How do you give your pure
attention to anything in the world
with the same amount of intensity
each time, the same amount of care—
even when there isn't some looming
deadline or threat of expiration?
In the case of a heart transplant,
this can literally mean anywhere from
a half- to two-hour window (extended
by at least five minutes to make
perfectly sure the donor has experienced
a true cardiac death and won't suddenly
seize up on the table). A transplant
team will fly the donated organ, packed
with static cold solution, to the waiting
recipient. This is the moment in crime
shows when the helicopter has barely
touched down on the landing pad,
but all the medics are sprinting as if
in a relay race, passing the cooler
marked with a big red cross to the next
hand down the line. But back to attention,
which in itself is really another
expression of love— There are those
who clearly are uncomfortable using
such terms, perhaps for fear of being
thought weak or uncool. Why else
would they piss on the grave of a child
who was among those killed in a school
shooting just days before Christmas;
why else choose to believe these deaths
were a hoax? In the classics, tragedy is defined
as reversal of fortune: a colossal failure
or fall from grace that happens to a noble hero,
who has much to lose in the first place
and whose "only" flaw is his hubris or over-
weening pride. Does this mean
only the privileged somehow have the right
to suffer and then be redeemed? A man
trying to run away from his fate winds up
killing his father, basically in an incident
of road rage. Only near the end does he realize
who it is and the terrible thing he's done—
He takes the brooch of the woman he wed
(she is really his mother), then gouges out
his eyes. And now we have poetic justice.
Who knows if their fates could have been averted
had they all paid a little more attention to each other
and to the world? A wise man walked among them,
giving prophecies no one heeded because he
was blind and had lived as a woman for seven
years. Neither then nor now is there any way to do
whole eye transplants, though it's possible
to get a new cornea: the clear front part of the eye
which helps focus the light so that you can see.