Singing Without Words

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
Recently, I learned the name that's given smaller, 
more familiar groups of stars is asterism—summer
triangle, teapot, small and large dipper, belt. Is the world
still capable of beginning in wonder, which is both
the dazzle of not knowing what hit youand the second-
guessing of everything you think you knew? Each child
I bore was that kind of wonder, arriving in their own
form of spectacular—fast, eyes bright and open; wet
with the effort to push into this new world; and then
the learning to navigate their own ungainly craft, bobbing
in these choppy waters. I wanted to pluck an arrangement
of stars to fashion into an amulet for each of them. Even now
I wish for these things—table with four steady legs, hearth-
stone; strike anywhere matches, vocables chiming
through the mouth and lighting the way home.

Way

Sam Pepys and me

At the office all the morning, and at noon my father, mother, and my aunt Bell (the first time that ever she was at my house) come to dine with me, and were very merry. After dinner the two women went to visit my aunt Wight, &c., and my father about other business, and I abroad to my bookseller, and there staid till four o’clock, at which time by appointment I went to meet my father at my uncle Fenner’s. So thither I went and with him to an alehouse, and there came Mr. Evans, the taylor, whose daughter we have had a mind to get for a wife for Tom, and then my father, and there we sat a good while and talked about the business; in fine he told us that he hath not to except against us or our motion, but that the estate that God hath blessed him with is too great to give where there is nothing in present possession but a trade and house; and so we friendly ended. There parted, my father and I together, and walked a little way, and then at Holborn he and I took leave of one another, he being to go to Brampton (to settle things against my mother comes) tomorrow morning.
So I home.

on the road we talk
to God where there
is nothing

but us and the way
born again


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Thursday 29 August 1661.

Ideological

Sam Pepys and me

At home all the morning setting papers in order. At noon to the Exchange, and there met with Dr. Williams by appointment, and with him went up and down to look for an attorney, a friend of his, to advise with about our bond of my aunt Pepys of 200l., and he tells me absolutely that we shall not be forced to pay interest for the money yet. I do doubt it very much. I spent the whole afternoon drinking with him and so home. This day I counterfeited a letter to Sir W. Pen, as from the thief that stole his tankard lately, only to abuse and laugh at him.

in exchange for an absolute
we pay interest on doubt

spent on drink it is
a counterfeit laugh


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Wednesday 28 August 1661.

Two-Step for the Anthropocene

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
At least a step ahead, or two: forward waltz,
blundering with care through abysmally

constricted passages, the whole complex
design of our mortal lives here below.

Every Eden you knew was mere leitmotiv,
flawed by your wanting. Heat rose from the bayou,

grass receded as the earth cracked. Imagine what
heartland remains after all turns aqueous,

impossible to return to unscathed. Every river
joining the large, vascular whole, every bulwark

kneeling in mud. Once, you knew sweetsop,
loquat, starfruit and where they grew; the indigo

moons of berries, cells blurring into lumen.
Now you note where chainsaws bit into velum,

oil seeped into bodies to make them weep. Will
pearls weep again into the heart of a mollusk,

quiver iridescent in the depths? A knife shaped like a J
releases the lip from its lock—reverse origami.

Silence pleats mountains and valleys, where feverish
tectonics many times leveled and wrung,

undoing what you knew of built histories. Grief
verges on every stone in the quarry, every visible

weave in the lattice. Wilderness was once world
extracted of seemingly every remaining oneiric.

Yet you harbor hope for some underlayer, some crumb
zested with traces not only of omega but also of alpha..

Somniloquy

This entry is part 49 of 51 in the series Une Semaine de Bonté

Page 52 from Max Ernst’s Une Semaine de Bonté

Meet me in the soggy bottom of the alphabet, among the leftover Zs. The curtain has come down on our last big scene like a deluge. I am ready to marry a bear just to gain access to a dry den, feast on truffles, whortleberries, and the succulent larvae of wasps. In a mushroom of one’s own, one’s entire fruiting body can be swaddled in a veil. One can conjure a tin soldier from a poisoned cup.

