“I’ve carded wool from what caught
and filled the larder with fallen crumb”
—Luisa A. Igloria, “Border Studies 17”
We sought the truth
in magazines and Facebook quizzes.
We tried the self-improvement regimens
of every friend and celebrity.
We earned one degree and then another,
and finally, the terminal one.
We bought the houses, the cars,
all the products aimed at the heart’s hole.
Is it too late to learn
the truth? The heart yearns
to explore an alien sea
or dive to depths far below the keel.
We take our lessons from the Celts.
We set sail in tiny
boats that may not long repel
the water. We take one oar,
a loaf of bread, and a cup
to collect rain water.
We will go where the wind
hauls us, and we will stake
our claim upon a different shore,
a larder stocked
with supplies we do not know
we need.
Up early this morning sending the things to the carrier’s, and my boy, who goes to-day, though his mistress do not till next Monday. All the morning at the office, Sir W. Batten being come to town last night. I hear, to my great content, that my Lord Sandwich is safe landed in France. Dined at our chamber, where W. Bowyer with us, and after much simple talk with him, I left him, and to my office, where all the afternoon busy till 9 at night, among other things improving my late experiment at Woolwich about hemp. So home and to bed.
Paraguayan poet Ricardo Mazó (1927-1987) worked as an engineer and geologist. He is regarded as one of the Promoción del 50, a group of 1950’s poets, mainly from the Academia Universitaria and the Faculty of Philosophy in Asunción, who wrote socially engaged poetry during Alfredo Stroessner’s dictatorship (1954–1989). Briznas: suerte de antología (Scraps: A Kind of Anthology), 1982, gathers together 73 poems written between the years 1940 and 1980. Solitude, absence, nostalgia, distance, boredom, as well as a constant search for the self, a recurrent encounter with time, and fixation on an unceasing memory, are the dominant motifs of his poetry. He’s also known for his Spanish translation of Hegel’s Introduction to Aesthetics. (Cribbed from the Wikipedia. Read the rest, or see the Spanish bio at Portal Guarani.)
Repeating Myself
I Theme
Here it comes again
the disturbing presence of hours
my relentless
awareness of time
and the constant
repetition of a single souvenir.
II Situation
Now that the moment’s gone
carnation’s sudden blossom,
face no sooner seen, instantly befriended,
premonitory sigh, ingenuous love.
Now that I can’t shake hands
without missing a beat,
now that the moon’s a symbol, and my deserted
heart lowers the sluice and locks the gate
for fear of drowning
in bitter blood, stagnant blood.
…in two words,
barely a fraction of myself,
still I had to see you, so many times
that finally, loving you was my only option.
III Pendant
I had to love you even though it was no more
than a wasted clarion call, I regret
leaving misleading tracks in the sand.
I’ll tell you my love:
—a rush of blood, a delirium
of contrary and untamed feelings—
arteries open and words spoken
and the expectations such audacity reveals.
IV Finale
Because of the way things are we will never
be able to share Christmas Eve.
December 1953
Repetición de mi mismo
I Motivo
Otra vez hoy conmigo la inquietante presencia de las horas, la continua apreciación del tiempo y la constante repetición de un único recuerdo.
II Situación
Ahora que ya ha pasado el tiempo del clavel florecido en un momento, del rostro que se mira y se hace amigo, del suspiro precoz y del amor sencillo.
Ahora que no puedo dar la mano sin que sienta un latir destituido, que la luna es el símbolo, y desierto mi corazón se rige con compuertas por temor que se me inunde el cuerpo de sangre amarga -y de sangre muerta-.
y, en dos palabras, una fracción apenas de mí mismo, he tenido que verte tantas veces que al fin no pude menos que quererte.
III Pendiente
He tenido que amarte aunque no fuera más que un clarión gastado, arrepentido de hacer trazos mentidos en el suelo.
Y decirte mi amor: -un tumulto de sangre, un desvarío de sentires opuestos e indomables-.
La arteria abierta y la palabra dicha. y la espera que sigue a tanta audacia descubierta.
IV Final
Porque así son las cosas se que nunca podremos compartir la nochebuena.
This morning angry a little in the morning, and my house being so much out of order makes me a little pettish. I went to the office, and there dispatched business by myself, and so again in the afternoon; being a little vexed that my brother Tom, by his neglect, do fail to get a coach for my wife and maid this week, by which she will not be at Brampton Feast, to meet my Lady at my father’s. At night home, and late packing up things in order to their going to Brampton to-morrow, and so to bed, quite out of sorts in my mind by reason that the weather is so bad, and my house all full of wet, and the trouble of going from one house to another to Sir W. Pen’s upon every occasion. Besides much disturbed by reason of the talk up and down the town, that my Lord Sandwich is lost; but I trust in God the contrary.
angry little being
little self in a little mind
bad and full of trouble
going from one to another
disturbed reason
my lost god
Rye Lane, Peckham, yesterday. A cooler day, with hovering rain and storms: the kind of weather that brings seabirds inland. Remembering that the gritty inner-city areas were once where I felt most comfortable. It’s different now. I’m older, and our cities harsher. Now I’m only saddened by the grinding poverty and shocked – coming here from next-door Dulwich – by the glaring class and racial separation…
seagulls circle
crying over Peckham
migrant voices
Among my workmen early: then to the office, and there I had letters from the Downs from Mr. Coventry; who tells me of the foul weather they had last Sunday, that drove them back from near Boulogne, whither they were going for the Queen, back again to the Downs, with the loss of their cables, sayles, and masts; but are all safe, only my Lord Sandwich, who went before with the yachts; they know not what is become of him, which do trouble me much; but I hope he got ashore before the storm begun; which God grant! All day at the office, only at home at dinner, where I was highly angry with my wife for her keys being out of the way, but they were found at last, and so friends again. All the afternoon answering letters and writing letters, and at night to Mr. Coventry an ample letter in answer to all his and the Duke’s business. Late at night at the office, where my business is great, being now all alone in town, but I shall go through it with pleasure. So home and to bed.
