I turned 55 on the first spring-like day in late February, which felt like a cosmic mixed message. For weeks I’ve been fighting low-level depression about getting older and being a failure as a husband — and by fighting I mean going for long walks, mostly on snowshoes.
bone-tired
ogling the snow-free
strips of field
My birthday was shopping day, though, and when I got back to my parents’ house with their groceries, just past noon, Mom surprised me with a cake. And it was warm enough to sit out on their veranda and talk. It took me back.
When I think about my childhood now, it seems to me that I spent an inordinate amount of time just kind of poking at things with a stick. I suppose that must sound absurd to anyone who grew up with video games and the internet.
decades
after the last train
tree-of-heaven
I’m consoled by the thought that this sort of arm’s-length but intent preoccupation with whatever was in front of me may have been the perfect preparation for being a haiku poet. Though of course predilection doesn’t necessarily imply a gift. It would be presumptuous to assume that nature works like that.
growing
a thicker exoskeleton
rock tripe
Happy belated birthday, Dave. As for mixed cosmic messages, this has been quite the year for them… Thank you for your walks that bring us haikus and videopoems.
It’s been my pleasure (mostly). Thanks so much for the kind words.