Man of Keriot

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And Yehuda said unto his brethren, “What profit is it if we slay our brother, and conceal his blood? Come, and let us sell him to the Ishmaelites, and let not our hand be upon him; for he is our brother and our flesh.” And his brethren were content.

Then there passed by Midianite merchantmen, and they drew and lifted up Yosef out of the pit, and sold Yosef to the Ishmaelites for twenty pieces of silver, and they brought Yosef into Egypt.

GENESIS 37:26-28 (King James Version, slightly amended)

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Now while Yeshua was in Beit Aniyah in the house of Shimon the leper, a woman came to him with an alabaster flask of precious myrrh and poured it on his head, anointing him, while he was reclining at the dinner table. When his students saw this, they were indignant and said, “Why this waste? This ointment could have been sold for a great price and given to the poor.”

Yeshua heard them and said,

Why are you troubling this woman
who has done a good thing for me?
The poor you always have with you,
but me you will not always have.
When she poured myrrh on my body,
she prepared me for burial.
Amen, I say to you, where in all the world
the good news is proclaimed,
what she has done will be told
in memory of this woman.

Then one of the twelve, who was called Yehuda of Keriot, went to the high priests and said, “What are you willing to give me if I hand him over to you?”

And they weighed out thirty pieces of silver for him.

And from that moment, Yehuda looked for a chance to betray him.

GOSPEL OF MATTAI 26:6-16 (Willis Barnstone, tr., The New Covenant, Riverhead Books, 2002)
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Starting from scratch

Sorting clothes for a load of wash: hooded sweatshirt & long johns both came from my deceased grandfather; this wool coat belonged to a dead friend of a friend. And these shirts from Goodwill – who knows what became of their previous owners?

In they all go together with a handful of soap. I pull out the tank from the dehumidifier & empty it into the machine: water captured from the air seems somehow fitting for dead men’s clothes.

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In last night’s digest of the local freecycle e-mail list, several angry missives derided someone for posting the same request more than once in the course of a month. Stop being so fucking discourteous! I wanted to write.

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I like giving, but I hate the idea that it might sometimes be necessary to keep track. People around here tend to be very idealistic about this: being good friends, they like to say, means never keeping track of who owes whom. But in reality, I think, being friends means developing sensitivities far beyond what’s necessary for ordinary give-and-take. Each friendship requires a unique sensitivity; you have to start from scratch each time. Which isn’t such a bad starting point, really.

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The grandfather whose clothes & shoes I have inherited started from scratch during the Great Depression, made a small fortune & gave it all away. He gave to churches, schools and charities, & he gave to his children. Toward the end of his life, when he became frail & sickly, he stubbornly refused to take care of himself, believing that anything he spent on himself represented money stolen from his children. It took a great deal of arguing to convince him that taking good care of himself was the best gift he could give to those who loved him.

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Generous as he was, he always railed against the government for collecting taxes. He wanted to control where every penny went & give his money only to worthy recipients, not to random “crud” – the bums, the welfare cheats. How could he not see that none of us were ever really worthy – that we were all crud?

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He gave & gave & gave, but he never let go. This I always found both admirable & deplorable.

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“Not just whiter. Brighter.” As if ordinary clothes could be suffused with radiance just by adding the right soap!

But look here (as my grandfather would say): any real radiance my clothes might have comes from those whose frail and tarnished forms they used to cover. They are full of shadows; every line & fold & fray recalls some long-gone motion or posture. Our habits outlive us. How much about us might a forensic anthropologist be able to decipher from such deformations in the literal fabrics of our lives?

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Let us get clean, but not too much. Let us give ourselves up, but not too often. “We find beauty not in the thing itself,” says Tanizaki, “but in the patterns of shadows.” The patterns that a lifetime of joy & laughter – or their opposite – inscribe around the eyes & mouth. The lines in a palm, whether open to grasp or to clasp, to caress, to implore.

Ote no ue ni / ochiba tamarinu / tachibotake

The honored hands
gathering fallen leaves:
stone buddha

(Masaoka Shiki)

Queen of the rats

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Rat has at least two god-parents that the dictionary is willing to discuss, both verbs in Latin: radere and rodere. Radere means to scratch, to scrape, to shave – whence erase. Rodere – whence rodent – means to gnaw.

But wait – you say – that’s not a rat in the picture! It’s not even a placental mammal. But the opossum does remind us about convergent evolution (hairless tails, a preference for garbage). Some words I’ll be mentioning later in this essay – errata, Erato, erotic – have no evolutionary relationship with rat, although I will be arguing for a kind of convergence in meaning.

Latin cognates aside, the English rat comes straight from the Anglo-Saxons – or more likely the Norse, whence the Norway rat. One pictures a raiding party of these rí¦ts swarming ashore under cover of darkness, heading straight for the nearest granary. After weeks at sea, men and rats alike must’ve been grateful to leave their fetid ships. And indeed, the Vikings’ powerful stench often gave them away. In frequently raided parts of the British Isles and what are now the Low Countries, if the winds were right, peasants working in the fields would catch a sudden whiff of body odor mixed with stale urine, rotten-meat-and-moldy-bread breath and general funk, and knew they had a couple minutes to flee. Those whose noses failed the test were killed or carried off. Thus, over several centuries, a process of unnatural selection resulted in local populations with noses almost as keen as bloodhounds.