letters answer letters
letters at night answer the night
where I eat all alone
with pleasure
A translation of a pyramid poem by Québécois poet, writer, artist, and musician Raôul (or Raöul) Duguay. I’m not sure quite what to make of it, but I do like the chords and discords that result from reading it out loud. It comes across as a sort of Lucky’s speech from ‘Godot’ without any syntactical architecture!
oh
ah ah
mine thine
yes no
all nothing
flower nettle
bird viper
universe cell
order a disorder
starfishy nebula
atom bread butter fire
air freedom water slavery
sun field town alley
plane earth globe lunar
light garden shadow asphalt
tree delight day night tear fear
house table wheat room province
state stone weather space particles
east full love west empty hunger
smile caress you him fear work
luck spring someone theirs muscles iron foot
hand breast sweet woman sex arms wife rock
heart essence thirst faith flesh existence prison
light summer leaf juice autumn plastic concrete
mountain horse pathway valley car cement
egg hatching health mother bomb blood scratch
music star snow pine tree cry sleep twilight law
color rhythm butterfly game earthworm grey speed stop wolfpack
dance wave ocean shoreline salt accident face foam slide
singing prayer speaking book sun machine radio television plan caress
drawing line curve volume step building silver electricity go
fruit vegetable milk honey cereals hot dog hamburger steak potatoes
child woman beauty peace MAN MAN animal vegetable mineral moved
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a a
ma ta
oui non
tout rien
fleur ortie
oiseau vipère
univers cellule
ordre un désordre
astérisme nébuleuse
atome pain beurre feu
air liberté eau esclave
soleil champ ville ruelle
planète terre globe lunaire
lumière jardin ombre asphalte
arbre joie jour nuit pleur peur
maison table blé chambre province
pays pierre temps espace poussières
orient plein amour occident vide faim
sourire caresse toi lui crainte travail
bonheur printemps on eux muscles fer pied
main sein femme bonté sexe bras femme roche
coeur essence soif foi corps existence prison
lumière feuille été jus automne plastique béton
montagne cheval sentiers vallée automobile ciment
oeuf éclosion santé maman bombe explosion sang bobo
musique étoile neige sapin cri sommeil crépuscule loi
couleur rythme papillon jeu ver gris vitesse stop meute
danse vague océan rivage sel accident visage écume coulée
chant prière parole livre sol machine radio télévision plancaresse
dessin ligne courbe volume pas building argent électricité go
fruit légume lait miel céréales hot dog hamburger steak patates
enfant femme beauté paix HOMME HOMME animal végétal minéral mû
Lying in the dark, there is still so much she wants
to understand— The gecko’s repeating warble, the whimper
of the cat beside the neighbor’s fence. Brown-streaked kalachuchi
blossoms resting on the surface of the cistern after last night’s rain.
Up early, and though I found myself out of order and cold, and the weather cold and likely to rain, yet upon my promise and desire to do what I intended, I did take boat and down to Greenwich, to Captain Cocke’s, who hath a most pleasant seat, and neat. Here I drank wine, and eat some fruit off the trees; and he showed a great rarity, which was two or three of a great number of silver dishes and plates, which he bought of an embassador that did lack money, in the edge or rim of which was placed silver and gold medalls, very ancient, and I believe wrought, by which, if they be, they are the greatest rarity that ever I saw in my life, and I will show Mr. Crumlum them. Thence to Woolwich to the Rope-yard; and there looked over several sorts of hemp, and did fall upon my great survey of seeing the working and experiments of the strength and the charge in the dressing of every sort; and I do think have brought it to so great a certainty, as I have done the King great service in it: and do purpose to get it ready against the Duke’s coming to town to present to him. I breakfasted at Mr. Falconer’s well, and much pleased with my inquiries. Thence to the dock, where we walked in Mr. Shelden’s garden, eating more fruit, and drinking, and eating figs, which were very good, and talking while the Royal James was bringing towards the dock, and then we went out and saw the manner and trouble of docking such a ship, which yet they could not do, but only brought her head into the Dock, and so shored her up till next tide. But, good God! what a deal of company was there from both yards to help to do it, when half the company would have done it as well. But I see it is impossible for the King to have things done as cheap as other men. Thence by water, and by and by landing at the riverside somewhere among the reeds, we walked to Greenwich, where to Cocke’s house again and walked in the garden, and then in to his lady, who I find is still pretty, but was now vexed and did speak very discontented and angry to the Captain for disappointing a gentleman that he had invited to dinner, which he took like a wise man and said little, but she was very angry, which put me clear out of countenance that I was sorry I went in. So after I had eat still some more fruit I took leave of her in the garden plucking apricots for preserving, and went away and so by water home, and there Mr. Moore coming and telling me that my Lady goes into the country to-morrow, I carried my wife by coach to take her leave of her father, I staying in Westminster Hall, she going away also this week, and thence to my Lady’s, where we staid and supped with her, but found that my Lady was truly angry and discontented with us for our neglecting to see her as we used to do, but after a little she was pleased as she was used to be, at which we were glad. So after supper home to bed.
I found myself out
of order and cold
like a boat in the trees,
silver and ancient.
I ought to fall
towards the shore, landing
somewhere among the reeds
like a clear fruit of water.