When we arrived, there was only one chair in the upper room,
and a square of sunlight.
Isn't it endearing, that prelude before the camera picks up
the details? You can see how slow time is even as it lapses.
The hairline fissure in the corner is patched with plaster.
It is a known fact that even houses shift and breathe.
November again, and here ground is stitched with
the shadows of leaves.
For weeks now, after trash pickup, we've found our bins
on the other side of the street. A neighbor wants to start
a petition to address this.
We have a twelve-year-old bottle of wine that still sits
unopened on the rack.
Nothing was promised to us though we made promises.
Perhaps the tiny diamond that loosened from
its prongs winks somewhere under the floorboards.
Last week the skies glowed a deep magenta shot through
with green— like blown glass tempered with gold salts and
metal oxides.
Guest Room, with Lines from Rumi
We clear out boxes, odds and ends of the years
crammed into a space for transients: everything
we couldn't then bear to part with or throw
away, taking up space in each corner. Without
a garage, even leftover paint cans from touchups
of exterior siding are here; the binders I put
together for my last appointment review, our
daughter's first pair of shoes. A one-burner
camping stove, Christmas lights, rechargeable
batteries for the weed-whacker. Light from the east-
facing window only touches the headboard through
gaps in the blinds. Below the south-facing window,
the heater keeps up its whooshing strain. Are we
clearing things out for some new delight? Rumi says
we should be grateful for whoever comes, because
each has been sent as a guide from beyond.
Raw
The woman in the video cuts a head of cabbage
into wedges, sears them in a skillet.
Butter browns and sizzles. She flips them over
and waits for the other side to char.
Some aromas from the kitchen take me back to another time.
Memory is a slow cooker sometimes; and at other times
a deep fryer.
If you rub a lemon slice across your fingers it takes
away the garlic smell.
Pour water into the half-shell of durian and wash
your hands in that basin.
I have heard groups of women whispering about another
woman using words for musk and stink, flesh and fruit.
They're the type who warn that certain fruits, when eaten
during your period, tinge your blood foul and sour.
In the foothills of Mt. Banahaw, there are legends
of a woodland deity. During a famine, she gently pinched
the sides of poisonous fruit and made them sweet.
The anthropologist who did field work in the heart
of the rainforest proposed that cooking food marked
the difference between nature and culture.
When we are children, we taste the world in what we
pick up with our fingers— dandelion leaf, serviceberry,
green plum, water from the rust-slicked mouth of garden
hose pressed against our own.
Rattus Rattus
(Roof rat)
They run rampant in these coastal neighborhoods.
We heard scratching within the walls, saw droppings
beneath the kitchen sink and in the damp basement
the landlord doesn't bother to light properly.
We found a bag of scones on the floor, chewed
clean through. We're told to get rat poison
and see if that will fix the problem. Some
come in tubs labeled Just One Bite. Active
ingredient, either bromethalin or warfarin.
Up until the turn of the last century, arsenic
and thallium were also used. A skull and cross-
bones sticker indicates lethality: Danger! Fatal
if swallowed, inhaled, or absorbed through skin.
The poison causes internal bleeding, nerve damage,
pulmonary edema. Death can follow: not immediately
but fairly quickly or it might take a few days.
We found it twitching in the corner, making sounds
that might be interpreted as both snarl and shriek.
Not us but pest control came to take it off
our hands. Meaning a dispatch, or a deposition.
The Grief of Angels
- after “The Fall of the Rebel Angels,”
Peter Breughel the Elder, 1562
and “The Lamentation of Christ,”
Giotto, 1305
Sprouting gills and lizards’ tails, rebel angels
change in their fall from the shining walls of heaven—
becoming horned and feathered beasts, hybrids
of irregular size. Poisons of the puffer fish, the scaled,
the seven-headed; and though they’re meant to stand for
what is dark and evil, their beauty still is terrible
to behold. Pistil or tulip bulb, zebra swallowtail
butterfly with a body of burnished hair; the gleam
of shields and swords raised for lethal strike. In Giotto’s
“Lamentation of Christ,” more notable than the mourners
who have taken the body of Christ down from the cross
is the army of cherubs hovering like small planes, their grief
becoming blur against a thick impasto of clouds and sky.
Once I heard a sermon which said sacred scripture shows
God and the angels have feelings, but more intensely
than those of humans. Never fear, said the announcing
angel to Mary— which meant his countenance was far
from benign, even if he was holy. In the depths of our own
grief as we wring our hands and rend our hair, our keening
ascends into the air as if, too, from the mouths of angels.
Why Not Up the Ante
"US Mint presses final pennies as
production ends after more than 230
years." - Associated Press, 12 Nov. 2025
Penny wise, pound foolish; earner of an honest penny
yet you swear you don't have a penny to your name.
Won't you buy hot cross buns, one a penny, two
a penny— too proud to pinch a penny yet you'd wager
someone a pound to a penny. Pretty penny, clean
and shiny as a new penny, have you ever felt like
a penny waiting for change? Me too. A penny saved,
a penny earned, but now there are no thoughts you
can buy with one penny. Somewhere in the world
there are bathroom floors and kitchen floors tiled
entirely in copper pennies. Those take a long time
to complete, but once you start, it's in for a penny,
in for a pound. The gleam's as good as gold, even
brighter— for every single time a penny drops,
a lightbulb still goes off in someone's head.