Okay, I just made that up. (For anyone who isn’t adept at smelling a rat, outright fabrication begins with “And indeed.”) In fact, the opposite was more nearly true: the Vikings could probably smell their human prey a mile off. The Church taught that frequent ablutions were a heathenish practice adored by devotees of Freya and followers of Mohammed. And contemporary accounts indicate that the un-Christianized Norsemen and women were generally cleaner than their more southerly neighbors; every large farm had a heated bath-house, and hands and faces were washed on a daily basis.

So much for stereotypes! In fact, rats and pigs are also very clean animals if given half a chance. They have to be. Both animals have extremely sensitive olfactory organs; life with humans would probably be very nearly intolerable for them, were it not for the abundant rewards. And how much of what we discard lands on the midden heap solely because of our inadequate sniffers, preventing us from perceiving a whole universe of subtle variations in odor and hence in taste?

Because of their acute senses of taste and smell, rats have “an extraordinarily well-developed first line of defense against toxins,” say rat biologists. One must also remember, however, that the highly developed noses of other animals evolved less for food than for sex. Anne’s Rat Page, a wonderfully informative and entertaining website on rat behavior and biology (whence also the preceding quote) says that rats have “between 500 and 1,000 types of olfactory receptors, coded for by between 500 and 1,000 genes! That is a staggering number of genes, about 1% of the rat’s DNA.” In addition, says Anne,

Rats have a second way to detect odors, called the vomeronasal organ, or VNO. The VNO in mammals is situated in a pouch off the nasal cavity. In rats, the VNO is located in a cigar-shaped passage in the floor of the nasal cavity, right next to the septum, with a narrow opening just inside the nostril. This dead-end position means that air can’t flow into it, like the olfactory epithelium of the nose. When rats sniff and lick, molecules from the environment stick to the moist nose and dissolve, and are then transported to the VNO suspended in mucus. The VNO dilates and constricts to pump the odor-bearing liquid inside rapidly. [References omitted]

I like the idea of odors essential for communication between individuals of the same species having a separate destination – a pipeline straight to the hypothalamus. In humans, the communicative role of mucous tends to be restricted to French kissing – a far cry from the versatility of rat snot.

With nasal and vomeronasal organs working in tandem, rats can detect chemical signals:

in all sorts of secretions, such as urine, feces, and secretions from the skin glands. They are picked up by sniffing or licking an individual, or through odors that have been deposited on the ground or volatilized into the air.

One of the most familiar methods of chemical communication in rats is urine marking. Sexually mature males are the most prolific urine markers, though sexually mature females may show some urine marking as well, especially on the night before they come into heat. Urine marking is therefore considered an advertisement of one’s presence and a sex attractant — adult males advertise and females choose their mate from among the advertisers. Female urine marking may be an advertisement of sexual receptivity.

Chemical secretions contain an enormous amount of information. Through odors contained in secretions such as urine, rodents can determine all the following about the animal who produced the odor:

sex
reproductive status: if the urine is from a female, rats can determine whether she is receptive to mating, pregnant, or lactating.
sexual maturity (juvenile vs. sexually mature adult)
familiar vs. unfamiliar animals (differentiate strangers from members of one’s own colony)
social status (dominant from subordinate individuals)
individual recognition
– stress level

So, urine contains all sorts of highly personal information! [References omitted]

But doesn’t this invalidate my claims about ratty cleanliness? Isn’t pissing all over the place kind of a filthy habit? Not really. Urine consists mainly of urea, uric acid, and salt; only a few species of bacteria normally inhabit it. If left to stand, however, those bacteria go to work converting urea to ammonia – a potent chemical often used to disinfect toilets! Confused? Me too.

But human urine (and thus presumably also rodent urine) can emit a number of highly variable odors, notes Lilian Mundt. For example, diabetes can be detected by the presence of fruity ketones. A maple syrup-like odor, caused by certain amino acids, is a telltale sign of Maple Syrup Urine Disease. And a condition known as phenylketonuria produces an odor described as “mousy” – not “ratty,” mind you. The smell, taste and color of urine are valuable diagnostic tools sadly neglected by most modern doctors. Would tasting a patient’s urine ever have become such a widespread practice if it carried the dangers of, say, coprophagy? A respectable school of yoga even advocates the regular consumption of urine for therapy and enlightenment.

Amaroli is the ancient tantric and yogic technique which incorporates the use of urine for fulfilling vajroli kriya. Amaroli comes from the root word amara which means “immortal, undying, imperishable”. Amaroli was therefore a technique designed to bring about immortality. It was used in conjunction with tantric kundalini kriyas in an attempt to purify the body so that consciousness could expand to its original and cosmic state.

One suspects that some of the health claims advanced for piss-drinking might in fact be due to the strict dietary regimen necessary to make the stuff potable.

Diet for the most intense forms of the internal technique (that is three or more glasses per day), should be low in protein and salt. Refined, processed and synthetic foods should be avoided, for example, white sugar, refined flour, tinned food, and so on. Spicy food may make the urine pungent and difficult to drink. Some proponents recommend that milk consumption be stopped too. Intake of alcohol and tobacco should be reduced to the barest minimum, or preferably avoided totally if possible.

The Amaroli novice may experience a few side-effects, such as “loose stools, skin eruptions such as pimples and boils, vomiting, fever of unexplained origin, cough, general weakness and debility.” But not to worry – this too shall pass.

