Brain fog

Sam Pepys and me

All the morning sitting at the office, and then to dinner with my wife, and so to the office again (where a good while Mr. Bland was with me, telling me very fine things in merchandize, which, but that the trouble of my office do so cruelly hinder me, I would take some pains in) till late at night. Towards the evening I, as I have done for three or four nights, studying something of Arithmetique, which do please me well to see myself come forward. So home, to supper, and to bed.

all morning sitting with
the bland merchandise of night

I study arithmetic
to see myself


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Tuesday 11 November 1662.

In a Tropical Country, Refrigeration is Key

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
"...on Nov. 5 ... doctors in the Philippines 
have documented the case of a woman
whose armpits leak milk." (Reddit)




In 1847, Russell & Sturgis acquired tax-free
rights to carry 250 tons of ice on the frigate
Hizaine to Manila, variously called the Pearl
of the Orient or the Rome of the East, or
more recently the armpit of the world for its
urban blight and overpopulation. In the 1800s,
blocks of ice were harvested from creeks and lakes
in deep winter, then covered with sawdust or hay
for insulation in ice houses. The great Banquet
of Malolos celebrating Philippine independence
in 1898 flaunted a European-inspired menu,
as if to show the world the newly formed
nation was as civilized as others in the West.
Seven appetizers, seven courses and four desserts—
oysters, shrimp, stuffed crab and buttered radishes;
cold ham with asparagus, cheeses, jams, leche flan
del mar and mantecado— ice cream! The milk was likely
coconut or carabao milk, and of course it needed
to be kept cold. Any milk, including breast milk,
spoils when overexposed to heat. Bacteria convert
lactose into acids. Fermentaton thickens into
a moist and foamy surface spackled with curds.

Poetry Blog Digest 2025, Week 45

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Postindustrial

Sam Pepys and me

Up betimes and to set my workmen to work, and then a little to the office, and so with Sir J. Minnes, Sir W. Batten, and myself by coach to White Hall, to the Duke, who, after he was ready, did take us into his closett. Thither come my Lord General Monk, and did privately talk with the Duke about having the life-guards pass through the City today only for show and to fright people, for I perceive there are great fears abroad; for all which I am troubled and full of doubt that things will not go well. He being gone, we fell to business of the Navy. Among other things, how to pay off this fleet that is now come from Portugall; the King of Portugall sending them home, he having no more use for them, which we wonder at, that his condition should be so soon altered. And our landmen also are coming back, being almost starved in that poor country.
Having done here I went by my Lord Sandwich’s, who was not at home, and so to Westminster Hall, where full of term, and here met with many about business, among others my cozen Roger Pepys, who is all for a composition with my uncle Thomas, which upon any fair terms I am for also and desire it.
Thence by water, and so by land to my Lord Crew’s, and dined with him and his brother, I know not his name; where very good discourse; among others, of France’s intention to make a patriarch of his own, independent from the Pope, by which he will be able to cope with the Spaniard in all councils, which hitherto he has never done. My Lord Crew told us how he heard my Lord of Holland say that, being Embassador about the match with the Queene-Mother that now is, the King of France insisted upon a dispensation from the Pope, which my Lord Holland making a question of, and that he was commanded to yield to nothing to the prejudice of our religion, says the King of France, “You need not fear that, for if the Pope will not dispense with the match, my Bishopp of Paris shall.”
By and by come in great Mr. Swinfen, the Parliament-man, who, among other discourse of the rise and fall of familys, told us of Bishopp Bridgeman (brother of Sir Orlando) who lately hath bought a seat anciently of the Levers, and then the Ashtons; and so he hath in his great hall window (having repaired and beautified the house) caused four great places to be left for coates of armes. In one, he hath put the Levers, with this motto, “Olim.” In another the Ashtons, with this, “Heri.” In the next his own, with this, “Hodie.” In the fourth nothing but this motto, “Cras nescio cujus.”
Thence towards my brother’s; met with Jack Cole in Fleet Street, and he and I went into his cozen Mary Cole’s (whom I never saw since she was married), and drank a pint of wine and much good discourse. I found him a little conceited, but he had good things in him, and a man may know the temper of the City by him, he being of a general conversation, and can tell how matters go; and upon that score I will encourage his acquaintance.
Thence to my brother’s, and taking my wife up, carried her to Charing Cross, and there showed her the Italian motion, much after the nature of what I showed her a while since in Covent Garden. Their puppets here are somewhat better, but their motions not at all. Thence by coach to my Lady’s, and, hiding my wife with Sarah below, I went up and heard some musique with my Lord, and afterwards discoursed with him alone, and so good night to him and below, having sent for Mr. Creed, had thought to have shown my wife a play before the King, but it is so late that we could not, and so we took coach, and taking up Sarah at my brother’s with their night geare we went home, and I to my office to settle matters, and so home and to bed.
This morning in the Duke’s chamber Sir J. Minnes did break to me his desire about my chamber, which I did put off to another time to discourse of, he speaking to me very kindly to make me the less trouble myself, hoping to save myself and to contrive something or other to pleasure him as well, though I know not well what.
The town, I hear, is full of discontents, and all know of the King’s new bastard by Mrs. Haslerigge, and as far as I can hear will never be contented with Episcopacy, they are so cruelly set for Presbytery, and the Bishopps carry themselves so high, that they are never likely to gain anything upon them.

times pass
only for show
in this wonder-starved country

never making a thing
among levers and puppets

their war on thought
their hoping to save themselves


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Monday 10 November 1662.

