Sleepless

(Lord’s day). Lay with great content talking with my wife in bed, and so up and to church and then home, and had a neat dinner by ourselves, and after dinner walked to White Hall and my Lord’s, and up and down till chappell time, and then to the King’s chappell, where I heard the service, and so to my Lord’s, and there Mr. Howe and Pagett, the counsellor, an old lover of musique. We sang some Psalms of Mr. Lawes, and played some symphonys between till night, that I was sent for to Mr. Creed’s lodging, and there was Captain Ferrers and his lady and W. Howe and I; we supped very well and good sport in discourse. After supper I was sent for to my Lord, with whom I staid talking about his, and my owne, and the publique affairs, with great content, he advising me as to my owne choosing of Sir R. Bernard for umpire in the businesses between my uncle and us, that I would not trust to him upon his direction, for he did not think him a man to be trusted at all; and so bid him good night, and to Mr. Creed’s again; Mr. Moore, with whom I intended to have lain, lying physically without sheets; and there, after some discourse, to bed, and lay ill, though the bed good, my stomach being sicke all night with my too heavy supper.

I hear music in the night
lying without sheets
my stomach sick


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Sunday 14 December 1662.

Decorum

To eat from a platter of whole fish, head intact,
we are told never to flip it over.

Instead, after loosing all flesh
from one side, take hold of the tail

and lift the exposed undergirding of bones,
then snap it clean at the base of the head.

Fortune supposedly smiles at the one who can work
with industry and restraint to dissect

the layers of a gift, who honors all things that once
suspended, fragile as a leaf on the crest of a wave.

Book of Life

Slept long to-day till Sir J. Minnes and Sir W. Batten were set out towards Portsmouth before I rose, and Sir G. Carteret came to the office to speak with me before I was up. So I started up and down to him. By and by we sat, Mr. Coventry and I (Sir G. Carteret being gone), and among other things, Field and Stint did come, and received the 41l. given him by the judgement against me and Harry Kem; and we did also sign bonds in 500l. to stand to the award of Mr. Porter and Smith for the rest: which, however, I did not sign to till I got Mr. Coventry to go up with me to Sir W. Pen; and he did promise me before him to bear his share in what should be awarded, and both concluded that Sir W. Batten would do no less. At noon broke up and dined with my wife, and then to the office again, and there made an end of last night’s examination, and got my study there made very clean and put in order, and then to write by the post, among other letters one to Sir W. Batten about this day’s work with Field, desiring his promise also. The letter I have caused to be entered in our public book of letters. So home to supper and to bed.

a mouth of judgement against me
an oven to bear

broke by the day’s work
I enter our book
of a bed


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Saturday 13 December 1662.

Spillage

From a very hard frost, when I wake, I find a very great thaw, and my house overflown with it, which vexed me.
At the office and home, doing business all the morning. Then dined with my wife and sat talking with her all the afternoon, and then to the office, and there examining my copy of Mr. Holland’s book till 10 at night, and so home to supper and bed.

from my house
overflow of talk
the land at night


Erasure haiku derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Friday 12 December 1662.

Mare Dolor

“Everywhere is heart-rending wail,
everywhere consternation, and death
in a thousand shapes…” ~ Virgil

Lay back down in the earth
next to the stones and roots—

A wind has blown open all
the doors of the house.

Cabinet doors have come
unhinged; ripped floorboards

have upended the furniture.
No one can speak directly

of what happened here.
But we cannot set a table

straight again. It hurts
to lie in the grass,

the night with its thousand
perforations engulfing you.

 

In response to Via Negativa: Taking the Field.

Materialist

Up, it being a great frost upon the snow, and we sat all the morning upon Mr. Creed’s accounts, wherein I did him some service and some disservice. At noon he dined with me, and we sat all the afternoon together, discoursing of ways to get money, which I am now giving myself wholly up to, and in the evening he went away and I to my office, concluding all matters concerning our great letter so long in doing to my Lord Treasurer, till almost one in the morning, and then home with my mind much eased, and so to bed.

I eat snow and count
all the ways to get money

I am giving myself
wholly up to matter


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Thursday 11 December 1662.

It might help to know what the puppet-master drinks

“The mind going/ over and over things, not knowing what to do/ with the world…” ~ Rick Barot

Is it possible to know before something happens?
Subterranean current, small worm of insight, the hair
rising along the arm in anticipation of a wound.

What constitutes portent? The pink heart
of a rubber eraser carries the smell
of burning asphalt. Peeled

hard-boiled eggs, or the emanations
of a volcano? The mirror refuses
to divulge the hour

of your death. It is clarity sought
after all when you give the fortune teller
what she wants, but keep paying in installments

every time you dream of teeth, every time
you buy a new umbrella though there are
more than a dozen hanging on the railing.

Late bloomer

This morning rose, receiving a messenger from Sir G. Carteret and a letter from Mr. Coventry, one contrary to another, about our letter to my Lord Treasurer, at which I am troubled, but I went to Sir George, and being desirous to please both, I think I have found out a way to do it. So back to the office with Sir J. Minnes, in his coach, but so great a snow that we could hardly pass the streets. So we and Sir W. Batten to the office, and there did discourse of Mr. Creed’s accounts, and I fear it will be a good while before we shall go through them, and many things we meet with, all of difficulty. Then to the Dolphin, where Sir J. Minnes, Sir W. Batten, and I, did treat the Auditors of the Exchequer, Auditors Wood and Beale, and hither come Sir G. Carteret to us. We had a good dinner, cost us 5l. and 6s., whereof my share 26s., and after dinner did discourse of our salarys and other matters, which I think now they will allow.
Thence home, and there I found our new cook-mayde Susan come, who is recommended to us by my wife’s brother, for which I like her never the better, but being a good well-looked lass, I am willing to try, and Jane begins to take upon her as a chamber-mayde. So to the office, where late putting papers and my books and businesses in order, it being very cold, and so home to supper.

this rose in the snow
I fear it will be a while
before we meet


Erasure haiku derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Wednesday 10 December 1662.

Penultimate

The last thing in your mouth:
a spoonful of scrambled egg.

Before that, the speckled loaf
of store-bought bread floated away

out the window, never
to be seen again. We fed

torn newspapers to a stove
of tin so sparks could make

little accords
with the rain-brushed night.

We did not get to say a proper
goodbye. We could have spun

a record and used that last
little loop of time.

Parables instruct; refusal
is more truthful.

Caregiver

Lay long with my wife, contenting her about the business of Gosnell’s going, and I perceive she will be contented as well as myself, and so to the office, and after sitting all the morning in hopes to have Mr. Coventry dine with me, he was forced to go to White Hall, and so I dined with my own company only, taking Mr. Hater home with me, but he, poor man, was not very well, and so could not eat any thing. After dinner staid within all the afternoon, being vexed in my mind about the going away of Sarah this afternoon, who cried mightily, and so was I ready to do, and Jane did also, and then anon went Gosnell away, which did trouble me too; though upon many considerations, it is better that I am rid of the charge. All together makes my house appear to me very lonely, which troubles me much, and in a melancholy humour I went to the office, and there about business sat till I was called to Sir G. Carteret at the Treasury office about my Lord Treasurer’s letter, wherein he puts me to a new trouble to write it over again. So home and late with Sir John Minnes at the office looking over Mr. Creed’s accounts, and then home and to supper, and my wife and I melancholy to bed.

her mind going is no trouble to her
which troubles me

and puts me to looking
over accounts


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Tuesday 9 December 1662.