Adarna

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
When the story begins, everything 
          languishes—

Crops wither; the falconets are stunned,
         felted tufts on dry branches. The hornbill 

forgets to mark the moist
        forest hours with its call. In the story,

a king also languishes in bed, under
        canopies of moldy velvet. 
        
Someone must bring back the song
       of an enchanted bird, escaping a fate of

stone. Someone must smart from the kind
       of wound that keeps one awake to possibility 

despite recurring dreams of death—
        from which there is, of course, no cure.

Ritual of Mourning

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
This entry is part 2 of 11 in the series Rituals

it’s time to lay out cutlery
a dish of rock salt
a bowl of sleep

at each place setting for those
who are no longer with us
but on their phones

break bread with silence
the nothing you feel is
the nothing you deserve

a zest of lemon on
a faceless slab of cod
will never be the opiate of the masses

put away the candles
borrow light from a streetlamp
or a jar of moonshine

straighten your spine
it’s time to begin dreaming
your next life

Past perfect

Sam Pepys and me

(Lord’s day). Before I rose, letters come to me from Portsmouth, telling me that the Princess is now well, and my Lord Sandwich set sail with the Queen and her yesterday from thence for France. To church, leaving my wife sick of her menses at home, a poor dull sermon of a stranger. Home, and at dinner was very angry at my people’s eating a fine pudding (made me by Slater, the cook, last Thursday) without my wife’s leave. To church again, a good sermon of Mr. Mills, and after sermon Sir W. Pen and I an hour in the garden talking, and he did answer me to many things, I asked Mr. Coventry’s opinion of me, and Sir W. Batten’s of my Lord Sandwich, which do both please me. Then to Sir W. Batten’s, where very merry, and here I met the Comptroller and his lady and daughter (the first time I ever saw them) and Mrs. Turner, who and her husband supped with us here (I having fetched my wife thither), and after supper we fell to oysters, and then Mr. Turner went and fetched some strong waters, and so being very merry we parted, and home to bed.
This day the parson read a proclamation at church, for the keeping of Wednesday next, the 30th of January, a fast for the murther of the late King.

letters come to me from
her yesterday

an hour in the garden
an answer to my sand

where we part
this day next January


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Sunday 27 January 1660/61.

Swing shift

Sam Pepys and me

Within all the morning. About noon comes one that had formerly known me and I him, but I know not his name, to borrow 5l. of me, but I had the wit to deny him.
There dined with me this day both the Pierces and their wives, and Captain Cuttance, and Lieutenant Lambert, with whom we made ourselves very merry by taking away his ribbans and garters, having made him to confess that he is lately married.
The company being gone I went to my lute till night, and so to bed.

morning had formerly known me
but day pierces
our merry way
made to confess to night


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Saturday 26 January 1660/61.

Ghazal on Making Tender

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
I dig out a bag of meat—sliced rounds of beef rescued from an age
of freezer burn. Now I have to figure out how to make them tender.

There's no meat tenderizer among my kitchen tools. I can't pound pieces
on a cutting board, imagining my enemies, to make the fibers tender.

Home cooks' remedies include slathering the cuts with coarse salt, then
letting them rest an hour. They swear it makes even the cheapest cuts tender. 

Some say trim off any remaining gristle, and bed the meat in a tray of fruit
puree. Sweet turns sour. Enzymes from the fruit will make the meat tender.

I once read that a spoonful of baking soda in water can soften squid
before cooking. I wonder if the same could work to make meat tender.

If you can't grill, cut the beef into pieces; sear them and stew in a dutch
oven. It may take hours until at last, like melting grief, the meat is fork-tender.

Milk-Drinking Ritual

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This entry is part 1 of 11 in the series Rituals

first quench the eye’s lust for color
this is a fast of sorts

the earth must be buried
under any snow available

the glass of the glass
must be clear and clean

the milk whole and stolen
from long-suffering cows

lower don’t raise the filled glass
turn your back to the window

offer milk to each corner
of your grungy kitchen

watch your shadow lift
a shadow to its lips

Underground art

Sam Pepys and me

At the office all the morning. Dined at home and Mr. Hater with me, and so I did make even with him for the last quarter. After dinner he and I to look upon the instructions of my Lord Northumberland’s, but we were interrupted by Mr. Salisbury’s coming in, who came to see me and to show me my Lord’s picture in little, of his doing. And truly it is strange to what a perfection he is come in a year’s time. From thence to Paul’s Churchyard about books, and so back again home. This night comes two cages, which I bought this evening for my canary birds, which Captain Rooth this day sent me. So to bed.

all the hate
for art to interrupt

I bury a picture
in a perfect yard

home is two cages
for canary birds


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Friday 25 January 1660/61.

Surviving the Commute

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One of my older daughters (the quietest one)
once confessed  that every now and then, driving
alone on the highway, she'll scream within 
the enclosure that's her car for no reason 
other than that she can. Call it what you will—
catharsis, relief from the ordinary crush of days,  
our lumbering through foibles as well as more pressing 
problems. The windows are up, and it doesn't last very long. 
Motorists on the road who happen to glance sideways 
might think she was simply singing along to the radio. 
In this, just as you've been taught, you keep your eyes 
on the road, your hands on the wheel. But no one ever
said anything about how to handle the bumper-
to-bumper traffic, stalled or coursing through you.

Unaccompanied

Sam Pepys and me

At home all day. There dined with me Sir William Batten and his lady and daughter, Sir W. Pen, Mr. Fox (his lady being ill could not come), and Captain Cuttance.
The first dinner I have made since I came hither. This cost me above 5l., and merry we were — only my chimney smokes.
In the afternoon Mr. Hater bringing me my last quarter’s salary, which I received of him, and so I have now Mr. Barlow’s money in my hands.
The company all go away, and by and by Sir Wms. both and my Lady Batten and his daughter come again and supped with me and talked till late, and so to bed, being glad that the trouble is over.

no cut above me
only smoke

no ringing and no one
in my company bed


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Thursday 24 January 1660/61.

Glass Skin Ghazal

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At the all-you-can-eat Korean barbecue,  the TV above the bar shows a bevy 
of girls in mini skirts and Santa hats with that glow on their faces called glass skin. 

They romp and sing on loop, wink, toss their hair, and never seem to break a sweat. 
Their cheeks have the sheen of peach or pearl from a whole routine for glass skin:

daily hydration and Vitamin C; nightly foam cleanser, exfoliator, toner, serum, 
moisturizer. Every now and then, a mask. The goal: skin like the surface of glass—

reflective, unblemished, dewy. Nothing that cakes to a thickness like plaster.
Imagine the smooth and iridescent inside of a mollusk shell, its glass skin

veined with petroleum-blue rainbows. Imagine pearls lifted from the nacre-lined
wombs of oysters, then strung into necklaces competing for shine with glass skin. 

Cleopatra bathed in milk scented with saffron and honey. Empress Cixi ruled China in
the 19th century. She banned foot-binding and ground pearls to powder her own glass skin.