After the earthquake, we fixed
then sold the damaged house in order to pay
off the housing loan. It had been built
on a strip of land right next to my father's—
next to the home of my girlhood to which I returned
with my children after we lost everything.
Every time I walked down the road toward our gate,
I could see through the front window the awful dark
stain the new owners had put on walls that used to be
warm, honeyed wood. I cried over the loss
of the. west-facing view from the second floor,
the dark-leaved avocado tree in the back.
We'd pushed our beds under the low eaves
so we could paddle more quickly into dreams:
one night, held in such deep sleep beneath a curtain
of rain, we were spared the sounds of burglars
jimmying a kitchen window open, then running away
with a toaster and a boombox they didn't know
was broken. Someone is always saying you don't realize
what you miss until it's lost or taken— the way you
might look at a telephone and imagine the shadow of a cord
coiling away from the receiver; the shape of a bell
that used to swing at the end of a rope and that someone
climbed a tower every morning in order to ring.