[T]here is no need to panic and take drugs for any of the above mentioned processes. They usually occur because the body systems are now [sic] strong enough for the elimination processes to handle the deeply ingrained toxins and poisons. These other methods (eg. healing crises) are then employed by the body to dispose of the excess, and as a result, strange and perhaps as yet un-experienced manifestation [sic] may occur. If this happens the best way to handle the situation is to reduce the intake of urine or to stop completely and rest the body. Complete rest and fasting may also help, or a fruit diet can be instigated, depending on the manifestations that occur. Please do not run to your doctor and start taking medications to suppress the healing crisis’s [sic]. Let them unfold naturally and according to their own sequences….

Vomiting may occur when the urine is especially bad tasting and smelling as in fevers, jaundice and other illnesses. The urine of such dis-“eases” may seem totally unpalatable, yet if the patient has steeled his mind to drink it, then copious supplies of water will help to dilute the urine and make it easier to drink. If you can hold down the first flow, then the second should be more dilute and better tasting, and so on, until clear pleasant tasting urine finally comes.

Vomiting is good in that it cleans the stomach just as kunjal kriya does, [sic] Therefore, it should not cause any undue worry. After vomiting, the nausea is usually relieved and you feel better. If vomiting persists and dry retching occurs, you should seek professional help.

Sic.

I realize it’s not unusual to find web pages – and especially blogs – with copious discharges of errata. And errata in and of themselves are of great interest to me; they suggest not only rat but Erato, the muse of lyric poetry. Indeed, much of what the lyric poet does may be characterized as the deliberate misconstruing of signs and symbols. How better to add pungency than by throwing up a smoke screen?

Textual errata were also among the phenomena cited by the contemporary philosopher Alphonso Lingis as constituting what he calls “the murmur of the world.” The very lack of purity of sensory phenomena is what gives them texture, density, sex appeal. That was in a book called The Community of Those Who Have Nothing in Common, which I don’t have at hand and thus may be misrepresenting slightly. But in his book The Imperative (Indiana University Press, 1998), which I do own, Lingis advances a phenomenology of perception that seems as applicable to the experience of a rat as of a human. Although rats, as highly social mammals, possess a very human-like form of intelligence, I’m sure they would tend to agree with Lingis that it is “not only our thought [that] is governed by an imperative, as Kant had maintained; our sensual, sensory, and emotional life is continually regulated by imperatives that come from the world around us.”

The erotic is especially prone to errata, it seems. For a variety of organisms, visual as well as olfactory cues relating to courtship involve “seductive display and ritual, artifice, masquerade, and finery” – not to mention subterfuge and fabrication. “Erotic beauty adds to the body the excesses of feline, avian, and coral-reef ornamentation.”

The vivid olfactory (and tactile/auditory) universe of the rat might account for its relative lack of such visual excesses. In humans, the abundant modifications of culture make up for our otherwise hairless-rat appearance. All this is natural as well as cultural. The real error lies, I think, with those yogis and other fanatics who yearn for excessive purity. To be pure is to aspire to completely homogenous, closed systems: no waste products, no ingestion of foreign substances. If sex must be practiced, it should be endogamous and strictly for procreation. The excessive fear of contamination and pollution that drives the quest for religious and racial purity also thoroughly infects modern medicine. The cult of the antiseptic leads ultimately to more disease, not less, via the rapid evolution of more virulent germs. Simple sanitation should suffice; we should obey the imperatives of our olfactory nerves and hypothalamus when they tell us that chlorine bleach and ammonia smell terrible.

Erato, queen of the hairless rats, derives much of her power from sublimation. In eros, Lingis observes, bodies exceed themselves. Lovers’ language is sheer babble.

Glands stiffen and harden, becoming bones and rods. The eyes cloud and become wet and spongy, hair is turning into webs and gleam. Then everything collapses, melts, gelatinizes, runs. Every voluptuous embrace is necrophilic, sinking into a body decomposing and cadaverous, already soaking the sheets and oneself with released inner fluids teeming with nameless and chaotic tinglings, spasms, fluids, microorganisms. The flames of voluptuous pleasure ignite them as they careen and flare apart, in clothing and the wood of the furniture collecting swampy stains, in the air whose minute spheres of water vapor teem with microorganisms, in the soil decomposing into unnameable organisms.

For this zone of decomposition of the world of work and reason, this zone of blood and semen and vaginal secretions, of elemental discharges and corpses, this zone too of proliferating, uncontrollable, nameless fetal life, which disgusts and horrifies us but also summons us, is the zone of the sacred.

There’s something to gnaw on for a while.
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Anne’s essays on the rat’s sensory world or ümvelt are worth reading for the way they challenge anthropocentric prejudices. Not only does the rat have two separate senses of smell; its ultrasensitive whiskers apparently blend touch and hearing. Additional essays of particular interest include The rat’s tail, Why rats can’t vomit, and Why are a rat’s testicles so big?

