War machinist

Sam Pepys and me

At the office good part of the morning, and then about noon with my wife on foot to the Wardrobe. My wife went up to the dining room to my Lady Paulina, and I staid below talking with Mr. Moore in the parley, reading of the King’s and Chancellor’s late speeches at the proroguing of the Houses of Parliament. And while I was reading, news was brought me that my Lord Sandwich is come and gone up to my Lady, which put me into great suspense of joy, so I went up waiting my Lord’s coming out of my Lady’s chamber, which by and by he did, and looks very well, and my soul is glad to see him. He very merry, and hath left the King and Queen at Portsmouth, and is come up to stay here till next Wednesday, and then to meet the King and Queen at Hampton Court.
So to dinner, Mr. Browne, Clerk of the House of Lords, and his wife and brother there also; and my Lord mighty merry; among other things, saying that the Queen is a very agreeable lady, and paints still. After dinner I showed him my letter from Teddiman about the news from Argier, which pleases him exceedingly; and he writ one to the Duke of York about it, and sent it express.
There coming much company after dinner to my Lord, my wife and I slunk away to the Opera, where we saw “Witt in a Constable,” the first time that it is acted; but so silly a play I never saw I think in my life. After it was done, my wife and I to the puppet play in Covent Garden, which I saw the other day, and indeed it is very pleasant. Here among the fidlers I first saw a dulcimere played on with sticks knocking of the strings, and is very pretty. So by water home, and supped with Sir William Pen very merry, and so to bed.

the war is gone
into my soul

I mouth the rot on the news
coming to life as a puppet

among mere sticks
knocking the strings


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Friday 23 May 1662.

Perigee, Apogee

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
"A riddle or the cricket's cry" 
~ William Blake



Once, I slept on a beach wrapped
in a woven blanket and could find

no word for the thrum of the tide
between leaving and arriving, nor

for the way sand felt both hard
and soft under my shoulder. In

its depths, invisible cities both
crumbled and reassembled through

the night. The wind was a ghost
I learned also went to bed, waking

early just as fruit bats returned
to their roosts on the cliffs.

Held in this interval, I felt almost
endless and untranslatable; but also,

small as a pebble in the throat
of a universe threaded with seams.

The Times

Sam Pepys and me

This morning comes an order from the Secretary of State, Nicholas, for me to let one Mr. Lee, a Councellor, to view what papers I have relating to passages of the late times, wherein Sir H. Vane’s hand is employed, in order to the drawing up his charge; which I did, and at noon he, with Sir W. Pen and his daughter, dined with me, and he to his work again, and we by coach to the Theatre and saw “Love in a Maze.” The play hath little in it but Lacy’s part of a country fellow, which he did to admiration. So home, and supped with Sir W. Pen, where Sir W. Batten and Captn. Cocke came to us, to whom I have lately been a great stranger. This night we had each of us a letter from Captain Teddiman from the Streights, of a peace made upon good terms, by Sir J. Lawson, with the Argier men, which is most excellent news. He hath also sent each of us some anchovies, olives, and muscatt; but I know not yet what that is, and am ashamed to ask.
After supper home, and to bed, resolving to make up this week in seeing plays and pleasure, and so fall to business next week again for a great while.

this morning paper
ages at noon
in the heat

a maze of a country
where I have been
a stranger

in the news each of us
lives now
week to week


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Thursday 22 May 1662.

Milflores, I say—

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
hydrangea, hortensia. Blue that I love
to snip this time of year, stems
I plunge in water collected in mason
jars. Blue like the blue of sweet
pea flowers; blue from weeks of heavy
rain, decomposing matter, somewhere
perhaps a chain of chemical rot. I have no
word for my satisfaction in this
planetary network I carry indoors in my hands,
after I've shorn off its protective
ruff of green hearts— They fall on sunken slate,
my careless discards. Perhaps they'll
return to haunt me in the fade of night. Or
perhaps even now the wind has lofted
them out to a different sea where they'll float
and sink, free of prayer or offering.

Unsettler

Sam Pepys and me

My wife and I by water to Westminster, and after she had seen her father (of whom lately I have heard nothing at all what he does or her mother), she comes to me to my Lord’s lodgings, where she and I staid walking in White Hall garden. And in the Privy-garden saw the finest smocks and linnen petticoats of my Lady Castlemaine’s, laced with rich lace at the bottom, that ever I saw; and did me good to look upon them. So to Wilkinson’s, she and I and Sarah to dinner, where I had a good quarter of lamb and a salat. Here Sarah told me how the King dined at my Lady Castlemaine’s, and supped, every day and night the last week; and that the night that the bonfires were made for joy of the Queen’s arrivall, the King was there; but there was no fire at her door, though at all the rest of the doors almost in the street; which was much observed: and that the King and she did send for a pair of scales and weighed one another; and she, being with child, was said to be heaviest. But she is now a most disconsolate creature, and comes not out of doors, since the King’s going.
But we went to the Theatre to “The French Dancing Master,” and there with much pleasure gazed upon her (Lady Castlemaine); but it troubles us to see her look dejectedly and slighted by people already. The play pleased us very well; but Lacy’s part, the Dancing Master, the best in the world.
Thence to my brother Tom’s, in expectation to have met my father to-night come out of the country, but he is not yet come, but here we found my uncle Fenner and his old wife, whom I had not seen since the wedding dinner, nor care to see her. They being gone, my wife and I went and saw Mrs. Turner, whom we found not well, and her two boys Charles and Will come out of the country, grown very plain boys after three years being under their father’s care in Yorkshire. Thence to Tom’s again, and there supped well, my she cozen Scott being there and my father being not come, we walked home and to bed.