New moon

Sam Pepys and me

This morning to the Wardrobe, and there took leave of my Lord Hinchingbroke and his brother, and saw them go out by coach toward Rye in their way to France, whom God bless. Then I was called up to my Lady’s bedside, where we talked an hour about Mr. Edward Montagu’s disposing of the 5000l. for my Lord’s departure for Portugal, and our fears that he will not do it to my Lord’s honour, and less to his profit, which I am to enquire a little after.
Hence to the office, and there sat till noon, and then my wife and I by coach to my cozen, Thos. Pepys, the Executor, to dinner, where some ladies and my father and mother, where very merry, but methinks he makes but poor dinners for such guests, though there was a poor venison pasty.
Hence my wife and I to the Theatre, and there saw “The Joviall Crew,” where the King, Duke and Duchess, and Madame Palmer, were; and my wife, to her great content, had a full sight of them all the while. The play full of mirth. Hence to my father’s, and there staid to talk a while and so by foot home by moonshine.
In my way and at home, my wife making a sad story to me of her brother Balty’s condition, and would have me to do something for him, which I shall endeavour to do, but am afeard to meddle therein for fear I shall not be able to wipe my hands of him again, when I once concern myself for him. I went to bed, my wife all the while telling me his case with tears, which troubled me.

I leave her for my art
I am leaf-thin

but in the past saw a full
moon in her hands


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Tuesday 27 August 1661.

Knowing the Future

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
In our final year of high school, my friends and I
were studying at home for a test on the works

of the national hero, including the very last poem
he wrote before he was marched out of his cell and into

the field where he would be shot by firing squad at sunrise.
Between mouthfuls of chips and swigs of soda, we tried

to recite the poem in stumbling Spanish— Mi Ultimo Adios.
The story is that his sisters found it, soot-covered, in an alcohol

lamp. As we prepared to leave for school, my friends waved
their thanks and goodbye to my mother, busy at her sewing

machine. My Last Farewell, I intoned dramatically,
swinging the door open. My mother's head snapped up

and she shrieked, Don't say that, don't ever say that again,
as if I'd turned into a frightening angel of prophecy.

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Sam Pepys and me

This morning before I went out I made even with my maid Jane, who has this day been my maid three years, and is this day to go into the country to her mother. The poor girl cried, and I could hardly forbear weeping to think of her going, for though she be grown lazy and spoilt by Pall’s coming, yet I shall never have one to please us better in all things, and so harmless, while I live. So I paid her her wages and gave her 2s. 6d. over, and bade her adieu, with my mind full of trouble at her going.
Hence to my father, where he and I and Thomas together setting things even, and casting up my father’s accounts, and upon the whole I find that all he hath in money of his own due to him in the world is but 45l., and he owes about the same sum: so that I cannot but think in what a condition he had left my mother if he should have died before my uncle Robert. Hence to Tom Trice for the probate of the will and had it done to my mind, which did give my father and me good content.
From thence to my Lady at the Wardrobe and thence to the Theatre, and saw the “Antipodes,” wherein there is much mirth, but no great matter else. Hence with Mr. Bostock whom I met there (a clerk formerly of Mr. Phelps) to the Devil tavern, and there drank and so away. I to my uncle Fenner’s, where my father was with him at an alehouse, and so we three went by ourselves and sat talking a great while about a broker’s daughter that he do propose for a wife for Tom, with a great portion, but I fear it will not take, but he will do what he can. So we broke up, and going through the street we met with a mother and son, friends of my father’s man, Ned’s, who are angry at my father’s putting him away, which troubled me and my father, but all will be well as to that.
We have news this morning of my uncle Thomas and his son Thomas being gone into the country without giving notice thereof to anybody, which puts us to a stand, but I fear them not.
At night at home I found a letter from my Lord Sandwich, who is now very well again of his feaver, but not yet gone from Alicante, where he lay sick, and was twice let blood. This letter dated the 22nd July last, which puts me out of doubt of his being ill. In my coming home I called in at the Crane tavern at the Stocks by appointment, and there met and took leave of Mr. Fanshaw, who goes to-morrow and Captain Isham toward their voyage to Portugal. Here we drank a great deal of wine, I too much and Mr. Fanshaw till he could hardly go. So we took leave one of another.

who could think the world
should die of heat

the devil our broker
will do what he can

with a body in fever
becoming a war


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Monday 26 August 1661.

Bloodletting

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
This is a dream: I reach up a hand to the left 
side of my neck and feel a body burrowing there—

leech I extract with my fingers. Since it is a dream,
I don't recoil from the soft squishiness of this body

that wants something from me so badly, it clings
with its whole mouth.

This is not a dream:
I could give blood, but my liver harbors

a disease that has taken over my whole
network of distribution.

Back in the dream, I pull
but something is left behind, tenacious as desire.

I barely feel it, since I can't remember when it first
found me, and somehow found me hospitable.