Life Skills

This entry is part 18 of 41 in the series Morning Porch Poems: Autumn 2012

This must have been the way the world was made: gleaming with wings, hillsides burnished before their dazzle dimmed. When dunes spat back their sand, we wandered through the vegetation in a daze, frightened by broken-off quills and outsized petioles, assaulted by a flotsam of smells, afraid to touch or taste or gather… What wind wrenched away, we’d have to carve back, painfully, by hand. The schools, the corner fast food places, the notaries’ and doctors’ offices, the grocery stores whose shelves were licked by giant tongues of water— What was it about disorder that brought us to our knees? Gradually we remembered what could be done with mud; which crystals broken off from rocks along the beach might pass for salt. It took a while before we sighted birds. The first bright sun came through thick drapes of cloud that looked like women’s breasts. The shore resembled none that we had ever seen before. Someone began to write an almanac of our days— New kinds of growth no longer matched with our old reckoning of time. Someone took pains to straighten a row of stones above the water line.

 

In response to an entry from the Morning Porch.

Cities of Gold

In legends I know, the heavens are many-
layered. Cloud rats skitter there,

and flying squirrels. An orange tree
felled at the beginning of time

branched into veins leafed with copper
and gold ore where it hit the ground.

To this day, miners search for its
bright fruit by tunneling into the dark

on their bellies: no safety harnesses,
sometimes no headlamps. Only a second

sense that ticks through the loam
toward El Dorado, storied city

whose blueprint cannot be ascertained.
Among these stones, warriors once stalked

enemies, returning to their villages
with trophies of heads dangling from

their hands. They dunked and washed these
in the river, then lopped off and boiled

the jaws down to bone— A brass gong
adorned with this polished handle vibrated

with such unearthly power: even the grass
blades shivered as if lacerated by wind.

 

In response to Via Negativa: Medusa, Boddhisatva.

In the Margins

So tempting, still, to want to arch desire in the direction
of what doesn’t merely live— by grace— on the season’s margins.

Like crows and common starlings, bronzed gloss of feathers flashing
where they forage in the dirt, or on the sidewalk’s margins—

Tap into the popular vein, says a friend: write blood, gore, sex, vampires;
more sex, then zombies. You’ll sell like hotcakes from the margins.

And pedigree? Unfortunately I’m still not pure enough, nor hybrid enough:
my accidents of birth, of history; my gender, color, keep me in the margins.

Prove more, prove higher, prove over and over— And while you’re at it,
take care you don’t show up another, perched higher above your margin.

How long have such races been run? Here’s a short list of prize deferments:
Atalanta’s golden apples, Tantalus’ hunger rising and ebbing into the margins.

Suckled in the wilderness, that amazon learned to hunt and fight with the bears.
And that cannibal, child-killer, dog-stealer? What other notes are in the margins?

Who funded those commercials? If you had stolen nectar and ambrosia off the table
of the gods, wouldn’t you be blacklisted, your name defiled in the margins?

And yes, I might push that rock from sandy bottom up to the crest of the hill: but
my loyalty belongs to that frisson no one sees, that fire I tend within the margins.

 

In response to small stone (173).

Thence

This entry is part 16 of 41 in the series Morning Porch Poems: Autumn 2012

Venturing out afterwards,
we count the bricks torn up
in the last hurricane, note

the welter of leaves stripped
from branches; see, as if for the first
time, stark form— Few layers now

obscure the view, so surface
and foreground more closely match
the underneath. All the gaudy

accessories— frills of russet leaf,
curled copper, tongues of topaz yellow—
recede into silt and verdigris

at the edges. And the water
that with the tidal surge rose
through narrow alleys by corner

restaurants, came up the steps
of a public library built in 1904
(foreclosed a few years ago by the Old

Point National Bank). It barely grazed
the sidewalks on our own street,
though merely a block away

the neighbors had two feet of water
in their garages. And no, we can’t
predict which of these buildings

will sink into the sea (brick or aluminum
siding, stucco, vinyl, fiber cement); which
ones will weather the onslaughts of another

century. Soon after inventories of its losses,
the city and its neighborhoods rumble slowly
back to life. The gulls return—

not that they ever left—
and like us, pick desultorily
through oddments, through debris.

