Needle at the bottom of the sea

“When you pluck the needle from the bottom of the sea, it means a transformation of human destiny.” ~ Tai Chi Ch’uan

The women in the park gather
to braid whips out of air: together

they windmill the idea of clouds
as though they were portals

to another world not made
out of weapons and tears.

Who holds the keys to kingdoms
and countries with no names,

where no despots or madmen reign?
In the mail, once, I received

a twist of silk, a scarf the color
of flame. Unseamed, it weighed next

to nothing in my hands, not even
when circled around my neck.

And I understand perfectly
how we weigh next to nothing too

in the grand scheme of things—
Yet we look for the slightest

tremble in the bones of the fallen
bird, for the dead to be returned

their souls; for the fist of a bud
to crack through a sea of stone.

whither the body, which I am now

“…Since [Duterte] took office just over a month ago, more than 420 people have been killed, 154 by vigilantes, the rest by the military and the police. …All were murdered in cold blood.” ~ The New York Times, 5 August 2016

and whither the soul
which I become uncertain of

is it the watery star
of the squid’s tentacles

that elusive bouquet
trawling and luring

in time with the tide
is it the star

that seals its mouth
upon the dust of every

bloodstained road
or the prayer breathed

through yellowed curtains
and widows’ veils

whither the soul’s shanty
in these dark times,

in those dark streets
where bodies perish

where their splayed limbs
form dark pointed stars

whither the good breath
the body used to make

snuffed out gone under lips
stitched shut— what mute

star could witness now
without recourse to law

 

In response to Via Negativa: Vessel.

Cheer

Up and was angry with my maid Hannah for keeping the house no better, it being more dirty now-a-days than ever it was while my whole family was together.
So to my office, whither Mr. Coventry came and Sir William Pen, and we sat all the morning. This day Mr. Coventry borrowed of me my manuscript of the Navy.
At noon I to the ‘Change, and meeting with Sir W. Warren, to a coffee-house, and there finished a contract with him for the office, and so parted, and I to my cozen Mary Joyce’s at a gossiping, where much company and good cheer. There was the King’s Falconer, that lives by Paul’s, and his wife, an ugly pusse, but brought him money. He speaking of the strength of hawkes, which will strike a fowle to the ground with that force that shall make the fowle rebound a great way from ground, which no force of man or art can do, but it was very pleasant to hear what reasons he and another, one Ballard, a rich man of the same Company of Leathersellers of which the Joyces are, did give for this. Ballard’s wife, a pretty and a very well-bred woman, I took occasion to kiss several times, and she to carve, drink, and show me great respect. After dinner to talk and laugh. I drank no wine, but sent for some water; the beer not being good. A fiddler was sent for, and there one Mrs. Lurkin, a neighbour, a good, and merry poor woman, but a very tall woman, did dance and show such tricks that made us all merry, but above all a daughter of Mr. Brumfield’s, black, but well-shaped and modest, did dance very well, which pleased me mightily. I begun the Duchess with her, but could not do it; but, however, I came off well enough, and made mighty much of her, kissing and leading her home, with her cozen Anthony and Kate Joyce (Kate being very handsome and well, that is, handsomely dressed to-day, and I grew mighty kind and familiar with her, and kissed her soundly, which she takes very well) to their house, and there I left them, having in our way, though nine o’clock at night, carried them into a puppet play in Lincolnes Inn Fields, where there was the story of Holofernes, and other clockwork, well done.
There was at this house today Mr. Lawrence, who did give the name, it seems, to my cozen Joyce’s child, Samuel, who is a very civil gentleman, and his wife a pretty woman, who, with Kate Joyce, were stewards of the feast to-day, and a double share cost for a man and a woman came to 16s., which I also would pay, though they would not by any means have had me do so. I walked home very well contented with this afternoon’s work, I thinking it convenient to keep in with the Joyces against a bad day, if I should have occasion to make use of them. So I walked home, and after a letter to my wife by the post and my father, I home to supper, and after a little talk with my brother to bed.

the cheer of hawks
a great way off

that familiar sound
in the east as I walk home


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Thursday 6 August 1663.

