In the early hours after I gave birth to my last child and before the nurse brought her back to me, light- headed, drowsy, alone in the hospital room I sat up and swung my legs over the edge of the bed. I wanted to see if, after going through this three other times, the floor, and the earth underneath, would hold me up in the same way; how soon my older body would snap back into itself, rubber sac stretched as far as it should go until it was time for what it held and grew inside to break free. I pushed the IV drip and stand to the bathroom; but before I was done, a gelled magazine of blood slipped out of me. It unrolled on tile, one last little island shorn off the interior country of my body. Even then, even now, I'm never sure what I'm allowed to touch; and if I do, how that will rearrange the mystery.
Poet Luisa A. Igloria (Poetry Foundation web page, author webpage ) is Co-Winner of the 2019 Crab Orchard Open Competition in Poetry for her manuscript Maps for Migrants and Ghosts, forthcoming from Southern Illinois University Press in fall 2020. She is the winner of the 2015 Resurgence Prize (UK), the world’s first major award for ecopoetry, selected by former UK poet laureate Sir Andrew Motion, Alice Oswald, and Jo Shapcott. She is the author of What is Left of Wings, I Ask (2018 Center for the Book Arts Letterpress Chapbook Prize, selected by former US Poet Laureate Natasha Trethewey); Bright as Mirrors Left in the Grass (Kudzu House Press eChapbook selection for Spring 2015), Ode to the Heart Smaller than a Pencil Eraser (Utah State University Press, 2014 May Swenson Prize), Night Willow (Phoenicia Publishing, 2014), The Saints of Streets (University of Santo Tomas Publishing House, 2013), Juan Luna’s Revolver (2009 Ernest Sandeen Prize, University of Notre Dame Press), and nine other books. She is a member of the core faculty of the MFA Creative Writing Program at Old Dominion University which she directed from 2009-2015. In 2018, she was the inaugural Glasgow Distinguished Writer in Residence at Washington and Lee University. When she isn’t writing, reading, or teaching, she cooks with her family, knits, hand-binds books, and listens to tango music.