Ghost in the machine

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In so many ways, “Garbage in, garbage out” is the mantra of the age. The sheer quantity of garbage – whether measured in spam or disposable diapers – is impressive enough, but what makes garbage seem so all-pervasive is our growing inability to separate it from non-garbage. Technology changes so quickly now that planned obsolescence is itself virtually obsolete. I get e-mails that I delete without reading because I don’t know whether they are truly addressed to me. It’s all just electrons anyway, right? Except that every minute spent reading e-mail is another minute closer to the end of this heavy metal-laden box, this mobile Superfund site. The first time I heard back from a mailer-daemon I was amused. Now sometimes viruses disguise themselves as mailer-daemons, just as con artists concoct sob stories about lost fortunes. In both cases there’s a grain of truth. We do things without knowing why they work, even the experts. Here in Plummer’s Hollow, when the wireless connection suddenly starts to cut in and out, I’ve learned by trial and error how to fix it: turn off the main computer, wait five minutes, turn it back on. Yesterday when I did this, a little message popped up in a cartoon speech balloon that led to nobody. It read: “You have unused desktop icons. Use the desktop cleanup wizard to get rid of them. Click on this balloon.” It’s certainly true in religion: an icon or fetish must be cared for on a regular basis: fed, paraded, incensed, whatever. Computer icons need at least to be double-clicked from time to time, it seems. The desktop display is clearly an altar; we are officients, in charge if rarely in control. Electronic familiars proliferate: browsers, anti-virus programs, pop-up blockers, instant messaging systems, spell checkers, feed readers, audio players. Wheels with wheels. Ghosts in the machine. Most of us use a computer the same way we operate a car or a VCR: as extensions of our minds and bodies, and fully as mysterious and prone to inexplicable failures. Only for the high priests of geekdom – guys like my cousin-in-law Jeff – is this more about power than faith. Who’d have foreseen, back when we studied Basic and Fortran in the more forward-thinking high schools, that computing would come to be dominated by those who best understand how the average person thinks? I remember writing that most basic of Basic programs – “10 Go to 10” – and feeling simultaneously pleased and bored out of my mind. Somehow, that feeling has stuck with me. Boredom and frustration remain closely linked, as in the quintessentially modern experience of sitting in a waiting room and wondering when and if one’s number will ever come up. Sometimes I get nostalgic and double-click on the time – not an icon, but the digital readout down in the lower right-hand corner of the screen. A facsimile of an analog clock pops up, and I find that oddly reassuring. I like to think of it in there – somewhere – with hands merrily turning, even when the computer’s off. My first computer couldn’t do this. Every time I shut it off, its clock went back to Day One. I remember the day when the screen finally failed to light up beyond the cursor’s little green mote. It wasn’t winking – that was the telltale sign that rigor mortis had set in. Now this one – my third computer, a hand-me-down like the others – begins to show signs of senility. Two weeks ago a sudden silence befell it, without affecting any of its functions. At first I was overjoyed; it had been very noisy and was slowly driving me nuts – which is not a very long drive, actually. But then I happened to mention this happy occasion to my aforementioned cousin Jeff, who informed me that it meant that one or both fans had given up the ghost. Since it sits on a cold floor in a cold house, it has yet to overheat – but that’s just a matter of time. On his advice, my dad and I took it apart. There were many, many little screws holding this piece of garbage together and we managed not to lose a one of them. But neither fan was spinning. We were able to nudge the processor fan into making a few squeaky revolutions, but that was all. I was astonished by how little was in the box – and by how thickly the dust lay on everything. Gray windrows of dust filled every corner and crack. I blew it out as hard as I could, then took a vacuum cleaner to it. So that’s what happened to all my gray matter, I said.

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Discussion Thread
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Yajñavalkya: Hi, my name is Yajñavalkya. How may I help you?
Yajñavalkya: Please provide me information to further assist you.
Shakalya: Hello Yajñavalkya.
Yajñavalkya: Go ahead.
Shakalya: What deity have you in this fixed quarter (zenith)?
Yajñavalkya: The deity, fire.
Shakalya: On what is fire supported?
Yajñavalkya: On speech.
Shakalya: On what is speech supported?
Yajñavalkya: On the heart.
Shakalya: On what is the heart supported?
Yajñavalkya: You ghost, that you think it would be elsewhere than in ourselves! For if it were anywhere else than in itself, the dogs would eat it or the birds tear it to pieces.
Shakalya: On what are you and yourself supported?
Yajñavalkya: On the in-breath.
Shakalya: On what is the in-breath supported?
Yajñavalkya: On the out-breath.
Shakalya: On what is the out-breath supported?
Yajñavalkya: On the diffused breath.
Shakalya: And on what is the diffused breath supported?
Yajñavalkya: On the equalizing or middle breath. That self is not this, not this. It is incomprehensible for it is not comprehended.
Yajñavalkya: Are you still there?
Shakalya: Thank you for your assistance.
Yajñavalkya: Do you have other concerns I can help you with?
Shakalya: Yes. When the garbage goes out, where does it go? Is it all the same garbage?
Yajñavalkya: Have a nice day.
Yajñavalkya: disconnected
Shakalya: disconnected

Landscape with red privy

In the right conditions, even a brief walk can be Kodak-momentous. I remind myself of a chicken, perpetually cocking my head to one side in order to get a better look at a potential morsel. When we were kids, we used to hypnotize chickens by drawing a straight, chalk line with a yardstick on the concrete floor of the verandah, then laying a hen down on her side so that one eye was as close as possible to the end of the line. If nothing came along to disturb it, a chicken so mesmerized could lie that way for hours.

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Being right-handed, when I squint to look for a picture, it’s usually my left eye that I close. In strong light, there’s a considerable difference between what I see through each eye. My left is the cold one; I like to think of it as my Yeats eye. Things have a much warmer cast when seen through my right eye.

My awareness of the ambiguity in my own eyesight makes me all the more willing to play with brightness and contrast, hue and saturation, figure and ground.

