There’s a bird that comes

This entry is part 43 of 47 in the series Morning Porch Poems: Summer 2012

There’s a bird that comes to perch
on the dead cherry—

Is it the same that returns each day;
was it a man or a woman once,

a child, a snail, a blind ascetic
walking through the hills?

The sound it makes is dull percussion
on the side of a hollow bowl.

Is it the same, but now a winged soul
that troubles the wood

all through the year? A landmark:
pocked, scarred, familiar—

Safe in the relative way we
ourselves return,

to seek the ghosts of previous
hungers; then striking out

again for all that green, still
achingly out of reach.

 

In response to an entry from the Morning Porch.

Morning, I am slow waking in your patient light—

it is so difficult to write to that future which none of us
can see, and harder still sometimes to find the right voice

for addressing what they said was only the wind,
or unborn generations disguised as distant foothills;
nothing more menacing than landscape or weather,

hope like the legend of a country ready to be
colonized by benevolence, if not for a revolution
that spread like wildfire up and down the coast.

I told my daughter the story of the general’s wife;
how she took up his cause after he fell in battle,
how she was captured. And she paused, considering

the grave weight of sacrifice; or more precisely,
the little heft one body signifies against the tide.
Closer at hand, night brings shrouds of phantoms

into view and they are everything we’ve come to know
so intimately from daily life— The stolen words, the lies
of men of state; their bland oblivion to what they see

only as the tedium of pedestrian suffering.
And we may be slow, as slow as morning
that forgives so much as it begins to trace

the circle over again: so much like history,
so much like what repeats as many times
as it will take, until it finds the break.

 

In response to small stone (145).

Pumapatak*

This entry is part 42 of 47 in the series Morning Porch Poems: Summer 2012

Maomaoyu : fine hair rain—

Natsu âme: summer rain—

Buhos : downpour, Noah’s rain—

Bagyo : storm—

Ambon : drizzle—

Ulap : clouds that bring both mist and rain—

Agar-arbis : what we say up north—

Hil ulán, kaw uyán, uran : in Hiligaynon—

Some syllables are rain themselves—

 

 

*Drops are falling.

 

In response to an entry from the Morning Porch.

The asterisk calls. It leaves a message:

It says, You stood me up. You don’t return
my calls or texts. You didn’t go to work
yesterday. I wanted to ask whom you met
for lunch. What did you eat, and where
did you go afterwards? I waited at the bar
till 1 a.m. then took a walk and fell asleep
on a bench at the end of the pier. I woke
quite stiff, feeling crumpled at the edges.
No one bothered me, not even the seagulls
raucous for their breakfast. From above,
I must have looked like an ink-colored speck,
mere footnote amid the city’s detritus.

My fingers hover above the keypad as I listen
to the prompt: To erase, press *7.

 

In response to Via Negativa: Asterisk.

Asterisk

This entry is part 19 of 34 in the series Small World

To be small is to be distant
& vice versa.

The asterisk calls.
It leaves a message.

You turn it all the way up:
it sounds like a small fan.

In some parallel universe
all the stars look like this

& books with too many footnotes
collapse into black holes.

Tangents

from Fr. ricochet (n.) “the skipping of a shot, or of a flat stone on water,” in earliest use … fable du ricochet, an entertainment in which the teller of a tale skillfully evades questions, and chanson du ricochet, a kind of repetitious song; of uncertain origin… from 1769.

 

Clouds gather. They’re always gathering. Sometimes the black dog comes to call. It brings
a little news of you: how you hardly think of home since you’ve split, sprinted, ricocheted.

Into the giant Sears Roebuck Catalog of the universe, I’ve sent countless orders.
Sometimes I can’t figure out actual deliveries from those that have ricocheted.

Light rain bounces off the pavement at summer’s end. Who invented the silly rule that
one can’t wear white after Labor Day? Classics are among the best forms of ricochet.

Last night you were introduced at the bar to the Car Bomb: whiskey on Irish cream
floated into a shot glass, then dropped into a Guinness: foam’s heady ricochet.

Skim and bounce, carom, rebound; mash and bump, kiss and touch, sideswipe and graze.
Climb over the fence with me: what’s left to do but watch the fireflies ricochet?

 

In response to small stone (144).

Eyecup

This entry is part 18 of 34 in the series Small World

The blue plastic eyecup
of my mote-ridden boyhood
still sits on the top shelf
behind the bathroom mirror,
at eye-level now.
I remember how good
cool tap water felt
after the hot tears,
tilting my head all
the way back & willing
my eyelid to open,
& afterwards feeling
the scar & the scare recede
from that bit of grit,
but also a lingering sense
of guilt for letting
all the water dribble
to the floor or sink, how
the eye that tried to take in
a small piece of the earth,
as if mere vision were
no longer enough,
had blinked away the offer
of additional tears—
had refused to drink.

Retrospective

This entry is part 40 of 47 in the series Morning Porch Poems: Summer 2012

The night before I left that first time,
I stayed up composing a letter
while the three of you slept. We were

guests in someone’s godfather’s house,
a few murky breaths from the bay;
neon poured through the windows

while the air conditioning unit blew
noisy drafts into the room. Along the sea
wall, peddlers hawked their wares.

Traffic coursed through choked streets
humid as the weather. Before first
light, in the morning, it was time

to leave for the airport. One of you
slept through it, was left behind.
A small mercy, I was told, to keep

you dreaming some hours more. I don’t
quite know now if that was the right
thing to do; or what you felt

when you awoke and no adequate sign
materialized for the apology I have been
making in the intervening years since then.

 

In response to an entry from the Morning Porch.