Night tripper

So up, and to the Office till noon, and then home to a little dinner, and thither again till night, mighty busy, to my great content, doing a great deal of business, and so home to supper, and to bed; I finding this day that I may be able to do a great deal of business by dictating, if I do not read myself, or write, without spoiling my eyes, I being very well in my eyes after a great day’s work.

o little hit
again doing a great deal
of finding

I do not read
myself in my eyes
after a day’s work

Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Wednesday 3 February 1669.

Composition

Up, and to the office, where all the morning, and home to dinner at noon, where I find Mr. Sheres; and there made a short dinner, and carried him with us to the King’s playhouse, where “The Heyresse,” not-withstanding Kinaston’s being beaten, is acted; and they say the King is very angry with Sir Charles Sedley for his being beaten, but he do deny it. But his part is done by Beeston, who is fain to read it out of a book all the while, and thereby spoils the part, and almost the play, it being one of the best parts in it; and though the design is, in the first conception of it, pretty good, yet it is but an indifferent play, wrote, they say, by my Lord Newcastle. But it was pleasant to see Beeston come in with others, supposing it to be dark, and yet he is forced to read his part by the light of the candles: and this I observing to a gentleman that sat by me, he was mightily pleased therewith, and spread it up and down. But that, that pleased me most in the play is, the first song that Knepp sings, she singing three or four; and, indeed, it was very finely sung, so as to make the whole house clap her. Thence carried Sheres to White Hall, and there I stepped in, and looked out Mr. May, who tells me that he and his company cannot come to dine with me to-morrow, whom I expected only to come to see the manner of our Office and books, at which I was not very much displeased, having much business at the Office, and so away home, and there to the office about my letters, and then home to supper and to bed, my wife being in mighty ill humour all night, and in the morning I found it to be from her observing Knepp to wink and smile on me; and she says I smiled on her; and, poor wretch! I did perceive that she did, and do on all such occasions, mind my eyes. I did, with much difficulty, pacify her, and were friends, she desiring that hereafter, at that house, we might always sit either above in a box, or, if there be [no] room, close up to the lower boxes.

noon they say
is part bees

and they say dark candles
make the night

from her smile
I smile

if we always sit in a box
lose the boxes

Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Tuesday 2 February 1669.

Diagnostic

Somewhere, a vein.
Little tributary encircling

a lower region. A calf,
perhaps. No, lower:
an ankle. Who dipped
their foot in the same

river twice, three times,
uncountable; and emerged
hypostatic. Who binds

the salt tides to the body
like a magnet, spinning
even now. Blood-stumble,
mouth-stutter, heart

thirst: what we pay
in passage north. 

Tactile

Up, and by water from the Tower to White Hall, the first time that I have gone to that end of the town by water, for two or three months, I think, since I kept a coach, which God send propitious to me; but it is a very great convenience. I went to a Committee of Tangier, but it did not meet, and so I meeting Mr. Povy, he and I away to Dancre’s, to speak something touching the pictures I am getting him to make for me. And thence he carried me to Mr. Streeter’s, the famous history-painter over the way, whom I have often heard of, but did never see him before; and there I found him, and Dr. Wren, and several Virtuosos, looking upon the paintings which he is making for the new Theatre at Oxford: and, indeed, they look as if they would be very fine, and the rest think better than those of Rubens in the Banqueting-house at White Hall, but I do not so fully think so. But they will certainly be very noble; and I am mightily pleased to have the fortune to see this man and his work, which is very famous; and he a very civil little man, and lame, but lives very handsomely. So thence to my Lord Bellassis, and met him within: my business only to see a chimney-piece of Dancre’s doing, in distemper, with egg to keep off the glaring of the light, which I must have done for my room: and indeed it is pretty, but, I must confess, I do think it is not altogether so beautiful as the oyle pictures; but I will have some of one, and some of another. Thence set him down at Little Turnstile, and so I home, and there eat a little dinner, and away with my wife by coach to the King’s playhouse, thinking to have seen “The Heyresse,” first acted on Saturday last; but when we come thither, we find no play there; Kinaston, that did act a part therein, in abuse to Sir Charles Sedley, being last night exceedingly beaten with sticks, by two or three that assaulted him, so as he is mightily bruised, and forced to keep his bed. So we to the Duke of York’s playhouse, and there saw “She Would if She Could,” and so home and to my office to business, and then to supper and to bed. This day, going to the play, The. Turner met us, and carried us to her mother, at my Lady Mordaunt’s; and I did carry both mother and daughter with us to the Duke of York’s playhouse, at next door.

the first time we touch
is a banquet for hands

within an egg
the light is beautiful
as a bruise

and we could go play
at another door

Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Monday 1 February 1669.