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In order to communicate what I think of as a truer vision, I have to look at things in a highly selective manner. There’s a kind of circumspection to it.

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I become a tracker, meaning not only one who tracks, but also one who leaves a track, and – especially in mud season – one who tracks in.

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Most photos must be cropped. A crop need not be something planted, but it does imply discrimination at least in the gathering. To crop is to segregate within real or figurative boundaries from the perceptual chaos of nature.

Birds have crops, or gizzards, which they use in lieu of teeth. As anyone who has ever kept chickens knows, they have to swallow many small stones along with their food.

Cropping anticipates digestion. The land passes through our bodies on its way to becoming something else. And we in turn pass through the land, again and again, on the way to our final covenant with the earth.

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Lost city

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Back when I used to read the seed catalogues religiously this time of year, I remember being impressed by the Burpee Company’s obsessive quest for a white marigold. Since seed catalogues were pretty much the only kind of catalogues I spent any time with, I am not sure when “marigold” became a standard descriptor for a certain shade of orange. But the search for a pure white marigold seemed vaguely subversive, if not completely comprehensible.

I see now that the Burpee breeders did achieve their goal, evidently more than once. The on-line catalogue features a hybrid they call French Vanilla. (Hmm, maybe a competitor should develop a “Freedom White” variety?) The catalogue also includes another white marigold – evidently an earlier success – called Snowdrift.

It’s always refreshing to find new product names with some actual, albeit tenuous, link to reality. This seems to be the case with Snowdrift, which “prefers some afternoon shade in regions where summers are extremely hot.” In another words, this marigold’s so Nordic it might not even make it in Mexico, where marigolds originated.

The original breeders of marigolds had something more than mere decorative values in mind. In Mexico, the flower has always had a strong connection with rites for the dead. Oddly enough, that connection survived its transplant to India, though not to the United States. If it had, perhaps the folks at Burpee would have developed a black marigold by now. Now that would be the sort of flower that might lure me back into serious gardening.

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At certain spots on the banks of the stream where the wind has drawn the snow away into drifts – white brows arched over the dark current – some mornings you can find flowers, small things with petals that face in every direction. They blossom on cold nights when the stars wheel slowly overhead, rooted in the north. When at last the sun reaches them, their gleaming petals unfold, turn moist, dissolve. Steam rises from the stones in lieu of pollen.

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Hitched to the roof I too
would turn snow
melt to crystal,
join ranked
columns in
an instant
ruin, lost
city made
from sun
& sky &
grow
down
ward
drop
by
free
zing
dr
o
p
.

Wind tracks

Last night as I was making supper, I heard a story on NPR about Steve Fossett’s successful completion of the first, solo, round-the-world jet flight without refueling.

He guided his single-engine jet to a flawless landing in Salina [Kansas] on Thursday and triumphantly disembarked on a brilliantly sunny day as thousands cheered. Elated but a bit wobbly, he hugged his wife, Peggy, and Richard Branson, the flamboyant chairman of Virgin Atlantic, the airline that financed the trip.

Branson promptly hosed Fossett down with champagne before the pilot swigged from the bottle. He looked perky for someone who had flown 37,000 kilometres crammed into a two-metre cockpit for 67 hours with only fortified milkshakes for sustenance.

“Well, that was something I wanted to do for a long time,” Fossett, 60, told spectators and reporters. “It was a major ambition. I’m a really lucky guy.”

Asked if he wanted to take a shower, he replied: “I wouldn’t mind finding a toilet.”

That’s from the Sydney Morning Herald (reporter Matthew Wald), which I chose just now from the Google News page because of its headline, “High drama, but a landing that went to script.” I wonder if it would occur to any newspaper editor in the United States to allow a critical note to sour a headline about such a self-evidently great achievement?

But my own reaction, upon hearing Fossett’s words on NPR, was even grumpier. The guy just completed a solo, round-the world flight, and the first words out of his mouth are about how happy he is to have achieved his fucking goal?! What about about the flight? Might it have been just a wee bit amazing, incredible, beautiful, perhaps even awe-inspiring? Who the hell knows! In fairness to Fossett, perhaps he had these feelings and simply chose not to express them – or perhaps he did express them, and the reporters simply didn’t deem them newsworthy. But I was struck by the reaction of the crowd: they cheered ecstatically at the banal words of this adventurer, as the media calls him. They actually cared that he had accomplished “a major ambition”!

Except when they behave badly or fail spectacularly, heroes and athletes are boring. Michael Jordan was boring until he decided to play baseball in the minor leagues. Tiger Woods was ungodly boring until he fell in love and his game started to slip. Dennis Rodman was never boring. The all-American success story of triumph over adversity is slightly interesting the first time you hear a version of it – for example, in Pilgrim’s Progress – but thereafter quickly becomes not merely boring but alienating, even offensive. Most of us don’t live lives of such easily scripted linearity, and many don’t even aspire to it. There’s a hell of a lot more to life than self-actualization, the pinnacle – as I understand it – of Maslow’s vacuous and morally bankrupt hierarchy of human needs.

Sometimes I think I would be better off returning to my English or Dutch roots, moving back to Old Europe where so many people seem to have learned the lessons of over-weening ambition and would-be heroism on the battlefield. I long for the fellowship of folks who (forgive the stereotype) understand nuance and satire, like to putter about in gardens, hang in out in neighborhood pubs and who are, above all else, easily amused. I was confirmed in this stereotype of the British recently when I read Bill Bryson’s charming travelogue, Notes From a Small Island (Avon Books, 1995). Bryson was from Iowa originally, but married an Englishwoman and made Great Britain his home for many years.

