Samizdat

Sam Pepys and me

Up betimes and to my office, and at 9 o’clock, none of the rest going, I went alone to Deptford, and there went on where they left last night to pay Woolwich yard, and so at noon dined well, being chief at the table, and do not see but every body begins to give me as much respect and honour as any of the rest. After dinner to Pay again, and so till 9 at night, my great trouble being that I was forced to begin an ill practice of bringing down the wages of servants, for which people did curse me, which I do not love. At night, after I had eaten a cold pullet, I walked by brave moonshine, with three or four armed men to guard me, to Redriffe, it being a joy to my heart to think of the condition that I am now in, that people should of themselves provide this for me, unspoke to. I hear this walk is dangerous to walk alone by night, and much robbery committed here. So from thence by water home, and so to my lodgings to bed.

alone at the table
a body begins to rest

after being forced to ring
after a cold moon

with ink
that dangerous water


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Friday 19 September 1662.

A Crown of Dust

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
(a cento)



9

We're skilled at living in the ruins of our cities.

There is shame in it, the craving
for prestige.

Later is more difficult to picture,
And now that the sun is going
the body's betrayals piling up faster each year,

some bills marked Urgent!
some Immediate Attention!

The mice ransack
our rations, score them with teeth-marks. In the kitchen, fire

the fossil of your stopping in the wax of the candle

Yet the wars continue. In the West Bank
a child blown to bits, playing by the sea.

Beneath me, a male world thrums with every strung kind.



Line sources:
Carmen Calatayud, Diane Seuss, Jehanne Dubrow, Olatunde
Osinaike, Nancy Naomi Carlson, Eamonn Lynskey, Julia
Bouwsma, John W. Sexton, Rafael Campo, Nicholas Wong

A Crown of Dust

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
(a cento)


8

What does it mean to be rootless?

ragged sheep
huddled in the rain

Now the empty frames, the cream of margins
in the way no frame can minimize nor contain horizon

I never feel so alive as when I am

the eye of God is planted between my brow

a blue river flowed above me at night
what if it's loneliness that keeps me alive

That's why I'll never go back

We see around things when we're seeing well

The thing about instability is we rarely see it

we could wake up under the right pattern of stars.
We're skilled at living in the ruins of our cities.



Line sources:
Jane Wong, Damir Sodan, Jenny Xie, David
Maduli, Youna Kwak, Ashley M. Jones,
Matthew Zapruder, Amorak Huey, Brynja
Hjalmsdottir, Matthew Cooperman,
Rachel Sierra, Ewa Lewis, Carmen Calatayud

After the carnival

Sam Pepys and me

At the office all the morning, and at noon Sir G. Carteret, Mr. Coventry, and I by invitation to dinner to Sheriff Maynell’s, the great money-man; he, Alderman Backwell, and much noble and brave company, with the privilege of their rare discourse, which is great content to me above all other things in the world. And after a great dinner and much discourse, we arose and took leave, and home to the business of my office, where I thank God I take delight, and in the evening to my lodging and to bed.
Among other discourse, speaking concerning the great charity used in Catholic countrys, Mr. Ashburnham did tell us, that this last year, there being great want of corn in Paris, and so a collection made for the poor, there was two pearls brought in, nobody knew from whom (till the Queen, seeing them, knew whose they were, but did not discover it), which were sold for 200,000 crownes.

no great money-man
is above the world

we arose
to take delight

speaking as a body
they did not discover


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Thursday 18 September 1662.

A Crown of Dust

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
(a cento)

7

Singularity in passage.

A body of water is, in the end, bu a field
That which in you that was cut

Undisguise me, said the stone to the river

But how long can one return to the sky, how long does it take to reach

burnished grasses, bending slightly, my feet crush crickets, trample

Like time it is everywhere

We love in silence
I think of my mother sitting in a front row of folded chairs

under the silk wind

I have to close my eyes.
I'm alone in the night again thinking

what
does it mean to be rootless?


Line sources:
Marija Knezvevic, Ariana Benson, Rebecca
Morgan Frank, Brynn Saito, Yu Xiuhua, Sarah
Audsley, Alice Fulton, CD Wright, Bill Mohr,
Claudia Prado, Todd Davis, Brendan Joyce,
Jane Wong

Fortune

Sam Pepys and me

At my office all the morning, and at noon to the Exchange, where meeting Mr. Moore and Mr. Stucky, of the Wardrobe, we to an ordinary to dinner, and after dinner Mr. Moore and I about 3 o’clock to Paul’s school, to wait upon Mr. Crumlum (Mr. Moore having a hopeful lad, a kinsman of his, there at school), who we take very luckily, and went up to his chamber with him, where there was also an old fellow student of Mr. Crumlum’s, one Mr. Newell, come to see him, of whom he made so much, and of me, that the truth is he with kindness did drink more than I believe he used to do, and did begin to be a little impertinent, the more when after all he would in the evening go forth with us and give us a bottle of wine abroad, and at the tavern met with an acquaintance of his that did occasion impertinent discourse, that though I honour the man, and he do declare abundance of learning and worth, yet I confess my opinion is much lessened of him, and therefore let it be a caution to myself not to love drink, since it has such an effect upon others of greater worth in my own esteem. I could not avoid drinking of 5 glasses this afternoon with him, and after I had parted with him Mr. Moore and I to my house, and after we had eaten something to my lodgings, where the master of the house, a very ordinary fellow, was ready to entertain me and took me into his dining-room where his wife was, a pretty and notable lady, too fine surely for him, and too much wit too. Here I was forced to stay with them a good while and did drink again, there being friends of theirs with them. At last being weary of his idle company, I bid good-night and so to my chamber and Mr. [Moore] and I to bed, neither of us well pleased with our afternoon’s work, merely from our being witnesses of Mr. Crumlum’s weakness.
This day my boy is come from Brampton, and my wife I think the next week.