water comes to my garden
in the finest coat
laced with rich lace

and on the night of the fire
all the doors in the street
dancing with light

the world is a wife
not seen since the wedding

we turn a country into a cot
and not a bed


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Wednesday 21 May 1662.

Self-portrait, with One-eyed Daruma

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
When my student said she prayed to the universe 
for a sign— something specific but random, like 2

red feathers— I remembered a gift I received
some years ago. A red daruma doll, eyeless

and round, modeled after the monk Bodhidharma
who made a vow to sit zazen for nine years.

On this quest for enlightenment, he fell
asleep on the seventh year; and out of remorse,

cut off his own eyelids so he would never close
his eyes again. Because we are all looking for some

sign that we're on the right path, I took a permanent
marker and inked in his left eye, then made my own

wish. Only when it came true could I give him his other
eye. I'm not sure now if he has the power to make my

desire come true, or if I've simply learned to trust that
given time, the universe will answer. He sits on a corner

of my bookshelf, waiting. Outside, birds in a bevy of colors
dart in and out of willow oaks and crepe myrtle: crows, jays,

cardinals; black-crowned night herons whose droppings
make nearly indelible marks on car roofs and windows.

Bonding

Sam Pepys and me

Sir W. Pen and I did a little business at the office, and so home again. Then comes Dean Fuller after we had dined, but I got something for him, and very merry we were for an hour or two, and I am most pleased with his company and goodness. At last parted, and my wife and I by coach to the Opera, and there saw the 2nd part of “The Siege of Rhodes,” but it is not so well done as when Roxalana was there, who, it is said, is now owned by my Lord of Oxford. Thence to Tower-wharf, and there took boat, and we all walked to Halfeway House, and there eat and drank, and were pleasant, and so finally home again in the evening, and so good night, this being a very pleasant life that we now lead, and have long done; the Lord be blessed, and make us thankful. But, though I am much against too much spending, yet I do think it best to enjoy some degree of pleasure now that we have health, money, and opportunity, rather than to leave pleasures to old age or poverty, when we cannot have them so properly.

sin comes with company
few being
against too much

now that we leave
pleasure to
the rope


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Tuesday 20 May 1662.

To the Future, Sending Signals in the Dark

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
"...whenever the winebowl emptied, it 
refilled of its own accord."
~ Ovid, Metamorphoses Book VIII, 616-724




In Café Stella, over at the next table,
the medical students have their textbooks

open and are comparing notes on neuroanatomy
in a clinical context. For memory: the amygdala,

the hippocampus, the neocortex. I want to ask
them: if clairvoyance were a thing, what part

of the brain is responsible, and how can that
ability be cultivated? Regardless of how ready

we might be, all that we learn from the sum
of hard years and rare moments of feathered

joy line the bowl into which we dip our faces
each day— Which one now, which one tomorrow?

In the future, when it's time, will one of us
turn into a linden and the other into an oak,

braiding our limbs even as leaves fall to mark
the seasons? Across lifetimes, eternity sends

signals. Sometimes, we think we can decipher them;
then they turn into the haloed green of fireflies.

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Stolen time

Sam Pepys and me

Long in bed, sometimes scolding with my wife, and then pleased again, and at last up, and put on my riding cloth suit, and a camelott coat new, which pleases me well enough. To the Temple about my replication, and so to my brother Tom’s, and there hear that my father will be in town this week. So home, the shops being but some shut and some open. I hear that the House of Commons do think much that they should be forced to huddle over business this morning against the afternoon, for the King to pass their Acts, that he may go out of town. But he, I hear since, was forced to stay till almost nine o’clock at night before he could have done, and then he prorogued them; and so to Gilford, and lay there. Home, and Mr. Hunt dined with me, and were merry. After dinner Sir W. Pen and his daughter, and I and my wife by coach to the Theatre, and there in a box saw “The Little Thief” well done. Thence to Moorefields, and walked and eat some cheesecake and gammon of bacon, but when I was come home I was sick, forced to vomit it up again. So my wife walking and singing upon the leads till very late, it being pleasant and moonshine, and so to bed.

bed time again
riding to replication

we shut the clock
in a box

the little thief
of home and moons


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Monday 19 May 1662.