I used to be puzzled by the curious attitude of the British to pleasure, and that tireless, dogged optimism of theirs that allowed them to attach an upbeat turn of phrase to the direst inadequacies – “Mustn’t grumble,” “It makes a change,” “You could do worse,” “It’s not much, but it’s cheap and cheerful,” “Well, it was quite nice” – but gradually I came around to their way of thinking and my life has never been happier. I remember finding myself sitting in damp clothes in a cold café on a dreary seaside promenade and being presented with a cup of tea and tea cake and going, “Ooh, lovely!” and I knew then that the process had started. Before long I came to regard all kinds of activities – asking for more toast in a hotel, buying wool-rich socks at Marks & Spencer, getting two pairs of pants when I really needed only one – as something daring, very nearly illicit. My life became immensely richer.

High adventure for me yesterday was an hour’s snowshoe around the trails, right before I started supper. Perhaps that’s partly where my strong reaction to Fosset’s victory speech came from. It was nice and cold, the snow was firm from two days of drifting, and the low sun kept winking in and out behind fast-moving cumulous clouds in an otherwise deep blue sky. Most tracks had been erased by drifting snow, but I noticed strange, shallow markings all across the trail in front of me, too precise and not quite random enough to have come from stuff falling off of trees. In one spot there’d be a series of parallel hash marks like the graffiti of some lonely, ethereal prisoner keeping track of the days. Somewhere else, a strange, skipping, meandering line maybe six feet long, as if a bird drunk on fermented berries had tried briefly to land, and then thought better of it.

The author, I finally realized, was the wind, writing its name with whatever instruments came to hand. I found a couple of its styluses, dead oak leaves curled up like fawns in shallow depressions that once had been bootprints, before the wind went to work.

Why Salina, Kansas? Because, they said, it has an unusually long runway at its airstrip, originally built for bomber pilots in WWII. I take Fossett at his word when he says he isn’t in it for the publicity – it’s not like he needs the money – but from a p.r. standpoint, he couldn’t have picked a more perfect place to take off from and return to than the state of Kansas. I mean the Kansas that we’re not in anymore, Toto, but eventually come to wish that we were, because when you get right down to it, “there’s no place like home.” The hero, hag-ridden by ambition, must always long for his dull-but-happy former life in Ithaka.

But for me, Salina, Kansas has other associations: it’s the home of the Land Institute, where botanists, agronomists and others have been working for a couple decades to breed perennial grains, develop more accurate systems of ecological accounting, and in general to pioneer new ways of inhabiting the once-mighty tallgrass prairie of the American middle west. As it says on their website,

Because this work deals with basic biological questions and principles, the implications are applicable worldwide. If Natural Systems Agriculture were fully adopted, we could one day see the end of agricultural scientists from industrialized societies delivering agronomic methods and technologies from their fossil fuel-intensive infrastructures into developing countries and thereby saddling them with brittle economies….

The Land Institute seeks to develop an agriculture that will save soil from being lost or poisoned while promoting a community life at once prosperous and enduring.

If they succeed, I doubt that they will be mobbed by cheering fans or filmed for the six o’clock news. Not too many folks think of Land Institute co-founder Wes Jackson as a hero, though perhaps they should. News reporters tend to refer to guys like Jackson as a visionary, which is on a level with adventurer, but is nowhere near as prestigious as expert with the XYZ think-tank – let alone anonymous source. Visionary has a whiff of unreliability about it, like activist, Palestinian spokesperson, drifter, or even – god forbid! – poet.

UPDATE: The online environmental magazine Grist just published a great little overview of Bill Bryson’s writing, A Short Review of Nearly Everything: Bill Bryson’s books offer environmental ethics with a light touch, by Sarah van Schagen.

Vanishing point

When I took art history in college, I was struck by the notion that there could be such a thing as laws of perspective. It seemed bogus to me, but I couldn’t quite figure out why. The rather sudden dominance of the perspective of a single viewer is one of those things historians use to divide Medieval from Renaissance – a rather bogus exercise in itself, shaped as it is by our desire to see history from the perspective of progress, all lines converging on some indefinable point in the near future. These days, the ideology of progress involves a constant invoking of the vague term development, which etymologically implies a stripping down, a reduction. History follows two tracks: one for us, the developed nations, and another for those slow pokes who need to be more like us – the developing world. In a feat of intellectual prestidigitation we have substituted ourselves for the vanishing point. Poof!

But what I was going to say before I got sidetracked is that the “discovery” of the Laws of Perspective is like the “discovery” of the wheel. Each unique application represents not a context-free achievement of some unitary position in time and space, but simply an invention. Have we yet come anywhere near exhausting the uses for wheels? What sorts of wheels might remain to be discovered, obscured by our blind arrogance as “discoverers”? We Westerners are given to marvel that the civilizations of the New World, so otherwise “advanced” – i.e. like us – were without the wheel. But that’s absurd. Wheels are everywhere! It would be more accurate to say that the profound reverence of New World civilizations for cyclic patterns in time and nature made the exploitation of wheels for quotidian purposes virtually unthinkable.

