Verklempt

Sam Pepys and me

Up betimes and to my office, and by and by, about 8 o’clock, to the Temple to Commissioner Pett lately come to town and discoursed about the affairs of our office, how ill they go through the corruption and folly of Sir W. Batten and Sir J. Minnes.
Thence by water to White Hall, to chappell; where preached Dr. Pierce, the famous man that preached the sermon so much cried up, before the King against the Papists.
His matter was the Devil tempting our Saviour, being carried into the Wilderness by the spirit. And he hath as much of natural eloquence as most men that ever I heard in my life, mixed with so much learning.
After sermon I went up and saw the ceremony of the Bishop of Peterborough’s paying homage upon the knee to the King, while Sir H. Bennet, Secretary, read the King’s grant of the Bishopric of Lincoln, to which he is translated. His name is Dr. Lany. Here I also saw the Duke of Monmouth, with his Order of the Garter, the first time I ever saw it.
I am told that the University of Cambridge did treat him a little while since with all the honour possible, with a comedy at Trinity College, and banquet; and made him Master of Arts there. All which, they say, the King took very well. Dr. Raynbow, Master of Magdalen, being now Vice-Chancellor.
Home by water to dinner, and with my father, wife, and Ashwell, after dinner, by water towards Woolwich, and in our way I bethought myself that we had left our poor little dog that followed us out of doors at the waterside, and God knows whether he be not lost, which did not only strike my wife into a great passion but I must confess myself also; more than was becoming me. We immediately returned, I taking another boat and with my father went to Woolwich, while they went back to find the dog.
I took my father on board the King’s pleasure boat and down to Woolwich, and walked to Greenwich thence and turning into the park to show my father the steps up the hill, we found my wife, her woman, and dog attending us, which made us all merry again, and so took boats, they to Deptford and so by land to Half-way house, I into the King’s yard and overlook them there, and eat and drank with them, and saw a company of seamen play drolly at our pence, and so home by water. I a little at the office, and so home to supper and to bed, after having Ashwell play my father and me a lesson upon her Tryangle.

how I cried
a devil in the wilderness
of my life

the first time I saw
a little lost dog turn
to look at me


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Wednesday 8 April 1663.

Dentation

Sam Pepys and me

Up very betimes, and angry with Will that he made no more haste to rise after I called him. So to my office, and all the morning there. At noon to the Exchange, and so home to dinner, where I found my wife had been with Ashwell to La Roche’s to have her tooth drawn, which it seems aches much, but my wife could not get her to be contented to have it drawn after the first twich, but would let it alone, and so they came home with it undone, which made my wife and me good sport.
After dinner to the office, where Sir J. Minnes did make a great complaint to me alone, how my clerk Mr. Hater had entered in one of the Sea books a ticket to have been signed by him before it had been examined, which makes the old fool mad almost, though there was upon enquiry the greatest reason in the world for it. Which though it vexes me, yet it is most to see from day to day what a coxcomb he is, and that so great a trust should lie in the hands of such a fool.
We sat all the afternoon, and I late at my office, it being post night, and so home to supper, my father being come again to my house, and after supper to bed, and after some talk to sleep.

an angry tooth aches
after the first twitch

one hate entered in a book
makes the old
mad at the world

yet day to day lie
in the hands of night
again to sleep


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Tuesday 7 April 1663.

On Not Repeating

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
Counting, like in the tales
where girls are given impossible
tasks to numb their fingers and hearts—
Separate grain from pebbles by nightfall,
sew seven shirts without speaking a word
for seven years. Silence itself, part
of the spell: a clause in a contract
you don't even remember having signed
in blood or ink. Only in those stories
are there helpers: talking mice,
birds, ants, meaning belief
in the kindness of nature which
somehow bends toward you because
it intuits an injustice. But I want
to know how the curse can be broken,
how the loop of bad luck can be severed
once and for all, not just reversed.
I want to drop this needle and
burn this loom, see my loves
emerge out of the forest or
soften from stone back into flesh.
Let whatever I may have mislaid
be suddenly found in the corner
of a coat pocket, the toe of a shoe.

I Did Not Buy Flowers Today

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
Feeling slightly out of alignment with
the world, I stop at the grocery store
looking for something to nudge me back
onto the road of purpose I drive each
day— home to work, work to home. I think
of getting flowers, but would that be
admitting something I can't say aloud?
In there, the sunflowers are smaller
than I remember: heads disheveled
under LED lights, faces turned nowhere
in particular. Have they, too, forgotten
how to follow the sun? There's not one
particular cause for blame— not the hike
in oil prices nor the increasingly infertile
soil from climate change, not the store
and the unpredictability of supply and demand.
Once, the hills of my childhood were dotted
with the same yellow blooms. Their brightness
reflected a light I never questioned, as if
it would always be there, forgiving me
everything before I even thought to say
what for. I try to think of that light again
here, and in the end I leave the flowers
with their price tags exactly where they are.
I walk back into my day, hands empty
of everything but this honesty.

