Black tie, no shorts or T's, no flip-flops. My husband
reminds me it also means a set of rules enabling
computers to communicate with each other, despite
differences in their processors or design—
I imagine rows of computers humming and
chattering in a darkened writing lab, then falling
silent when someone comes in and turns on the lights.
Sometimes protocol can seem like the scar that's there
as reminder of some kind of trauma—how in many
Asian families, including our own, the pantry is never
organized just for neatness or regularity in shape,
size, and gradation of containers. The 25-lb. bag of rice
will only fit in one corner of the guest room. Nothing
is either just too much, or too little. Nothing is out
of place or thrown away. There are little tins of sardines
in tomato sauce stacked next to a bag filled with every
soy sauce packet from every takeout meal we've ordered
since the pandemic, next to 3 large containers of Norton
salt, with the spout. A sniff test usually convinces
we can eat packaged food items a little past their sell-by
or expiry dates. How many times have we heard
uncles' and grandparents' stories of eating only a palm-
ful of rice flavored with salt for months during the war?
A chapter title in a book—Readers Like Pleasure
but They Adore Pain—makes me stop and wonder
if this is true, and how. A woman sizzled a wet rag
in a hot pan just so neighbors passing her kitchen window
would hear the sound and not think they had nothing to eat.