Six-Line Psalm

Up very early, and by water to Whitehall to my Lord’s, and there up to my Lord’s lodging (Wm. Howe being now ill of the gout at Mr. Pierce’s), and there talked with him about the affairs of the Navy, and how I was now to wait today at the Privy Seal. Commissioner Pett went with me, whom I desired to make my excuse at the office for my absence this day.
Hence to the Privy Seal Office, where I got (by Mr. Mathews’ means) possession of the books and table, but with some expectation of Baron’s bringing of a warrant from the King to have this month.
Nothing done this morning, Baron having spoke to Mr. Woodson and Groome (clerks to Mr. Trumbull of the Signet) to keep all work in their hands till the afternoon, at which time he expected to have his warrant from the King for this month.
I took at noon Mr. Harper to the Leg in King Street, and did give him his dinner, who did still advise me much to act wholly myself at the Privy Seal, but I told him that I could not, because I had other business to take up my time.
In the afternoon at, the office again, where we had many things to sign; and I went to the Council Chamber, and there got my Lord to sign the first bill, and the rest all myself; but received no money today. After I had signed all, I went with Dick Scobell and Luellin to drink at a bottle beer house in the Strand, and after staying there a while (had sent W. Hewer home before), I took boat and homewards went, and in Fish Street bought a Lobster, and as I had bought it I met with Winter and Mr. Delabarr, and there with a piece of sturgeon of theirs we went to the Sun Tavern in the street and ate them. Late home and to bed.

My Lord is with me;
I desire a book of hands.
Give me to act
wholly myself.
Bottle me a lobster
and a winter sun.


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Wednesday 1 August 1660.

Yeshua ben Yosef

Up, and made myself as fine as I could, with the Linning stockings on and wide canons that I bought the other day at Hague. Extraordinary press of noble company, and great mirth all the day. There dined with me in my cabin (that is, the carpenter’s) Dr. Earle and Mr. Hollis, the King’s Chaplins, Dr. Scarborough, Dr. Quarterman, and Dr. Clerke, Physicians, Mr. Darcy, and Mr. Fox (both very fine gentlemen), the King’s servants, where we had brave discourse.
Walking upon the decks, where persons of honour all the afternoon, among others, Thomas Killigrew (a merry droll, but a gentleman of great esteem with the King), who told us many merry stories: one, how he wrote a letter three or four days ago to the Princess Royal, about a Queen Dowager of Judaea and Palestine, that was at the Hague incognita, that made love to the King, &c., which was Mr. Cary (a courtier’s) wife that had been a nun, who are all married to Jesus.
At supper the three Drs. of Physic again at my cabin; where I put Dr. Scarborough in mind of what I heard him say about the use of the eyes, which he owned, that children do, in every day’s experience, look several ways with both their eyes, till custom teaches them otherwise. And that we do now see but with one eye, our eyes looking in parallel lines.
After this discourse I was called to write a pass for my Lord Mandeville to take up horses to London, which I wrote in the King’s name,1 and carried it to him to sign, which was the first and only one that ever he signed in the ship Charles. To bed, coming in sight of land a little before night.

A noble company dine with the carpenter,
a merry droll man of Palestine
that made love king.
I hear him say
that children look with both their eyes
till custom teaches otherwise.
We now see as horses do,
a sign only coming in sight a little before.


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Thursday 24 May 1660.

Skeptic

erasure of a page from Samuel Pepys' diary

I hear the wind speak:
nothing but epitaph,
brass angels crying.
The church, a poor man’s box
that binds any guest
to the dying light
like some great weight.
I go down to the water
with my echo:
to say is to know.


Erasure poem derived from The Diary of Samuel Pepys, Friday 18 May 1660.

Fortune-telling with foxes

Under the Banyan:

In the wilderness beyond Sangha stood a trio of elders who provide people with advice about problems or changes in their lives. To do this they seek the help of a sacred desert creature — the pale fox (Vulpes pallida). First the men use a stick to scribble symbols in the sand to represent a client’s questions and possible answers. Then they scatter peanuts over the marks they have left and go home for the night. After the sun sets, there is a good chance that a fox will come to eat the nuts. The next morning, the elders check which answers the fox has left its footprints on — and that is the advice they give.