Poetry Blog Digest 2026, Week 14

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Dilettante

Sam Pepys and me

Up very betimes and to my office, and there made an end of reading my book that I have of Mr. Barlow’s of the Journal of the Commissioners of the Navy, who begun to act in the year 1628 and continued six years, wherein is fine observations and precedents out of which I do purpose to make a good collection.
By and by, much against my will, being twice sent for, to Sir G. Carteret’s to pass his accounts there, upon which Sir J. Minnes, Sir W. Batten, Sir W. Pen, and myself all the morning, and again after dinner to it, being vexed at my heart to see a thing of that importance done so slightly and with that neglect for which God pardon us, and I would I could mend it. Thence leaving them I made an excuse and away home, and took my wife by coach and left her at Madam Clerk’s, to make a visit there, and I to the Committee of Tangier, where I found, to my great joy, my Lord Sandwich, the first time I have seen him abroad these some months, and by and by he rose and took leave, being, it seems, this night to go to Kensington or Chelsey, where he hath taken a lodging for a while to take the ayre.
We staid, and after business done I got Mr. Coventry into the Matted Gallery and told him my whole mind concerning matters of our office, all my discontent to see things of so great trust carried so neglectfully, and what pitiful service the Controller and Surveyor make of their duties, and I disburdened my mind wholly to him and he to me his own, many things, telling me that he is much discouraged by seeing things not to grow better and better as he did well hope they would have done. Upon the whole, after a full hour’s private discourse, telling one another our minds, we with great content parted, and with very great satisfaction for my thus cleared my conscience, went to Dr. Clerk’s and thence fetched my wife, and by coach home. To my office a little to set things in order, and so home to supper and to bed.

reading my book
in the morning light

where I take the air
and rust

my mind is a hole
full of little things


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Monday 6 April 1663.

Mired

Sam Pepys and me

(Lord’s day). Up and spent the morning, till the Barber came, in reading in my chamber part of Osborne’s Advice to his Son (which I shall not never enough admire for sense and language), and being by and by trimmed, to Church, myself, wife, Ashwell, &c. Home to dinner, it raining, while that was prepared to my office to read over my vows with great affection and to very good purpose. So to dinner, and very well pleased with it.
Then to church again, where a simple bawling young Scot preached.
So home to my office alone till dark, reading some papers of my old navy precedents, and so home to supper, and, after some pleasant talk, my wife, Ashwell, and I to bed.

Lord’s day in the mire
by myself

a simple bawling ache
of dark precedents


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Sunday 5 April 1663.

Plans and conditions,

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
wills and directives— if this,  

then that. If we're lucky, or
not. Who benefits from certain

actions? Who gains from my love
of bathing in sunlight, loses

from my habit of pulling up weeds
with bare hands? I know the cost

of not putting things in order.
I also know also how impossible

it is to itemize assets vs. debts,
time spent vs. time held against

future use. Finally, I'm learning
to sort the mail as soon as it

comes, to believe in dreams
as dreams instead of prophecy—

one springs from the mind
of what can be, and the other

from the mind of what seems
to know what can't be known.

Consumer report

Sam Pepys and me

Up betimes and to my office. By and by to Lombard street by appointment to meet Mr. Moore, but the business not being ready I returned to the office, where we sat a while, and, being sent for, I returned to him and there signed to some papers in the conveying of some lands mortgaged by Sir Rob. Parkhurst in my name to my Lord Sandwich, which I having done I returned home to dinner.
Whither by and by comes Roger Pepys, Mrs. Turner her daughter, Joyce Norton, and a young lady, a daughter of Coll. Cockes, my uncle Wight, his wife and Mrs. Anne Wight. This being my feast, in lieu of what I should have had a few days ago for my cutting of the stone, for which the Lord make me truly thankful.
Very merry at, before, and after dinner, and the more for that my dinner was great, and most neatly dressed by our own only maid. We had a fricasee of rabbits and chickens, a leg of mutton boiled, three carps in a dish, a great dish of a side of lamb, a dish of roasted pigeons, a dish of four lobsters, three tarts, a lamprey pie (a most rare pie), a dish of anchovies, good wine of several sorts, and all things mighty noble and to my great content.
After dinner to Hide Park; my aunt, Mrs. Wight and I in one coach, and all the rest of the women in Mrs. Turner’s; Roger being gone in haste to the Parliament about the carrying this business of the Papists, in which it seems there is great contest on both sides, and my uncle and father staying together behind. At the Park was the King, and in another coach my Lady Castlemaine, they greeting one another at every tour. Here about an hour, and so leaving all by the way we home and found the house as clean as if nothing had been done there to-day from top to bottom, which made us give the cook 12d. a piece, each of us.
So to my office about writing letters by the post, one to my brother John at Brampton telling him (hoping to work a good effect by it upon my mother) how melancholy my father is, and bidding him use all means to get my mother to live peaceably and quietly, which I am sure she neither do nor I fear can ever do, but frightening her with his coming down no more, and the danger of her condition if he should die I trust may do good.
So home and to bed.

a sandwich for dinner
in a car park

there is a test every day
on how to live

a quiet which neither ear
can ever own


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Saturday 4 April 1663.

Still

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
We go back to the doctor whose name
means either target or stain. Back to
the room with crinkly paper on the exam
table, posters on the walls illustrating
roads connecting the nose to the throat
and the ear. We are here for results,
which means consequence or outcome,
or the score after a test. The doctor
says a few new spots, as if he might
be talking about cafés in town
or tickets to a sold-out concert.
Small, he says like an afterthought;
just something to watch. But already
the muscle that anticipates grief
has awakened again in me. We walk
to the parking garage. Magnolias
are pinking their branches. Cars honk.
A guy walks across the street, eyes glued
to a phone in his hands, oblivious. Almost
evening but the light is still impossibly
bright, so we decide to stop for ice
cream. When we lie down at night, I listen
to your breathing, tell myself the future
isn't arriving yet, or all at once.