 

In response to an entry from the Morning Porch.

Kabayan

This entry is part 15 of 41 in the series Morning Porch Poems: Autumn 2012

They climbed to the promontory
and took photographs of memorials,
brushing the dirt aside to read
the letters that told of who
had been there before. She wondered
if the black specks she sighted
above the ridge were vultures; if,
after all this time, such birds
might still take an interest
in cured and leathered bodies,
mummified and resting in their caves.
In the village, the rest house
had no heat. For bathing,
there were metal drums filled
with chilled spring water. It was
the last day of the year—
Bonfires flickered. Frost trails
formed at the ends of sentences.
They were unaware of their own
restlessness, soon to be eclipsed
by the years. Above terraces
lined by hand with stone
upon stone, the occasional burst
of a firecracker. Mostly, the wind.
Or the muffled sound of a gong.

 

In response to an entry from the Morning Porch.

Parable: a man is sitting atop a hundred foot pole

How does he get off it before the skies combust in a bloom of fire?

Has there been anything more difficult to comprehend?
There may be situations like this. Or worse,
or easier. It depends.

He is either beside himself with terror,

or beside himself with something else:
joy, longing, sorrow. A pounding in his chest.
Or he is simply beside himself,

quietly regarding the situation.

Or thinking of another riddle—
Is this the way an angel might feel
on the head of a pin?

It is a long slide to the bottom.

It might be a quicker fall.
We are not told if he is wearing a robe,
saffron colored, which he might

spread open like a sail.

His pockets, if he has pockets,
may or may not have a ball
of emergency twine, some wax,

a smear of honey, a feather duster

picked up in previous travels.
From that height, sounds carry
with a difference in textures—

Commuter traffic, domestic arguments,

commerce in the marketplace.
How long before someone will say
finally, Look, there’s someone

on top of that pole?

Get the police. Get the first
responders. How did he get up there
in the first place?

(Reminder: he first appeared in this parable.)

Autumn foliage across the parks,
blazing its message of beautiful wreckage—
as he sits and contemplates the ladders

for his return or escape.

 

In response to small stone (172) and Via Negativa: Squirrel mind.

Hokkaido

This entry is part 13 of 41 in the series Morning Porch Poems: Autumn 2012

Before I learned geography in school, Hokkaido
was simply my family’s favorite brand of canned
mackerel, opened especially in typhoon weather.
No matter that sheets of cold rain fell and fell,
and indoors we suspected we’d started to smell
a little biblical— And the power went out,
but we had candles, and a can opener!
We could still boil rice in a blackened
pot on the one-burner kerosene stove. Little blue-
fin mackerel, jumping (from which fishing port
off the coast of Hokkaido?) into the net, into
the can and into our steaming bowls awash in black
pepper, white vinegar, and thinly sliced shallots,
you were among the first briny tastes of other
coastlines that entered my mouth. And even now,
whenever rain pelts at the windows and the skies
turn the color of dull aluminum, when the winds
make the trees’ arms rise like wings of cranes
in the marshlands, I think of this word, Hokkaido.

 

In response to an entry from the Morning Porch.

Surreal Apparatus

In my dreams, there is always some kind of bathroom.
Or the difficulty of finding a bathroom,
which upon waking is always the most lucid thing about the dream.
In one, there are corridors lined with doors.
One of them has got to be a bathroom.
A plane is about to take off from the tarmac, a plane I need to catch.
Finally, a door that opens onto a room with tile, a sink, commode—
But I retreat: the copper sink is full of blood.
In another there are people dressed in tuxedos and ball gowns.
The house is full of velvet drapes, plush Persian carpets, marble statues.
A grand piano sits resplendent in the drawing room.
The windows open to a view of hills at sunset.
But everyone is moving around frantically like moths with colored wings.
Everyone needs the bathroom.
And there is no bathroom, no apparatus for privacy or relief.
But there is a bench in front of the piano,
with a hinged top that opens in the manner of a toilet seat.

 

In response to Via Negativa: Semi-lucid.