In this life, there is a language of wake and another for sleep. One blares its jangled notes in your ear at six in the morning. The other coos faint refrains from the eaves. You separate the wrinkled apples from the tray, line the coffeemaker with fluted paper so it's ready. There is a language that restores, and a language of betrayal. Casualty comes from casuelte, meaning chance, incidental; unfortunate loss viewed against the big screen called history. How do you make sense of that which happens, and what befalls another? How do you make sense of the blankness on one side of the page, versus the dark stain where a body burned on the pavement? There's nothing that falls, that happens, purely by chance. Wind whips through the night, making the shingles clap. Another strip of paint peels off the gutter.
Collaborative
At the office all the morning, that done I walked in the garden with little Captain Murford, where he and I had some discourse concerning the Light-House again, and I think I shall appear in the business, he promising me that if I can bring it about, it will be worth 100l. per annum.
Then came into the garden to me young Mr. Powell and Mr. Hooke that I once knew at Cambridge, and I took them in and gave them a bottle of wine, and so parted. Then I called for a dish of fish, which we had for dinner, this being the first day of Lent; and I do intend to try whether I can keep it or no. My father dined with me and did show me a letter from my brother John, wherein he tells us that he is chosen Schollar of the house, which do please me much, because I do perceive now it must chiefly come from his merit and not the power of his Tutor, Dr. Widdrington, who is now quite out of interest there and hath put over his pupils to Mr. Pepper, a young Fellow of the College.
With my father to Mr. Rawlinson’s, where we met my uncle Wight, and after a pint or two away. I walked with my father (who gave me an account of the great falling out between my uncle Fenner and his son Will) as far as Paul’s Churchyard, and so left him, and I home.
This day the Commissioners of Parliament begin to pay off the Fleet, beginning with the Hampshire, and do it at Guildhall, for fear of going out of town into the power of the seamen, who are highly incensed against them.
in the garden
I sing about the garden
you hook
a fish for dinner
the power is out
so we fall into
the power of the sea
Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Wednesday 27 February 1660/61.
Ghazal of the Uninspired
Lately it's been hard to feel inspired. Every taste is chalky, every meal uninspired. Fruit spoils fast, the bread won't rise. The air smells oily, stale, uninspired. The soup is bland as the window view. Fingers trail no shapes in dust, uninspired. Sleep is late, is hard to come by. Dreams dissolve—unremembered, uninspired. In the mirror, the planes of your face are angled and sharp. Color and shine feel uninspired.
Poetry Blog Digest 2024, Week 8
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(Shrove Tuesday). I left my wife in bed, being indisposed by reason of ceux-la, and I to Mrs. Turner’s, who I found busy with The. and Joyce making of things ready for fritters, so to Mr. Crew’s and there delivered Cotgrave’s Dictionary to my Lady Jemimah, and then with Mr. Moore to my coz Tom Pepys, but he being out of town I spoke with his lady, though not of the business I went about, which was to borrow 1000l. for my Lord.
Back to Mrs. Turner’s, where several friends, all strangers to me but Mr. Armiger, dined. Very merry and the best fritters that ever I eat in my life. After that looked out at window; saw the flinging at cocks.
Then Mrs. The. and I, and a gentleman that dined there and his daughter, a perfect handsome young and very tall lady that lately came out of the country, and Mr. Thatcher the Virginall Maister to Bishopsgate Street, and there saw the new Harpsicon made for Mrs. The. We offered 12l., they demanded 14l.. The Master not being at home, we could make no bargain, so parted for to-night. So all by coach to my house, where I found my Valentine with my wife, and here they drank, and then went away. Then I sat and talked with my Valentine and my wife a good while, and then saw her home, and went to Sir W. Batten to the Dolphin, where Mr. Newborne, &c., were, and there after a quart or two of wine, we home, and I went to bed—where (God forgive me) I did please myself by strength of fancy with the young country Segnora that was at dinner with us today.
I left my bed
for the dictionary
a thousand strangers and you
the virginal street
an icon made
for at-home use
and me reborn
after a quart of wine
Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Tuesday 26 February 1660/61.
Through Line
"I'm sorry you can't have
an origin that holds you."
~ Hari Alluri
Here's a new language to marble in your mouth;
a bowl of milk in which to dip it. You're told to hold
your head in such a way to keep you from looking
back, to keep from being distracted. In certain
stories, those who give their souls believing this
is how they become eternal can never change back
into mortal form. But you love salt and sugar too much;
and broth rich with shank bones and marrow. Shrimp
paste, stinky fish sauce. In the pot, one eyeball
comes loose from its socket in the head of the fish.
Scoop it into your bowl. Suck on this chalky pearl
because you want to remember the sound of church-
bells, cacophonous grammar of war as ships sail into
the harbor, unreeling chains leading to this moment here.
Tramp
Sir Wm. Pen and I to my Lord Sandwich’s by coach in the morning to see him, but he takes physic to-day and so we could not see him. So he went away, and I with Luellin to Mr. Mount’s chamber at the Cockpit, where he did lie of old, and there we drank, and from thence to W. Symons where we found him abroad, but she, like a good lady, within, and there we did eat some nettle porrige, which was made on purpose to-day for some of their coming, and was very good. With her we sat a good while, merry in discourse, and so away, Luellin and I to my Lord’s, and there dined. He told me one of the prettiest stories, how Mr. Blurton, his friend that was with him at my house three or four days ago, did go with him the same day from my house to the Fleece tavern by Guildhall, and there (by some pretence) got the mistress of the house, a very pretty woman, into their company. And by and by, Luellin calling him Doctor, she thought that he really was so, and did privately discover her disease to him—which was only some ordinary infirmity belonging to women. And he proffering her physic—she desired him to come some day and bring it, which he did; and withal hath the sight of her thing below, and did handle it—and he swears the next time that he will do more.
After dinner by water to the office, and there Sir W. Pen and I met and did business all the afternoon, and then I got him to my house and eat a lobster together, and so to bed.
old road
like the prettiest blur
mistress of thought
I discover a ring
and her thin hand
will do
Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Monday 25 February 1660/61.
First, Last
Today I heard someone say it's better to live
every day as if it were the first, rather than
last—To think of the moment as if it were
the first sunrise cresting the rim of the hills,
the first egg you cracked on the rim of the pan
before anyone else was awake; the first
prayer mouthed before the first whiff of coffee,
before a cloud of white phosphorus spread
through the neighborhood in the wake of dumb
bombs. So many firsts now in rubble—at first
they were dancing in the kitchen, working
on a new coloring page, or tasting a treat
before being tucked, protesting, into bed.
Eschatology Ritual
the end is far
fetched and fletched
with the iridescent darkness
of starling feathers
an aftermath of statistics
warring stories and desecrated graves
this year in Gaza
or next year in Jerusalem
the end is far
from everything we think
when we wish
upon a starvation
drop two bunker-buster
bombs before bed
side-effects may include
nausea guilt mass carnage
the end is foreign
to the 24-hour news cycle
spinning new gossamer clothes
from faith alone
Sot
(Sunday). Mr. Mills made as excellent a sermon in the morning against drunkenness as ever I heard in my life. I dined at home; another good one of his in the afternoon. My Valentine had her fine gloves on at church to-day that I did give her.
After sermon my wife and I unto Sir Wm. Batten and sat awhile. Then home, I to read, then to supper and to bed.
sun-drunk
as ever in my life
after love I give
my wife up
Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Sunday 24 February 1660/61.

