You're always talking about how the past
is not the past and instead fully here, as long
as one keeps remembering the moment
of tragedy
or rupture— your father
slipping into a coma then dying a week later;
the last time your child spoke to you
before turning
away in anger. You imagine
something like Escher's famous lithograph
set in a world that apparently has
at least
two sources of gravity.
Seven sets of stairs lead up and down
inside a spacious house with arched
doorways and cool
tiles, windows
overlooking well tended gardens or
a park. The picture is called Relativity,
which brings
to mind the laws of physics
making up the space-time continuum:
events occurring at one time for one
observer could be
perceived by another
as taking place at a different time.
Thus, some figures going about their day
in the print
seem to be upside down
as they climb, while others descend
the same steps but on the other side.
Should they
happen to pass
or catch a glimpse of each other,
you wonder if there'd be a flicker
of recognition.
You wonder if they ever
really go anywhere, or if one of them
has ever thought to slide down
(up?) a bannister.
How long have they
held to the same orbits, speeding up or
slowing down depending on how acutely
an old
hurt or memory presses its fingers,
dimpling the foccacia dough? Perhaps
they've traced the same donut loop around
and around
so many times, they've forgotten
where they met themselves. All they know
is they must be going somewhere called
either tomorrow or the future.