stuck on having hope
we take luck in a bottle
and dance

the void is fine
for an afternoon


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Wednesday 17 September 1662.

A Crown of Dust

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
(a cento)


6

we're almost there, a man says to a child
Go and find solace in sleep.
A kind of silence lit for only a moment.

I love you I love you even in my sleep

I am a good student. Voted most likely to try

Sunlight fills the empty lot.

Matter teaches me to sing by singing in the emptiness. Yes it does.

Will you stay until the anemones fold back into the land

Surely it is a privilege to approach the end
One window is enough for me

opening another world of greenery and vines

So small, so precious. Something to behold.

If you have grieved you have loved. Twinned,
Singularity in passage.


Line sources:
Jorie Graham, Robert Chiwemba, Marcelo Hernandez
Castillo, Kim Hyesoon, Traci Brimhall, Janice
N. Harrington, Bruce Bond and Dan Beachy-Quick,
Lena Khalaf Tuffaha, Louise Gluck, Forough
Farrokhzad, Danusha Lameris, Joan Kwon
Glass, Joanna Klink, Marija Knezvevic

Heartland

Sam Pepys and me

Up and to my workmen, and then to the office, and there we sat till noon; then to the Exchange, and in my way met with the housekeeper of this office, and he did give me so good an account of my chamber in my house about which I am so much troubled that I am well at ease in my mind. At my office all the afternoon alone. In the evening Sir J. M. and I walked together a good while in the garden, very pleasant, and takes no notice that he do design any further trouble to me about my house. At night eat a bit of bread and cheese, and so to my lodgings and to bed, my mind ill at ease for these particulars: my house in dirt, and like to lose my best chamber. My wife writes me from the country that she is not pleased there with my father nor mother, nor any of her servants, and that my boy is turned a very rogue. I have 30l. to pay to the cavaliers: then a doubt about my being forced to leave all my business here, when I am called to the court at Brampton; and lastly, my law businesses, which vex me to my heart what I shall be able to do next term, which is near at hand.

ice is ice
even in a fur of dirt

like a country turned
to doubt
about our heart


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Tuesday 16 September 1662.

A Crown of Dust

river in November light between bare woods and mountain
(a cento)

5

It has been this way so long

the dead earth candling its sorrows
the way a mother cradles the child

My mind has a slow metabolism, it is slow

What would it be to live a life in which even one petal was unfurled?

The monumentality of this

We come into the world and there it is.

I look at a tree: I see, I sense, I know

And, when the winged gods finally interfere

how spring undoes the year like a knot

I am tired of feeling guilty; I am tired of running up a tab.
for beauty, I cried, and leaned my elbows on the balcony

I could praise the present tense and begin again.

we're almost there, a man says to a child



Line sources:
Marissa Davis, Gillian Cummings, Joseph
Campana, Rick Barot, Bhanu Kapil, Julia
Guez, Juliana Spahr, Tomaz Salamun, Carey
Van Landingham, Brian Teare, Diana
Khoi Nguyen, Pere Gimferrer, Steven
Leyva, Jorie Graham

Denizen

Sam Pepys and me

Up betimes to meet with the plasterer and bricklayer that did first divide our lodgings, and they do both tell me that my chamber now in dispute did ever belong to my lodgings, which do put me into good quiet of mind.
So by water with Sir Wm. Pen to White Hall; and, with much ado, was fain to walk over the piles through the bridge, while Sir W. Batten and Sir J. Minnes were aground against the bridge, and could not in a great while get through. At White Hall we hear that the Duke of York is gone a-hunting to-day; and so we returned: they going to the Duke of Albemarle’s, where I left them (after I had observed a very good picture or two there), and so home, and there did resolve to give up my endeavours for access to the leads, and to shut up my doors lest the being open might give them occasion of longing for my chamber, which I am in most fear about.
So to Deptford, and took my Lady Batten and her daughter and Mrs. Turner along with me, they being going through the garden thither, they to Mr. Unthwayte’s and I to the Pay, and then about 3 o’clock went to dinner (Sir W. Pen and I), and after dinner to the Pay again, and at night by barge home all together, and so to my lodgings and to bed, my mind full of trouble about my house.

plaster and brick
chamber me in quiet

so over the ground
gone into a picture

longing for a lock
to pen in the night


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Monday 15 September 1662.