Spirit of Dog

good dog

I was very sorry to learn of the death of Chloe, seen here in 2007 lying on my porch while her master Mike, a contractor who’s married to an aunt of mine, did some work on the living room. Chloe was a good-natured dog, not to mention highly photogenic: this is one of my favorite photos of the porch. I used it in the header of the original Morning Porch blog for more than a year, back when it was still on Tumblr. Even though neither the dog nor that chair typically resided on my front porch, they really helped convey the Appalachian setting.

spirit of dog 1

Last December, the dead elm tree next to the French lilac lost its top in a high wind, and the old concrete dog statue that had stood at point at the edge of the yard for, I’m guessing, at least 60 years was smashed. But when I finally got around to cleaning up the mess a couple of weeks ago, after the last snow melted, I noticed something peculiar: what had been a semi-cheesy, mass-produced piece of garden statuary now resembled a modernist sculpture, which might be called something like Spirit of Dog. It stands on two rusted steel bars, the remnants of the statue’s front legs, still lodged in the mostly buried concrete base.

spirit of dog 2

I could try removing the remnants of white paint for a cleaner look, but then I’d have to keep after the bird shit as well. The next thing you know I’d be pruning the lilac (also badly damaged this winter by a cottontail rabbit, which has girdled several of the largest trunks) and mowing the lawn, and the entire, wild character of the yard would be degraded just to showcase a readymade sculpture. No thanks. I think it’s incumbent on me and anyone who visits to see the impact of time and weather as itself a kind of pruning or whetting. Aging doesn’t diminish, it revises — it makes new. For me, this new/old sculpture might serve as a guide and inspiration for my erasure poetry.

Until recently, I had this quote (which I removed only because it wasn’t clear who actually said it) in the Morning Porch header: “There is another life, but it is in this one.” In a certain, quite literal (concrete!) sense, there was always a sculpture in that dog statue, waiting to get out. Seeing the dead and broken as still in some sense whole, but simply shifted to a new state of being — well, that’s about as mystical as I get these days. For those in mourning for a real dog, I expect it’s completely beside the point, as most afterlife speculation tends to be. Chloe will be missed, and that absence cannot be filled. It’s not even vaguely comparable to the slight disquiet I still feel over the loss of a statue. The “life” of a work of art is complex and interesting in its own way, but it pales beside the wonder — the miracle, really — of a living animal.

The Prophet Jeremiah

She was such a dogmatic atheist, she didn’t even believe in the heart. It’s just a pump, she said. The skin is the only truly romantic organ, and it doesn’t need to hide in a cage. You can tell at a glance whether a scar has healed. I was heating a razor with a cigarette lighter to sterilize the blade; she needed some blood for an art project.

Our affair had been brief, and had ended two years before. Thank you for doing this, she said. I wouldn’t have been able to stand the pain myself. Pain is a gift from God—a warning that something is wrong, I said, half joking. But in fact the blade was so sharp and the four, parallel cuts in the back of my arm so shallow, I barely felt a thing.

She collected the red drops in a small cup, then filled a fountain pen and began to sketch. The heart is like the prophet Jeremiah, I went on. It never shuts up, and it always has the same message: we’re going to die. I only listen to the voices in my gut, which are often louder in praise than in complaint. And while I chattered, her pen fleshed out a beautiful machine.

Black Books and the gift of comedy

Shakespeare ruined comedy. I had this realization — not for the first time, but with renewed force — last night as I was watching an episode of a British TV series called Black Books in which the lead female character, under the influence of a yoga-teacher friend, attempts to improve herself, stops smoking and drinking, etc., but at the end of the episode gets roaring drunk and backslides to her old self. The way it was set up, with the yoga teacher and briefly the main character herself waxing exceptionally self-righteous and hypocritical, the reversion to the status quo ante came as a huge relief and added greatly to the satisfaction I felt as a viewer.

It occurred to me that the imperviousness of human beings to real change is a theme in all the funniest comedy I’ve read or seen, from Japanese Bunraku puppet theater to the plays of Ben Johnson to Rabelais, the Marx Brothers and Monty Python, and yet it directly contradicts the orthodox view of What a Good Story Should Do, which was drilled into me as early as primary school. There must be character development, right? In the course of the play or story, through some sort of conflict, the main character(s) must grow or change in some way. Otherwise, they’ll remain two-dimensional — mere caricatures!

Well, there’s a certain amount of truth to that, actually. Perhaps what I am advancing here is a defense of the caricature as a satisfying stand-in for human beings in the round, especially in the dramatic arts. Even where tragedy is concerned, too much so-called realism can spoil things for me. The slow, spare gestures of Noh and the histrionic emotions of Western opera alike point to deeper truths about the nature of existence than a merely naturalistic portrayal might. In Aristotelian aesthetic theory, the proper audience reaction to tragedy is catharsis, a kind of emotional purging or cleansing originally associated with sacrificial rites. Physiologically speaking, there’s little doubt that a good cry when one needs it tends to improve one’s general outlook. But it seems to me that comedy can do even more to restore a sense of well-being and harmony, and that the primary physical manifestation there is the belly-laugh — but sometimes tears, as well. This can feel at least briefly transformational.

