~ after Mercedes López
I've come to love the milky taste
of tea with no actual milk in it,
and the tang of salt in the air on dry days
in the mountains. What are the scaffolds
on which we build if not the ghosts
of magnificent cities, whose blueprints
sycophants and tyrants tried but failed
to obliterate? Here is a lattice studded
with diamond points of light, an oceanic
generation of forests. I want to see
not monuments but grids conducting
the hum of a different electricity, lanes
and highways overlaid with cool moisture;
every pewter cell of night cast open.
Student
With Sir G. Carteret and both the Sir Williams at Whitehall to wait on the Duke in his chamber, which we did about getting money for the Navy and other things. So back again to the office all the morning. Thence to the Exchange to hire a ship for the Maderas, but could get none. Then home to dinner, and Sir G. Carteret and I all the afternoon by ourselves upon business in the office till late at night. So to write letters and home to bed. Troubled at my maid’s being ill.
art to hang
ash for dinner
tea to write letters
home to trouble
Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Saturday 15 March 1661/62.
Optimistic
At the office all the morning. At noon Sir W. Pen and I making a bargain with the workmen about his house, at which I did see things not so well contracted for as I would have, and I was vexed and made him so too to see me so critical in the agreement. Home to dinner. In the afternoon came the German Dr. Kuffler, to discourse with us about his engine to blow up ships. We doubted not the matter of fact, it being tried in Cromwell’s time, but the safety of carrying them in ships; but he do tell us, that when he comes to tell the King his secret (for none but the Kings, successively, and their heirs must know it), it will appear to be of no danger at all.
We concluded nothing; but shall discourse with the Duke of York to-morrow about it.
In the afternoon, after we had done with him, I went to speak with my uncle Wight and found my aunt to have been ill a good while of a miscarriage, I staid and talked with her a good while.
Thence home, where I found that Sarah the maid had been very ill all day, and my wife fears that she will have an ague, which I am much troubled for.
Thence to my lute, upon which I have not played a week or two, and trying over the two songs of “Nulla, nulla,” &c., and “Gaze not on Swans,” which Mr. Berkenshaw set for me a little while ago, I find them most incomparable songs as he has set them, of which I am not a little proud, because I am sure none in the world has them but myself, not so much as he himself that set them. So to bed.
the pen and I
making things up
we doubt the time
that comes in secret
for a miscarriage
or the song of a swan
Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Friday 14 March 1661/62.
Elegy for the Human, with Extradition Standoff
Human: mid-15c., humain, humaigne, "human," from
Old French humain, umain (adj.) "of or belonging
to man" (12c.), from Latin humanus "of man, human,"
also "humane, philanthropic, kind, gentle, polite;
... in part from PIE *(dh)ghomon-, literally
"earthling, earthly being," as opposed to
the gods (from root *dhghem- "earth")
- etymonline.com
Given a choice to do the right
thing, what is it that people do?
At Villamor air base before the former
president is flown to face the music
at the international criminal court, his wife
and daughter scream "Humane, humane,"
stalling for time. He's an octogenarian
now; his health is poor, he's waiting for
his children, because because because—
Police close ranks and bodies form a shield
but not a weapon clicks in place. His rights
are read to him, unlike the thousands
he ordered shot because "Human rights,
son of a bitch." A milky fog, a kind of gauze
bandage, drapes over this ordinary day. A dog
limps down the alley. A partly disemboweled
squirrel's plastered on the road, syrupy
rot beneath the traffic stop.
Morsel
All day, either at the office or at home, busy about business till late at night, I having lately followed my business much, I find great pleasure in it, and a growing content.
a rat out at night
I eat a wing
Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Thursday 13 March 1661/62.
Psalm Ending with a Howl
open the knives
of my heart to rust
blooming like a sunset
the earth’s stillborn twin
glows with purloined light
dimming the stars
and the midnight creek
has one or two things to say
it shimmers as it should
a freight train
labors up the valley
wailing at every crossroads
I feel a howl
uncurling like a leaf
from its shrink-wrapped fist
almost full will do
for an almost fool
to raise his coyote muzzle
Poem with Extradition, Ace of Swords, and Five of Coins
Fortune can be a fickle lover,
can be a beggar standing outside
the gate in blood-stained rags,
waiting to turn the tables on you.
It can be a miser who keeps an eye,
two feet, two hands on his hoard
of coins because he thinks the world
is only out to impoverish him. The sun
shines on his back and on the bustling
city, but he won't be allowed to buy a stick
of cotton candy on the beach or a golden
bullet for the gun in his secret pocket.
Fortune this week is the despot shuffled
off a plane and into a cell, there to await
trial; while in the hallway, his wife
pleads for mercy. Fortune pulls a sword
out of a gleaming cloud as if to smite
the mountains and part the sea and all
else in its path. Every blade has two edges,
every sky a moon and sun. Fortune slaps
one cheek then asks you to turn the other—
a game it never seems to tire of. Fortune says
this is one way to rid yourself of illusion,
and prepare for the breakthrough just ahead.
Beachhead
putting my phone away
the plushness of the moss
at its greenest now
at the end of a hard winter
a butterfly dances past
like a lost carnival float
the naked trees sway
gray and weather-eaten
i find a habitable hush
in the shade of a pine
though from time to time
a moan interjects
the sound of friction
with a too-close neighbor
a wild lettuce seed drifts
on a pompon of down
up over the mountain
and out across the valley
where every raw patch
of plowed or scoured earth
calls to the migrant killdeer
as an unclaimed shore
Portrait, with Train Wreck and Cartoon Suspension
The trains of Norfolk Southern rumble
past the new cafe. It's the same line
that carried vinyl chloride in 2023,
when something overheated and 38 cars
derailed on the edge of East Palestine,
Ohio. Think of the rain that must have
hissed and crackled in the aftermath.
Of dark plumes rising into the earth's
free troposphere, as families packed
their children and pets into cars
and drove away. A couple of years after
cleanup, some people have returned
but some have stayed away. I don't
blame them. How does anyone know
the earth has no more toxins,
if air and water particles are
no longer sheathed in emissions?
When even one coupler misaligns
and a railcar wheel slips the track,
your mind runs away with it— You won't
even have time to blow kisses or wave
goodbye, in the brief moment of cartoon
suspension after you're run off a cliff.
Orderly
At the office from morning till night putting of papers in order, that so I may have my office in an orderly condition. I took much pains in sorting and folding of papers. Dined at home, and there came Mrs. Goldsborough about her old business, but I did give her a short answer and sent away.
This morning we had news from Mr. Coventry, that Sir G. Downing (like a perfidious rogue, though the action is good and of service to the King, yet he cannot with any good conscience do it) hath taken Okey, Corbet, and Barkestead at Delfe, in Holland, and sent them home in the Blackmore.
Sir W. Pen, talking to me this afternoon of what a strange thing it is for Downing to do this, he told me of a speech he made to the Lords States of Holland, telling them to their faces that he observed that he was not received with the respect and observance now, that he was when he came from the traitor and rebell Cromwell: by whom, I am sure, he hath got all he hath in the world, — and they know it too.
in order that I may
have order I sort
and fold old news
like a king with a black pen
for a speech
made by the world
Erasure haiku derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Wednesday 12 March 1661/62.