Illusions of Cause

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
Spray-painted white, a tangle of driftwood hangs from 
the ceiling.

It moves when a breeze comes through the door.

Underneath, a table with pitchers of water, glasses, napkins.

Tinkle of wind-chimes in the neighbor's garden.

Foghorns cutting through the blinds.

How many people are out in a storm tonight, as waves
crest barriers and flood waters rage down boulevards?

Images flicker on my screen.

I remember a bus ride through towns in the aftermath of
volcanic eruption— courtyards half-buried in lahar,
the statues of saints spackled with mud.

Centuries after Pompeii was buried in ash, the shapes
of corpses lying side by side came to light.

Scientists determined they were a man and a child.
They had no relation to each other.

Test of faith

Sam Pepys and me

(Lord’s day). Lay alone a good while, my mind busy about pleading to-morrow to the Duke if there shall be occasion for this chamber that I lie in against Sir J., Minnes. Then up, and after being ready walked to my brother’s, where my wife is, calling at many churches, and then to the Temple, hearing a bit there too, and observing that in the streets and churches the Sunday is kept in appearance as well as I have known it at any time. Then to dinner to my brother’s, only he and my wife, and after dinner to see Mr. Moore, who is pretty well, and he and I to St. Gregory’s, where I escaped a great fall down the staires of the gallery: so into a pew there and heard Dr. Ball make a very good sermon, though short of what I expected, as for the most part it do fall out. So home with Mr. Moore to his chamber, and after a little talk I walked home to my house and staid at Sir W. Batten’s. Till late at night with him and Sir J. Minnes, with whom we did abundance of most excellent discourse of former passages of sea commanders and officers of the navy, and so home and to bed, with my mind well at ease but only as to my chamber, which I fear to lose.

tomorrow is a lie in my church
serving the sun I have
no time to rot

only after dinner
I fall down the stairs
a short little dance with my fear


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Sunday 9 November 1662.

The Gift

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
I had a couple of intricately beaded necklaces.
One of them was a gift, years ago, from my eldest child.
When I looked at what I had in the drawer, I couldn't remember
which one was bought by me, and which was a gift from another.

I gave one to the giver, who felt hurt I didn't remember,
more than that I was returning the gift. The mind's like that:
forgets the details, though archives are kept by the heart.
It's only one of many faults for which I must atone.

One was a gift, years ago, from my eldest child.
Giving something back, the hurt is that I didn't remember.
One was bought by me, one was a gift from the other.
That the gift was returned, her mind found unfathomable.

I mailed it back to her, and she was hurt I didn't remember. I might
have forgotten details, but isn't what the heart keeps what matters?
I returned the gift, but not out of spite. My mind isn't that kind of stupid.
And yet it's only one of many things for which I must atone.

I may have returned the gift, but I know it wasn't out of spite.
When I looked at what I had in my drawer, I only saw too much.
Perhaps it's only one of many faults for which I must atone.
Once, I ran my hands over two intricately beaded necklaces.

Grief Ripples

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
Grief can ripple, expanding outward in concentric circles.
After my father-in-law died, my mother-in-law said she was ready.
My mother thought the same thing after my father passed away.
She started wearing his favorite shirts when she went out.

After my father-in-law died, my mother-in-law said she was ready.
Remembering this makes me want to do an inventory of my closets.
My mother would wear his favorite shirts when she went out.
My mother-in-law passed less than 5 years after her husband did.

Sometimes when I look in my closets, this is what I remember.
My mother died 43 years after my father breathed his last.
My mother-in-law died less than 5 years after her husband passed.
Mother's ashes are in an urn, in a columbarium called Heaven's Gate.

Mother died 43 years after my father left this world.
After my father passed away, she said her time was probably soon.
Her ashes are in an urn, in a columbarium called Heaven's Gate.
Grief is ripplng outward still, moving in concentric circles.

Double take

Sam Pepys and me

All the morning sitting at the office, and after that dined alone at home, and so to the office again till 9 o’clock, being loth to go home, the house is so dirty, and my wife at my brother’s. So home and to bed.

sitting alone in the dirt another me


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Saturday 8 November 1662.

Landfall

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
Bands wider than the breadth of a country, eye
of a terrible angel thrown from heaven.

It wheels with pure intention as a torch
fanned into flame.

Landfall, they write of vessels catching
sight of a shore; or a rocky berth after months
of drifting through space.

What falls is water and not earth, though earth
in all its forms roils in its passage.