The first time, I am three. We are new
in the neighborhood, just moved into
a government house with soiled
floorboards and mildew-spotted walls.
It's good wood, father says; heart
of pine. He can walk to work at the City
Hall, ten minutes away; whistling, no sweat.
Mother ties a bandana over her nose
and mouth to clean. She can't do it
on her own. She cries every day until
father says she can hire a teenage boy
from down the street. His fingers
are square and brown and he crumples old
newspapers to dip in water for cleaning
the windows. When he says play
doctor and sticks his finger under
my waistband I worry the cotton
will show the stains. After,
I sit on the far end of the porch,
burning; stacking stones, tearing twigs.
Poet Luisa A. Igloria (Poetry Foundation web page, author webpage ) is Co-Winner of the 2019 Crab Orchard Open Competition in Poetry for her manuscript Maps for Migrants and Ghosts, forthcoming from Southern Illinois University Press in fall 2020. She is the winner of the 2015 Resurgence Prize (UK), the world’s first major award for ecopoetry, selected by former UK poet laureate Sir Andrew Motion, Alice Oswald, and Jo Shapcott. She is the author of What is Left of Wings, I Ask (2018 Center for the Book Arts Letterpress Chapbook Prize, selected by former US Poet Laureate Natasha Trethewey); Bright as Mirrors Left in the Grass (Kudzu House Press eChapbook selection for Spring 2015), Ode to the Heart Smaller than a Pencil Eraser (Utah State University Press, 2014 May Swenson Prize), Night Willow (Phoenicia Publishing, 2014), The Saints of Streets (University of Santo Tomas Publishing House, 2013), Juan Luna’s Revolver (2009 Ernest Sandeen Prize, University of Notre Dame Press), and nine other books. She is a member of the core faculty of the MFA Creative Writing Program at Old Dominion University which she directed from 2009-2015. In 2018, she was the inaugural Glasgow Distinguished Writer in Residence at Washington and Lee University. When she isn’t writing, reading, or teaching, she cooks with her family, knits, hand-binds books, and listens to tango music.