Salt

At home all the morning, and at noon with my wife to the Wardrobe to dinner, and there, did shew herself to my Lady in the handkercher that she bought the lace for the other day, and indeed it is very handsome. Here I left my wife and went to my Lord Privy Seal to Whitehall, and there did give him a copy of the Fees of the office as I have received them, and he was well pleased with it. So to the Opera, where I met my wife and Captain Ferrers and Madamoiselle Le Blanc, and there did see the second part of “The Siege of Rhodes” very well done; and so by coach set her home, and the coach driving down the hill through Thames Street, which I think never any coach did before from that place to the bridge-foot, but going up Fish Street Hill his horses were so tired, that they could not be got to go up the hill, though all the street boys and men did beat and whip them. At last I was fain to send my boy for a link, and so light out of the coach till we got to another at the corner of Fenchurch Street, and so home, and to bed.

all morning in her hands
a sea with one fish


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Friday 15 November 1661.

Fortune

This entry is part 13 of 27 in the series Morning Porch Poems: Autumn 2014

 

Not the indifferent message
served inside the cracked
shell of thinned pastry dough,

but whatever sifts down
through the mesh of sleep
to wind up in the bowl

you are served for breakfast—
Not the spoon you stop to take
out of your mouth to consider

what worth it will hold, melted
in the furnace. Listen then,
and remember: how your

grandmother knocked on the door
of each pawnbroker’s house in town
to beg back the heirloom

with its inlaid heart of rubies
strung on a chain. One desperation
can lead so easily to another, then

another. And it’s true, we most desire
what brilliance wounds the deepest.
What we’ll give to stay inside

such golden, reckless beauty! That flickering
in the trees, every leaf a tongue that must
burn hard because winter is coming.

 

In response to an entry from the Morning Porch.

Retirement

At the office all the morning. At noon I went by appointment to the Sun in Fish Street to a dinner of young Mr. Bernard’s for myself, Mr. Phillips, Davenport, Weaver, &c., where we had a most excellent dinner, but a pie of such pleasant variety of good things, as in all my life I never tasted. Hither came to me Captain Lambert to take his leave of me, he being this day to set sail for the Straights. We drank his farewell and a health to all our friends, and were very merry, and drank wine enough. Hence to the Temple to Mr. Turner about drawing up my bill in Chancery against T. Trice, and so to Salisbury Court, where Mrs. Turner is come to town to-night, but very ill still of an ague, which I was sorry to see. So to the Wardrobe and talked with my Lady, and so home and to bed.

A sun for myself—
pie of a life I never tasted.

I am captain. I set sail
for the farewell chance.


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Thursday 14 November 1661.

Message in a bottle

By appointment, we all went this morning to wait upon the Duke of York, which we did in his chamber, as he was dressing himself in his riding suit to go this day by sea to the Downs. He is in mourning for his wife’s grandmother, which is thought a great piece of fondness. After we had given him our letter relating the bad condition of the Navy for want of money, he referred it to his coming back and so parted, and I to Whitehall and to see la belle Pierce, and so on foot to my Lord Crew’s, where I found him come to his new house, which is next to that he lived in last; here I was well received by my Lord and Sir Thomas, with whom I had great talk: and he tells me in good earnest that he do believe the Parliament (which comes to sit again the next week), will be troublesome to the Court and Clergy, which God forbid! But they see things carried so by my Lord Chancellor and some others, that get money themselves, that they will not endure it. From thence to the Theatre, and there saw “Father’s own Son” again, and so it raining very hard I went home by coach, with my mind very heavy for this my expensefull life, which will undo me, I fear, after all my hopes, if I do not take up, for now I am coming to lay out a great deal of money in clothes for my wife, I must forbear other expenses.
To bed, and this night began to lie in the little green chamber, where the maids lie, but we could not a great while get Nell to lie there, because I lie there and my wife, but at last, when she saw she must lie there or sit up, she, with much ado, came to bed.

The sea is given
our letter relating the bad
condition of the money,
and it is well received.

I lie to God
but not to the rain,
my mind full of money—
a little green chamber.


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Wednesday 13 November 1661.

If this, then

When the wind carelessly picks up
leaves that have so diligently been raked
off the lawn— is that the breath of God,

or merely the exhalation of a less
powerful machine? When the asterisk
in the middle of a form says you

have to start all over again—
is that the voice of destiny
telling you to go home?

When the figure of brittle glass
that used to sit on the mantel
turns out to be Made in China—

will your grandmother’s ghost
mourn its desultory drift
from one yard sale to another?

It might be time to snip the strings
that fetter fact to the ideal: spores
velvet the surface of bread, and leaves

speckle with rust-colored blight. And in
the river, the wading bird has dipped its head
for more than an hour without any reward.

 

In response to Via Negativa: Pulling strings.

Pulling strings

At the office all the morning. Dined at home alone. So abroad with Sir W. Pen. My wife and I to “Bartholomew Fayre,” with puppets which I had seen once before, and the play without puppets often, but though I love the play as much as ever I did, yet I do not like the puppets at all, but think it to be a lessening to it. Thence to the Greyhound in Fleet Street, and there drank some raspberry sack and eat some sasages, and so home very merry.
This day Holmes come to town; and we do expect hourly to hear what usage he hath from the Duke and the King about this late business of letting the Swedish Embassador go by him without striking his flag.

At the office, a play
with puppets. But
like puppets we do expect
a letting go.


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Tuesday 12 November 1661.

Dear constellation of which I am only

dust traveling with the lightest of hopes

on the outer fringes of your periphery—
please explain how it is that every

deflection overcomes me; and further,
how it is possible even the tiniest

injustice could wound with the weight
of entire galaxies. Who was it said

we spin in space, cold and apart,
edges not touching? I choose

not to believe, unable to separate
flower from myth, the symbol from

its stem, every small trembling
that only wants an accounting.

 

In response to an entry from the Morning Porch.

Forecast

“An oyster’s/ answer to a tear—” – D. Bonta

Mothers called out from high windows to warn
of the cold that was coming.

Men turned in the fields, swiveling their blades
and pulling one last knob from the earth
to drop into a sack.

At the farthest edge of the ocean, a single wave
higher than a mountain trembled in the breeze,

awaiting the first icy shock
and its fatal splintering.

 

In response to Via Negativa: Pearls.

Pearls

To the Wardrobe, and with Mr. Townsend and Moore to the Saracen’s Head to a barrel of oysters, and so Mr. Moore and I to Tom Trice’s, with whom I did first set my hand to answer to a writt of his this tearm. Thence to the Wardrobe to dinner, and there by appointment met my wife, who had by my direction brought some laces for my Lady to choose one for her. And after dinner I went away, and left my wife and ladies together, and all their work was about this lace of hers.
Captain Ferrers and I went together, and he carried me the first time that ever I saw any gaming house, to one, entering into Lincoln’s-Inn-Fields, at the end of Bell Yard, where strange the folly of men to lay and lose so much money, and very glad I was to see the manner of a gamester’s life, which I see is very miserable, and poor, and unmanly.
And thence he took me to a dancing school in Fleet Street, where we saw a company of pretty girls dance, but I do not in myself like to have young girls exposed to so much vanity.
So to the Wardrobe, where I found my Lady had agreed upon a lace for my wife of 6l, which I seemed much glad of that it was no more, though in my mind I think it too much, and I pray God keep me so to order myself and my wife’s expenses that no inconvenience in purse or honour follow this my prodigality. So by coach home.

An oyster’s
answer to a tear—
I choose one for
my wife and one,
like so much in
my mind, to keep
to myself.


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Monday 11 November 1661.