Vessel

All the morning at the office, whither Deane of Woolwich came to me and discoursed of the body of ships, which I am now going about to understand, and then I took him to the coffee-house, where he was very earnest against Mr. Grant’s report in favour of Sir W. Petty’s vessel, even to some passion on both sides almost.
So to the Exchange, and thence home to dinner with my brother, and in the afternoon to Westminster hall, and there found Mrs. Lane, and by and by by agreement we met at the Parliament stairs (in my way down to the boat who should meet us but my lady Jemimah, who saw me lead her but said nothing to me of her, though I ought to speak to her to see whether she would take notice of it or no) and off to Stangate and so to the King’s Head at Lambeth marsh, and had variety of meats and drinks, but I did so towse her and handled her, but could get nothing more from her though I was very near it; but as wanton and bucksome as she is she dares not adventure upon the business, in which I very much commend and like her.
Staid pretty late, and so over with her by water, and being in a great sweat with my towsing of her durst not go home by water, but took coach, and at home my brother and I fell upon Des Cartes, and I perceive he has studied him well, and I cannot find but he has minded his book, and do love it.
This evening came a letter about business from Mr. Coventry, and with it a silver pen he promised me to carry inke in, which is very necessary. So to prayers and to bed.

whither the body
which I am now

the coffee-house of passion
the stairs down to nothing

the head and meat
like a silver pen to carry ink in


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Wednesday 5 August 1663.

Ode to all forgotten countries

Scent of the beach swept clean, held
ready for arrivals or departures

Scent of the coast that greeted you
with arms of pine and needles of salt

Scent of the street where bread rose
in the early dark before the sun

Scent of the shrine where the Virgin
stood serene, lit by votive candles

Scent of the box of coins and the hands
that carried her from house to house

Scent of lightning in the hills, lingering
like a halo around each brown mushroom cap

Scent of the dead that sleep in the fields
and rise to trace ground tendrils’ wandering

Planetoid

We were called up about four a-clock, and being ready went and took a Gravesend boat, and to London by nine a-clock. By the way talking of several businesses of the navy. So to the office, where Sir Wm. Pen (the first time that he has been with us a great while, he having been long sick) met us, and there we sat all the morning.
My brother John I find come to town to my house, as I sent for him, on Saturday last; so at noon home and dined with him, and after dinner and the barber been with me I walked out with him to my viall maker’s and other places and then left him, and I by water to Blackbury’s, and there talked with him about some masts (and by the way he tells me that Paul’s is now going to be repaired in good earnest), and so with him to his garden close by his house, where I eat some peaches and apricots; a very pretty place. So over the water to Westminster hall, and not finding Mrs. Lane, with whom I purposed to be merry, I went to Jervas’s and took him and his wife over the water to their mother Palmer’s (the woman that speaks in the belly, and with whom I have two or three years ago made good sport with Mr. Mallard), thinking because I had heard that she is a woman of that sort that I might there have lit upon some lady of pleasure (for which God forgive me), but blest be God there was none, nor anything that pleased me, but a poor little house that she has set out as fine as she can, and for her singing which she pretends to is only some old body songs and those sung abominably, only she pretends to be able to sing both bass and treble, which she do something like, but not what I thought formerly and expected now; nor do her speaking in her belly take me now as it did then, but it may be that is because I know it and see her mouth when she speaks, which should not be.
After I had spent a shilling there in wine I took boat with Jervas and his wife and set them at Westminster, and it being late forbore Mrs. Lane and went by water to the Old Swan by a boat, where I had good sport with one of the young men about his travells as far as Voxhall, in mockery, which yet the fellow answered me most prettily and traveller-like unto my very good mirth. So home, and with my brother eat a bit of bread and cheese, and so to bed, he with me.
This day I received a letter from my wife, which troubles me mightily, wherein she tells me how Ashwell did give her the lie to her teeth, and that thereupon my wife giving her a box on the eare, the other struck her again, and a deal of stir which troubles me, and that my Lady has been told by my father or mother something of my wife’s carriage, which altogether vexes me, and I fear I shall find a trouble of my wife when she comes home to get down her head again, but if Ashwell goes I am resolved to have no more, but to live poorly and low again for a good while, and save money and keep my wife within bounds if I can, or else I shall bid Adieu to all content in the world. So to bed, my mind somewhat disturbed at this, but yet I shall take care, by prudence, to avoid the ill consequences which I fear, things not being gone too far yet, and this height that my wife is come to being occasioned from my own folly in giving her too much head heretofore for the year past.

a peach in the palm
is a sort of pleasure

like her mouth when
she speaks of travel

as far as another
home world


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Tuesday 4 August 1663.