You Think You Hear a Ladybug Cry for Help
(an emoji poem)
If small insects like the jeweled
ladybug sent out a cry for help,
would you hear it? You remember a nursery
rhyme from childhood about a king who stuck
a fork into his dessert, releasing four and
twenty blackbirds baked in a pie. But if they
were truly baked and done for, they wouldn't
be able to fly out of their tomb of shortcut
pastry, would they? And since they began
to sing in chorus, they must have had nine
lives or there was some wizardry involved—
the type that sets off snare drums, broomsticks
falling briskly in line to empty trash bins
and carry buckets of water. What padlocked
the doors to bewilderment and surprise in your
blood and held up a stop sign every time you saw
a swan and recalled tales of transfiguration?
The snake doesn't whisper Sit in the corner
like a good child. In that kind of story, it urges
you to take a big bite out of the shiny apple, bets
you could steal cheese from a mousetrap or filch
a smoke without being caught. People have lost big
in TV shows where the host asks you to choose between
wads of money or a taped-up mystery box containing...
what exactly? Perhaps you are the insect— just a small
creature, and not large as allegory like the one
in a Kafka story. You do your everyday things: fry
and eat an egg for breakfast, swim a couple of laps
at the gym, dutifully take out the recycling.
You squint up at the fading light one evening,
and remember how in your teens you really wanted
to learn the bass guitar, rack up enough
points to join the local Mensa club, or train
as a long-distance runner if not for being flat-
footed. No, none of those, to your dismay.
But the voice of some wise sage says in your ear
that it's alright. Neither you nor the barnyard
creatures nor the bright blue Morpho butterflies
nor the earthworms churning up the soil older
than all of us necessarily need saving all the time.
Your daughter texts you to say that one day, when she
took her second-grader to the park, she was feeling
so burned out from work. She joined him on the slides
a couple of times, and felt a little better.
You tell her— next time they visit, you'll drop
everything you're doing so you can go to the teahouse
you enjoyed so much the last time, to drink oolong,
eat finger sandwiches, popcorn chicken, and scones.

In a Tropical Country, Refrigeration is Key
"...on Nov. 5 ... doctors in the Philippines
have documented the case of a woman
whose armpits leak milk." (Reddit)
In 1847, Russell & Sturgis acquired tax-free
rights to carry 250 tons of ice on the frigate
Hizaine to Manila, variously called the Pearl
of the Orient or the Rome of the East, or
more recently the armpit of the world for its
urban blight and overpopulation. In the 1800s,
blocks of ice were harvested from creeks and lakes
in deep winter, then covered with sawdust or hay
for insulation in ice houses. The great Banquet
of Malolos celebrating Philippine independence
in 1898 flaunted a European-inspired menu,
as if to show the world the newly formed
nation was as civilized as others in the West.
Seven appetizers, seven courses and four desserts—
oysters, shrimp, stuffed crab and buttered radishes;
cold ham with asparagus, cheeses, jams, leche flan
del mar and mantecado— ice cream! The milk was likely
coconut or carabao milk, and of course it needed
to be kept cold. Any milk, including breast milk,
spoils when overexposed to heat. Bacteria convert
lactose into acids. Fermentaton thickens into
a moist and foamy surface spackled with curds.
Illusions of Cause
Spray-painted white, a tangle of driftwood hangs from
the ceiling.
It moves when a breeze comes through the door.
Underneath, a table with pitchers of water, glasses, napkins.
Tinkle of wind-chimes in the neighbor's garden.
Foghorns cutting through the blinds.
How many people are out in a storm tonight, as waves
crest barriers and flood waters rage down boulevards?
Images flicker on my screen.
I remember a bus ride through towns in the aftermath of
volcanic eruption— courtyards half-buried in lahar,
the statues of saints spackled with mud.
Centuries after Pompeii was buried in ash, the shapes
of corpses lying side by side came to light.
Scientists determined they were a man and a child.
They had no relation to each other.
The Gift
I had a couple of intricately beaded necklaces.
One of them was a gift, years ago, from my eldest child.
When I looked at what I had in the drawer, I couldn't remember
which one was bought by me, and which was a gift from another.
I gave one to the giver, who felt hurt I didn't remember,
more than that I was returning the gift. The mind's like that:
forgets the details, though archives are kept by the heart.
It's only one of many faults for which I must atone.
One was a gift, years ago, from my eldest child.
Giving something back, the hurt is that I didn't remember.
One was bought by me, one was a gift from the other.
That the gift was returned, her mind found unfathomable.
I mailed it back to her, and she was hurt I didn't remember. I might
have forgotten details, but isn't what the heart keeps what matters?
I returned the gift, but not out of spite. My mind isn't that kind of stupid.
And yet it's only one of many things for which I must atone.
I may have returned the gift, but I know it wasn't out of spite.
When I looked at what I had in my drawer, I only saw too much.
Perhaps it's only one of many faults for which I must atone.
Once, I ran my hands over two intricately beaded necklaces.

