Smog

By myself at the office all the morning drawing up instructions for Portsmouth yard in those things wherein we at our late being there did think fit to reform, and got them signed this morning to send away to-night, the Duke being now there.
At noon to the Wardrobe; there dined. My Lady told me how my Lady Castlemaine do speak of going to lie in at Hampton Court; which she and all our ladies are much troubled at, because of the King’s being forced to show her countenance in the sight of the Queen when she comes. Back to the office and there all afternoon, and in the evening comes Sir G. Carteret, and he and I did hire a ship for Tangier, and other things together; and I find that he do single me out to join with me apart from the rest, which I am much glad of. So home, and after being trimmed, to bed.

Of all the things our ink
signed away,
the peak comes
back in the evening
to rest.


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Saturday 10 May 1662.

Lessons

What I had no skill to finish,
your hands took up despite the daily
endless supply of chores—

Into the night, on my school sampler,
you cross-stitched chains and antlers
upon a bordered field: deer

with craned necks and lifted hooves
impatient as I was for an end
to the ruled hours. When and how

did I come to know at last
all I had no clue about? I learned
to watch and listen as you worked,

making thrift with rations, but
unstinting with anything that could be made
to bloom in the wounded rags of our days.

What do you think the animals know of ourselves?

Aren’t we all looking for some shade of grandeur,
some fountain with a bronze patina against which to lean;
for the invitation to a secret ball, some spectacular circus
to celebrate the onset of the monsoon? Would that not be
a most appropriate event at which to debut one’s crushed
silk garment with pleats that look like darkly
moving currents, one’s jewels that shimmer sapphire
drops of water? Our pizza days slide into their cardboard
boxes and there are only two little hot peppers curled
in a corner with the tub of faux blue cheese sauce.
Glimpsed through the open window of a neighbor’s house,
teenage girls raise their freckled arms, glistening,
shaking their Just Dance wands to the pulse of music.
They aren’t tired yet. A parakeet watches from its indoor
swing. They eat cream from cold bowls. Their eyelids
flutter in the orange glow of a kitchen lamp,
refusing any servings of clairvoyance.

 

In response to Via Negativa: The real news .

Unbroken

Up and to my office, and so to dinner at home, and then to several places to pay my debts, and then to Westminster to Dr. Castle, who discoursed with me about Privy Seal business, which I do not much mind, it being little worth, but by Watkins’s late sudden death we are like to lose money. Thence to Mr. de Cretz, and there saw some good pieces that he hath copyed of the King’s pieces, some of Raphael and Michael Angelo; and I have borrowed an Elizabeth of his copying to hang up in my house, and sent it home by Will. Thence with Mr. Salisbury, who I met there, into Covent Garden to an alehouse, to see a picture that hangs there, which is offered for 20s., and I offered fourteen — but it is worth much more money — but did not buy it, I having no mind to break my oath. Thence to see an Italian puppet play that is within the rayles there, which is very pretty, the best that ever I saw, and great resort of gallants. So to the Temple and by water home, and so walk upon the leads, and in the dark there played upon my flageolette, it being a fine still evening, and so to supper and to bed.
This day I paid Godfrey’s debt of 40 and odd pounds. The Duke of York went last night to Portsmouth; so that I believe the Queen is near.

In several places, the sea—
like money, the copy
of a copy. But having
no mind to break, it is
the best resort of water
on a fine still night.


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Friday 9 May 1662.