Transplanting Irises

For inflorescence, I divide
the roots of irises— tall,

bearded, stippled, promising
deep blue or amethyst and white—

Transplanting them, I kneel
in the grass while cicadas

make their thick cloud-hum
among the trees. An itch

on my ankle and nape mean
my blood has been a target,

but I don’t mind. The taste
of salt and sweat films my face

as I thin matted clumps of soil
caught in hair-like issue. I like

the way the heat, these small,
purposeful rhythms flick away

the sad gray tatters hanging
in my brain. I like the seal

my fingers make to press the ginger-
colored rhizomes back into the earth.

This is a test

Up both of us very betimes and to the Yard, and see the men called over and choose some to be discharged. Then to the Ropehouses and viewed them all and made an experiment which was the stronger, English or Riga hemp, the latter proved the stronger, but the other is very good, and much better we believe than any but Riga.
We did many other things this morning, and I caused the Timber measurer to measure some timber, where I found much fault and with reason, which we took public notice of, and did give them admonition for the time to come.
At noon Mr. Pett did give us a very great dinner, too big in all conscience, so that most of it was left untouched.
Here was Collonell Newman and several other gentlemen of the country and officers of the yard. After dinner they withdrew and Commissioner Pett, Mr. Coventry and I sat close to our business all the noon in his parler, and there run through much business and answered several people. And then in the evening walked in the garden, where we conjured him to look after the yard, and for the time to come that he would take the whole faults and ill management of the yard upon himself, he having full power and our concurrence to suspend or do anything else that he thinks fit to keep people and officers to their duty.
He having made good promises, though I fear his performance, we parted (though I spoke so freely that he could have been angry) good friends, and in some hopes that matters will be better for the time to come. So walked to the Hillhouse (which we did view and the yard about it, and do think to put it off as soon as we can conveniently) and there made ourselves ready and mounted and rode to Gravesend (my riding Coate not being to be found I fear it is stole) on our way being overtaken by Captain Browne that serves the office of the Ordnance at Chatham. All the way, though he was a rogue and served the late times all along, yet he kept us in discourse of the many services that he did for many of the King’s party, lords and Dukes, and among others he recovered a dog that was stolne from Mr. Cary (head-keeper of the buck-hounds to the King) and preserved several horses of the Duke of Richmond’s, and his best horse he was forst to put out his eyes and keep him for a stallion to preserve him from being carried away.
But he gone at last upon my enquiry to tell us how (he having been here too for survey of the Ropeyard) the day’s work of the Rope-makers become settled, which pleased me very well.
Being come to our Inn Mr. Coventry and I sat, and talked till 9 or 10 a-clock and then to bed.

time is an experiment
with touch

to conjure up a form
and house it conveniently
in a head or eye

to preserve from the day’s work
our clock


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Monday 3 August 1663.

Cleaning

Folding and sorting, packing
or putting away— who will get

the pair of extra dishes,
the jacket with sleeves traced

with waterfalls of embroidered
flowers? My necklace with its plate

of tortoiseshell edged
with brass bells and braided

horsehair; the bright woven cloth
I picked out from a market stall

in another life. I take them out
one by one, wipe and dust them

before putting them back on the shelves
— I love them still, all these things

I’ve purchased or been given: the cloudy
blue of clay bowls, the little bamboo whisk

the potter said I could use to make
an airy omelette some morning. The wide-

mouthed mugs which can hold an extra measure,
and from which I can still deeply drink.

Time, you are wise in all ways I am not

Did the round moon over the rooftops
make me giddy with unasked-for joy,

but then did the curved neck
of a wading bird insert

its uncalled for punctuation?
Did a wind from the sea bring

a welcome whiff of salt, and just
as I rounded the corner, did I smell

what it’s like when deep work
is done on the sewers?

Did I come to the counter to pay
with a crisp new bill and leave

with a handful of change in dull
looking copper? Did I take

the sweet cream out of the cooler
and forget it would sour in the heat?

Did I think that the string
of the instrument broke because

it refused to sing for me? When
will I learn it is not in the nature

of things to be one way or another
to our liking? When a pall comes

over the world at sundown, I should not
ask if I will ever be happy again.

 

In response to Via Negativa: Time.