A Brief History of Problem-Solving

Let's just say some of us 
lived in a place and time 
when there weren't any 
tampon-disposing machines 
in bathrooms, nor even running 
water, hand soap, toilet paper.  
Necessity: mostly the mother 
of desperation. And everything 
you've read about flies is true.
How the early bird gets to 
the cleanest stall. In the morning, 
dew on the grass richly adorns
every spiderweb—talk about learning 
how to stretch a scarce resource.

Letter, Wondering Again about Beginnings

Until the very end, you chose 
to stay in the mountains where 
our lives were predictable as those 
long seasons of rain and brief 
months of fitful sun. A morning walk
in the park or a stroll up the main
road where every shopkeeper 
nodded his head in greeting.
Assandas, Bheroomull's, Pines
Theatre, Star Cafe. Mercury
Drug and the queue of boys
ready to shine your shoes. 
Long, too, the record 
of your years as public 
servant. In between: births 
and marriages and deaths.
Doctors' house calls, carpenters
and construction by installment.
The shame of women caught
trysting with men, the excuses
made for men who strayed.
You're not around anymore
so I can't ask you to finish
the stories that were told.
Not how they ended,
but how they began.

Divinity school

(Lord’s day). Lay long talking with pleasure, and so up and I to church, and there did hear the Doctor that is lately turned Divine, I have forgot his name, I met him a while since at Sir D. Gawden’s at dinner, Dr. Waterhouse; He preaches in a devout manner of way, not elegant nor very persuasive, but seems to mean well, and that he would preach holily; and was mighty passionate against people that make a scoff of religion. And, the truth is, I did observe Mrs. Hollworthy smile often, and many others of the parish, who, I perceive, have known him, and were in mighty expectation of hearing him preach, but could not forbear smiling, and she particularly upon me, and I on her. So home to dinner: and before dinner to my Office, to set down my journal for this week, and then home to dinner; and after dinner to get my wife and boy, one after another, to read to me: and so spent the afternoon and the evening, and so after supper to bed.
And thus endeth this month, with many different days of sadness and mirth, from differences between me and my wife, from her remembrance of my late unkindness to her with Willet, she not being able to forget it, but now and then hath her passionate remembrance of it as often as prompted to it by any occasion; but this night we are at present very kind. And so ends this month.

pleasure turned divine
I forgot I am water
ache in a devout way
and preach against smiling

so I own my days
of sadness and mirth
unable to forget a passion
soft as any night

Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Sunday 31 January 1669.

Portrait, with Zested Lemons

My friend says Amalfi
and Persian lemons are among
the sweetest

I've been zesting 
them on everything
as if they were 

an ever-
lasting gift

On the last few, white 
patches like grafts in reverse 
on yellow rind—

What remains of skin
holds in its oracles
of nourishment

In the meantime, I
am also told to rest

Bad apple

Lay long in bed, it being a fast-day for the murder of the late King; and so up and to church, where Dr. Hicks made a dull sermon; and so home, and there I find W. Batelier and Balty, and they dined with us, and I spent all the afternoon with my wife and W. Batelier talking, and then making them read, and particularly made an end of Mr. Boyle’s Book of Formes, which I am glad to have over, and then fell to read a French discourse, which he hath brought over with him for me, to invite the people of France to apply themselves to Navigation, which it do very well, and is certainly their interest, and what will undo us in a few years, if the King of France goes on to fit up his Navy, and encrease it and his trade, as he hath begun. At night to supper, and after supper, and W. Batelier gone, my wife begun another book I lately bought, calledThe State of England,” which promises well, and is worth reading, and so after a while to bed.

on a day for murder
mad at the din
I invite people to apply
to my gun
called the state
which promises a bed

Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Saturday 30 January 1669.