In a similar manner, East Asian cultures have always evinced a deep sensitivity to the problems and rewards of perspective – far deeper than in the West, where the truth was almost always sought through a metaphysics of oneness: a first principle, an efficient cause, a logos. For Chinese thinkers, whether of a Daoist, Confucian or Buddhist bent, truth was highly contingent and relational, and the sage was someone who mastered the art of shifting perspectives. A strong distinction between subject and object never emerged. As Roger T. Ames and David L. Hall put it in the introduction to their philosophical translation of the Daodejing,

The field of experience is always construed from one perspective or another. There is no view from nowhere, no external perspective, no decontextualized vantage point. We are all in the soup. The intrinsic, constitutive relations that obtain among all things make them reflexive and mutually implicating, residing together within the flux and the flow.

This description of the metaphysics of philosophical Daoism also captures quite accurately the Daoist-influenced mindset of the traditional East Asian landscape painter. The artist’s goal was not so much to develop an individual creative vision as to merge with, or become enveloped by, the larger creative flow. Thus the (to us) strange perspectives in a traditional Chinese landscape painting: the buildings that get larger as they get farther way from the viewer, a horizon that curves up rather than down. Often, the near distance is obscured by mist or clouds, as if to emphasize the challenge that heaven-and-earth everywhere present to the self-centered, discriminating vision. A landscape is something the viewer must walk into to fully appreciate. Therefore, there must be multiple vanishing points as one’s perspective continually changes position.

But in modern times we have, in theory, this thing called a vanishing point. Does it exist in fact? Who knows! Given the limits of ordinary vision and atmospheric haze, one reaches the point of diminishing returns much sooner. What really interests me, though, is how different kinds of seeing can shape what we see. For example, I wear the same boots, the same jeans, the same quilted shirt day after day without paying much heed to the need for maintenance, much less variety. Each year I think, “This pair of boots” – or whatever – “will last forever!” But of course a year later I’m saying the same thing about a new pair. I could definitely benefit from more regularly taking the long view about such things, instead of living always day to day. It’s almost paradoxical, isn’t it? By ignoring vanishing points, I may actually hasten the inevitable disintegration of things within my sphere of experience.

Once I met an ex-Marine Special Forces guy on Greyhound who told me that he wore the same pair of boots for twelve years, through mountains and jungles and several changes of the soles. His secret was simple: he oiled them down every night before going to sleep, he said. But over the course of a year, wouldn’t one spend enough on leather treatment products to buy a new pair of boots? To say nothing of the labor. But that wasn’t the point, I gathered. He disassembled and oiled his gun every night, too: an unchanging verity in an otherwise chaotic world. “I have seen things you wouldn’t believe. Nobody does. It doesn’t fit with what people think they know about this country,” he said when the discussion moved to U.S. policies in Columbia.

And speaking of vanishing points, I’ve looked through telescopic sights and pulled the trigger myself on occasion. It’s always such a surprise when one makes a clean miss and the animal doesn’t even react to the sound. Your ears are ringing, your arms are shaking with adrenaline and the damn thing is still feeding placidly a hundred feet away. It’s more fun to shoot beer cans – after first emptying them, of course. They lie where they fall – no unsightly flailing about – and the holes are nice and clean. You think you’ll feel this good forever. I mean, at some level you realize it’s only a temporary high, but it seems as if it ought to be possible to prolong it almost indefinitely, given the right drug or yoga-induced trigger. You strenuously ignore the sad and simple fact that heights and depths are solely a matter of perspective.

What I’m saying here, in a nutshell, is that there are two ways of looking at things: one that makes them appear smaller than oneself, and another that makes them appear larger and richer. One reduces, the other builds up or makes whole. Why should we have to see things as larger than they perhaps really are in order to see them accurately? Simply to correct for the limitations of our own points-of-view. As my father explained once, meeting someone half-way to resolve some difference tends to fail, because there’s almost inevitably some gap between what you and the other person each perceive as being half-way. For a true meeting in the middle, each party must be a little generous in their estimate. The heart needs to practice hospitality, to open up to multiple perspectives and possibilities.

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Fairly superfluous afterthought. I don’t stand with those who want to see all beings merge into some kind of amorphous whole or godhead, and thus to arrive at some very limited idea of peace. To me, that’s another form of reductionism, as violent in its violation of the integrity of individual beings as any other. Just as without gravity a bullet could not reach its target, without vanishing points, without some inclination – however gradual – toward nullity, there could be no space for anything. If the analogy between seeing and shooting seems overly concrete, perhaps that’s because shooting has its origin in a very literalized form of seeing. (Remembering what the Bible says about the dangers of being overly literal: “The letter killeth, the spirit giveth life.”) Violence and sorcery err in their attempt to foreshorten distances, to claim universal applicability for one vision, to foreclose on what must appear to the eye of an artist or a lover as the most radical Opening.

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For those who haven’t noticed, my dad has been updating his Peaceful Societies website with two new articles or reviews every Thursday morning. Recent additions include Piaroa Homegardens Provide Focus for Socializing; Batek Persuaded to Abandon Nomadic Lifestyle; Inuit Hunters Share Meat, But Not as Exchanges; and Reformers Win Tahitian Elections But Deadlock Remains. Today began Part I of a new series of articles, Violence Threatens the Peaceful Societies of North India, focusing on the armed Naxalite revolt of rural India, which has been virtually unreported in the West.

