admire him enough, he being so plain and illiterate a man as he is.
From thence by coach home and to bed, which was welcome to me after a night’s absence.

We rose early for bullets;
one flew off.
The mouth of the gun
should beg to eat
and learn all languages,
not smoke
and be so illiterate
as to welcome absence.


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Tuesday 23 October 1660.

The days, sharp-finned, they plane

This entry is part 12 of 28 in the series Morning Porch Poems: Autumn 2013

 

along the outer edges: bearing down,

shearing leaves from boughs, thin wrapper
of azaleas crumpled like an after-party

underfoot; summer’s glove peeled
from the bony hand— It plucks

without hesitation red fruit from green,
berries purpling at the rim toward dark;

and above, brisk wind and stippled clouds, wrought-
iron weather vanes swiveling south and farther south.

 

In response to an entry from the Morning Porch.

Queen-sized

Office day; after that to dinner at home upon some ribs of roast beef from the Cook’s (which of late we have been forced to do because of our house being always under the painters’ and other people’s hands, that we could not dress it ourselves). After dinner to my Lord’s, where I found all preparing for my Lord’s going to sea to fetch the Queen tomorrow.
At night my Lord came home, with whom I staid long, and talked of many things. Among others I got leave to have his picture, that was done by Lilly, copied, and talking of religion, I found him to be a perfect Sceptic, and said that all things would not be well while there was so much preaching, and that it would be better if nothing but Homilies were to be read in Churches.
This afternoon (he told me) there hath been a meeting before the King and my Lord Chancellor, of some Episcopalian and Presbyterian Divines; but what had passed he could not tell me.
After I had done talk with him, I went to bed with Mr. Sheply in his chamber, but could hardly get any sleep all night, the bed being ill made and he a bad bedfellow.

Ribs under other people’s hands,
we could not dress ourselves,
queen that we were.
The king? With him
we could hardly get any
sleep, he being a bad bed.


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Monday 22 October 1660.