Puberty

At the office all the morning doing business alone, and then to the Wardrobe, where my Lady going out with the children to dinner I staid not, but returned home, and was overtaken in St. Paul’s Churchyard by Sir G. Carteret in his coach, and so he carried me to the Exchange, where I staid awhile. He told me that the Queen and the fleet were in Mount’s Bay on Monday last, and that the Queen endures her sickness pretty well. He also told me how Sir John Lawson hath done some execution upon the Turks in the Straight, of which I am glad, and told the news the first on the Exchange, and was much followed by merchants to tell it. So home and to dinner, and by and by to the office, and after the rest gone (my Lady Albemarle being this day at dinner at Sir W. Batten’s) Sir G. Carteret comes, and he and I walked in the garden, and, among other discourse, tells me that it is Mr. Coventry that is to come to us as a Commissioner of the Navy; at which he is much vexed, and cries out upon Sir W. Pen, and threatens him highly. And looking upon his lodgings, which are now enlarging, he in passion cried, “Guarda mi spada; for, by God, I may chance to keep him in Ireland, when he is there:for Sir W. Pen is going thither with my Lord Lieutenant. But it is my design to keep much in with Sir George; and I think I have begun very well towards it. So to the office, and was there late doing business, and so with my head full of business I to bed.

A child overtaken by change
endures her sickness
in the garden,
tells me
the navy may land there,
for pen and ink have begun
to do business.


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Thursday 8 May 1662.

Stung

Little mouth, you work
in spasms even in the midst

of dreams— and I must ask,
what will sate that gnawing

hunger, once and for all?
In the field, gnats draw electric

circles around your ankles, near
your arms— every warm body

in the grass, a vessel brimming
with blood and unsung ardors.

The real news

Walked to Westminster; where I understand the news that Mr. Montagu is this last night come to the King with news, that he left the Queen and fleet in the Bay of Biscay, coming this wayward; and that he believes she is now at the Isle of Scilly. So at noon to my Lord Crew’s and there dined, and after dinner Sir Thos. Crew and I talked together, and among other instances of the simple light discourse that sometimes is in the Parliament House, he told me how in the late business of Chymny money, when all occupiers were to pay, it was questioned whether women were under that name to pay, and somebody rose and said that they were not occupiers, but occupied.
Thence to Paul’s Church Yard; where seeing my Lady’s Sandwich and Carteret, and my wife (who this day made a visit the first time to my Lady Carteret), come by coach, and going to Hide Park, I was resolved to follow them; and so went to Mrs. Turner’s: and thence found her out at the Theatre, where I saw the last act of the “Knight of the Burning Pestle,” which pleased me not at all. And so after the play done, she and The. Turner and Mrs. Lucin and I, in her coach to the Park; and there found them out, and spoke to them; and observed many fine ladies, and staid till all were gone almost. And so to Mrs. Turner’s, and there supped, and so walked home, and by and by comes my wife home, brought by my Lady Carteret to the gate, and so to bed.

Where the news is
is the news:
the fleet in the bay,
this wayward isle of noon,
a dinner of simple light.
Sometimes the parliament,
when all question whether
to pay some rose,
is found burning.


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Wednesday 7 May 1662.

Primer

The five-fingered leaf is a word
that keeps its own counsel in the wood.

Evasive in moonlight, it instructs
on the ways to avoid repetition—

Be one and be many; be brief
in your longing. Let boundaries

flourish with your handwriting.
Cast a shadow, but be green.

Sedentary

This morning I got my seat set up on the leads, which pleases me well. So to the office, and thence to the Change, but could not meet with my uncle Wight. So home to dinner and then out again to several places to pay money and to understand my debts, and so home and walked with my wife on the leads, and so to supper and to bed.
I find it a hard matter to settle to business after so much leisure and pleasure.

My seat
pleases me, but not
to stand and walk.
A hard matter
is pleasure.


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Tuesday 6 May 1662.

Vectors

This entry is part 15 of 19 in the series Morning Porch Poems: Spring 2015

Spokes of light that sang over the valley,
spun flames that trembled like the wings of doves.

How did we walk all summer and into the next
season of rain? But we did, as if into the arms

of our most familiar, into the flesh of our everyday
fate. Did we have time to make garments out of our

recurring laments? We must have cried out in the heat,
in the cold; or clung to a bridegroom, an archipelago

of circling desires. Sometimes to wait is not an option.
Sometimes the only thing to do is hurry into the coming storm.

 

In response to an entry from the Morning Porch.