Artemis

From Robert Pogue Harrison, Forests: The Shadow of Civilization (University of Chicago Press, 1992):

“Her name in Greek is Artemis. She is one of the oldest, most enigmatic of Greek deities. Her worship goes back to the Pre-Hellenic period, but even in historical times she was widely worshipped as a fertility goddess in Asia Minor, her cult being based at Ephesus. From that city has come down to us the famous marble statue that depicts her standing upright with arms extending outward from the elbows. A congeries of wild animals stare out from her gown and headdress, while her front side is weighed down by multiple bulbs that suggest a proliferation of female breasts.

“For a long time no one thought to doubt that these bulbs were breasts symbolizing the goddess’s superabundant fertility, but then someone looked closer and remarked on their strange lack of plastic realism. In short, a group of Austrian archaeologists recently confirmed that these protrusions do not represent breasts after all but rather the testicles of bulls. The fact is corroborated by evidence uncovered at Ephesus which indicates that on her festival days Artemis’s priests would castrate several bulls, string the scrotums together, and then place the gruesome garlands around a wooden image of the goddess, which her votives would then follow in an ecstatic procession from her sacred altar to the center of the city….

“Her virginal aspect deserves greater emphasis, for in ancient times forests were by no means always virgin or beyond the bounds of human domestication….Silviculture is an ancient practice, but our goddess had nothing to do with it. She belonged to those dark and inaccessible regions where wild animals enjoyed sanctuary from all human disturbance except that of the most intrepid hunters.

“Like her domain, the goddess too was remote and inaccessible. She refused to be seen by man or woman. Even her most ardent priestesses and votives did not set eyes on her. The story of Hippolytus, son of Theseus, confirms this. So total was the youth’s devotion to Artemis that he went so far as to spurn the power of Aphrodite, who in revenge devised a cruel fate for him at the hands of his stepmother Phaedra. In Euripedes’ Hippolytus the young hunter brings Artemis flowers from a wild meadow where no human except himself could enter, and where he was granted the extraordinary privilege of hearing the goddess’s voice. But even he could not set eyes on her. ‘True I may only hear,’ says Hippolytus, ‘I may not see God face to face.'”

Prophesying

For a long time no one moved across the compound. I watched the translucent fingers of the pedandas spraying pinches of incense on the blue flames of the torches.

Suddenly I heard an outcry above; I glared at the night and saw that on the mats one of the men was suffering some kind of seizure. He stood stiff on sprung legs, his arms flailing. Strong young men jumped up, caught hold of his arms and held him. A pedanda stood before him, held a handful of smoldering leaves under his face forcing him to draw in the heavily incensed smoke. He fell limp and began to sob, then leapt up with rasping shouts. Abruptly a second man sprang up twisted and shaking. Young men were at once at his sides and took hold of him forcibly but then one after another each of a dozen men on the mats were overcome by convulsions, springing up or falling forward, flogged with invisible blows. The metallic cadence of the gamelan raced between the moans and cries…..

I tried to jolt my legs into movement to escape through the gate, then fell back: a few feet in front of me a young man had pulled his twisted kris dagger from its scabbard and held it before his chest. With a cry he drove it toward his ribs; the bone seemed to stop it. He now held it upright between his thighs and screaming drove it upwards into his abdomen. Again the point of the dagger seemed stopped by the contorted flesh and did not break through. Now several other men were brandishing daggers; two of them rushed through the gate.

Alphonso Lingis, “Pura Dalem,” Abuses (University of California Press, 1994)

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[Samuel to the young Saul:] And it shall come to pass, when thou art come thither to the city, that thou shalt meet a company of prophets coming down from the high place with a psaltery, and a tabret, and a pipe, and a harp, before them; and they shall prophesy. And thou shalt prophesy with them, and be turned into another man….

And it was so, that when he had turned his back to go from Samuel, God gave him another heart: and all these signs came to pass that day. And when they came thither to the hil, behold, a company of prophets met him; and the spirit of God came upon him, and he prophesied among them.

1 Samuel 10:5-6, 9-10

And Saul eyed David from that day and forward.

And it came to pass on the morrow, that an evil spirit from God came upon Saul, and he prophesied in the midst of his house: and David played with his hand, as at other times: and there was a javelin in Saul’s hand. And Saul cast the javelin; for he said, I will smite David even to the wall with it.

1 Samuel 18:9-11

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I don’t have time for a real post this morning, but here’s an old poem of mine. This is based on a story from my sister-in-law about a roommate she had back in college who used to suffer from frequent seizures, in the course of which she was sometimes visited by evil spirits. So while the voice here is my invention, the incident is real, so to speak.

SEIZURE

he was handsome in his double-breasted suit
tall & anything but dark he made me weak-kneed
he appeared in our midst with eyes
only for me
all colors had gone out of the room

he was strong full of promises money
couldn’t buy Only say you love me
better than you love yourself
he was old

where were the colors when the room started turning
slow as the hour hand on a grandfather clock
turning like a sunflower toward his face

then i saw his suit too was alive
braided snakes basking on a white rock
my tongue stuck fast on the first syllable of Jesus

he was saying Your brothers are evil
their church is an abomination
he was saying
not to let them put their hands on my head

or pin my arms back where
my two new wings will sprout & spread
& i’ll go like a pale moth to the light
like the Prophet to New Jerusalem

until i heard very faint & far
my mother’s voice
& it was You
your uncomplicated concern was worth
an eternity of sweets

i secreted his business card in a pocket of my purse
the other cards rustled together
like beech leaves in winter
still clinging to their tall pale tree