So I guess there’s an irony at work here: in order to enable a profound emotional change in the audience, the playwright or scriptwriters have to depict characters as basically powerless to change either fate (tragedy) or their own nature (comedy). The more a comedic character remains true to type, the funnier the comedy, I think, because the biggest laughs tend to be provoked by nervous recognition, shock and relief. And when there isn’t any expectation that characters have to conform to some notion of realism, the true (as I see it) absurdity of existence is brought into sharper focus.

Romantic comedy as more-or-less invented by Shakespeare gives us happy endings in which characters change for the better, but sacrifices the sense of total absurdity found in true, Ben Jonson-style comedy. After hundreds of years of cultural conditioning, we tend to perceive the Shakespearean approach as more realistic, but what if the Buddha was right, and life is in fact inherently painful and unsatisfactory? Isn’t the sort of progress envisioned by the writers of conventional dramas rather trivial, if not down-right delusional? We all die in the end, and many of us will suffer rather intensely before that happens. We need belly laughs, I think, much more than we need the false comfort of belief systems that teach us to yearn for progress. Hoping and yearning, while I suppose necessary at some level, don’t restore a sense of harmony with the universe the way laughter can. They leave us perennially dissatisfied with our lot, a society of whiners and wankers (and — totally coincidentally, of course — a society of avid consumers).

In some ways, the caricature is realer than we are willing to admit — perhaps because our very sense of self is a social construct, with no real soul or essence behind it. There’s an artificial quality to every personality, which a well-written and -acted comedy simply exaggerates. Thus, comedy simultaneously tests and reinforces our belief in the self; it’s oddly comforting when characters in a comedy attempt to change and fail miserably, as in the episode of Black Books that I was watching last night. The caricature is stretched a bit, it heaves and threatens to break its bonds like a belly in a paroxysm of laughter, but when it returns to the way it had been, there’s both relief and pleasure. Change is scary and difficult, so a failure to change is reassuring, letting us off the hook in our own fucked-upness. But while the characters haven’t changed, and perhaps we haven’t either in any fundamental sense, at least for the moment we feel a greater affection for them — and for our own, fucked-up selves. And this is the greatest gift of all.

In praise of the yin state

The Good Typist:

The prospect of getting lost, physically or otherwise, has always terrified me. But I am coming to see that there is power in being lost. There is power in existing in a state of not-knowing, of having no answers, no foregone conclusions, no assurances, and no real sense of the outcome. I have stopped fighting it, and have instead decided to explore it, to feel its textures, and see what it has to offer. And I find that I’m enjoying the drift, the sense that all possibilities are open and that I don’t yet know what is unfolding for me creatively, only that something is.

In praise of silent transformations

The Myriad Things:

What I love about this idea of “silent” transformation is its gentleness, its freedom from drama. It does not hysterically shriek that time is passing and that we need to do something before it is too late: instead it quietly solicits our attentiveness, asking us to look to the subtle and labile nature of the multiple changes that are already in process. [François] Jullien spends a good deal of time talking about what he calls—against Badiou—the ‘mythology’ of the event. There is a certain strain within continental philosophy that is obsessed with the idea of the ‘event’ as a break with the existing order of things, a kind of rupture that is necessary for something new to happen: because without some kind of break in the order of things, so the story goes, there could be nothing of newness in the world. Events of this kind—events that seem to be a break with the existing order of things—could be called noisy transformations: like the events of the nightly news, they monopolise our attention, so that we don’t notice those quieter transformations that are happening all the time. And I can’t help wondering if the very drama of these noisy transformations blinds us to the fact that even these events are not really such a break in the order of things at all (hence Jullien’s ‘mythology’ of the event): instead—but only if we ignore the noisiness and the drama and look a bit more patiently and calmly—we can see, in retrospect, that the seeds of these transformations had been growing for a long time.

(Be sure to read the comments thread as well as the post.)

Dim-witted gods and the importance of poetry

God of Wednesday:

I think the brilliant character of the giant Utgard-Loki, with his wry attitude toward that little fellow Thor who “must be bigger than he looks,” is a stand-in for Snorri [Sturluson] himself. They share the same humorous tolerance of the gods. There is very little sense throughout the Edda that these were gods to be feared or worshipped, especially not the childish, naïve, blustering, weak-witted, and fallible Thor who is so easily deluded by Utgard-Loki’s wizardry of words. What god in his right mind would wrestle with a crone named “Old Age”? Or expect his servant-boy to outrun “Thought”?

It also fits with why Snorri wrote the Edda: to teach the 14-year-old king of Norway about Viking poetry. This story has a moral: See how foolish you would look, Snorri is saying to young King Hakon, if you didn’t understand that words can have more than one meaning, or that names can be taken literally? The story of Utgard-loki is, at heart, a story about why poetry matters.